Amber

My Testimony...Please take the time to read this. It may make a difference in your life. I had to grow up very fast. My childhood was really taken away so quickly, I find it difficult to remember sometimes. My Mama got sick with cancer (the first time) when I was twelve. After that, I basically took over all of the household responsibilities and took care of my sister, who is almost eight years younger than me. Eventually, Mama got better, and I had all of the regular high school experiences and everything seemed to be going well until Mama got sick again, and this time it was terminal. On Christmas Day 1998, Daddy tells me that my Mama has less than a month to live. As my world was reeling, God seemed to have a plan, though. Mama lived past the one month deadline and seemed to be getting much better. I met the man of dreams in March 1999 and within two weeks we were engaged. Talk about fast! I graduated in May 1999, with Honors, and was preparing to get married in July. We were married on a beautiful day and everything was perfect, until after we returned from our honeymoon. On July 12, 1999, only nine days after I had had the happiest day of my life, I ended up having the most devestating. Mama passed away from cancer on a Monday and we buried her on a Thursday. Talk about falling on my knees before God. Why God? Why me? Why now? Why did you take her? I need her. I just got married. Where will I go for advice? She will never get to meet her grandchildren. Why? Why? Why? After about a year of deep depression, my husband, the life-saver that he is, took me to a counselor. That lady helped me, along with God, to stop blaming myself, blaming God and blaming everyone else for what had happened. Things happen. Life is short. I had to move on and I have, gradually, moved on. I still miss her, but now I have the reassurance that one day I will see her again. Whether it be through death or through the Rapture, I have the faith that I will be reunited with my Mama. There is a Christian song that says "Live Out Loud". It talks about living your life the way that Jesus would. Through this journey of life I've had, thus far, (and I am only twenty-four) I have seen a lot and been through a lot. But, the most important thing for me to do right now is to share that Jesus Loves You more than anything. I want to live my life out loud to show others that the light of Christ shines through me. I hope that you want this for your life too. I don't know who will read this, but I want you to know, I am praying for you. Because, see, I want to see you in Heaven on that beautiful day and celebrate with you. If you don't know Jesus, make sure that you ask Him into your heart today. Don't wait! You never know where this road of life might lead you. Remember, Jesus Loves You so much and God Bless you all!