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state of love

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About Me

I'm the shy girl until you get to know me. Then I'm still kinda shy.
Life has taught us that love does not consist in gazing at each other but in looking outward together in the same direction.
(Antoine de Saint-Exupery)

My Interests

music, clouds, concerts, poetry, the ocean, smiling, crashing waves, photography, car adventures, green rolling hills, love, castles, complete gravity, infinite sky, rain, baseball, pictures, leaves, laughing, coffee, playing golf, swimming, late nights, good conversation, bees, tattoos, zines, rock and roll, dancing...

I'd like to meet:

& you.

Music:

A Scribe Amidst the Lions, Pearl Jam, Jeff Buckley, Tool, Alice in Chains, Bright Eyes, Ours, Black Rebel Motorcycle Club, Ryan Adams, Blind Melon, Cat Power, Cold War Kids, Fiona Apple, The Mars Volta, Queens of the Stone Age, Joseph Arthur, Stone Temple Pilots, Pigeon John, Chemical Brothers, The Clash, Transfer, Nick Cave, The Postal Service, Gravity Kills, Muse, Filter, Beastie Boys, Pink Floyd, Static X, Chevelle, LCD Soundystem, Pinback, M. Ward, Electric Six, TV on the Radio, The Black Angels

Movies:


Edward Scissorhands, Donnie Darko, Dream for an Insomniac, 28 Days Later, Go, Trainspotting, Garden State, Empire Records, Benny & Joon, Willard, American Psycho, Swingers, Amelie, Powder, Interview with the Vampire, Fight Club, Finding Neverland, Back to the Future

Television:


CSI, The Simpsons, Six Feet Under, Family Guy, Grey's Anatomy

Books:


Perks of Being a Wallflower by Chbosky, Violin by Anne Rice, most things by Salinger, Dangerous Angels by Francesca Lia Block, Sylvia Plath Journals & poetry, Anne Sexton poetry, Love is a Dog from Hell by Bukowski, Brave New World by Huxley, Diary of an Emotional Idiot by Maggie Estep, Life of Pi by Yann Martel

Heroes:

you.

My Blog

blankets

i can't read. i cannot goddamn read. i tried. i have been trying for years. tonight i felt panic. come on, you know i can read. but i felt panic like I CANNOT READ because I am so drown from not writi...
Posted by state of love on Sun, 10 Feb 2008 10:58:00 PST

soundtrack

the thing that plays all the while. it is the beating of your heart and the flow of your blood through all essential organs. and non-essential ones. non-essential. i was wondering tonightif i will alw...
Posted by state of love on Fri, 21 Apr 2006 01:28:00 PST

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i don't know why i let things effffffect me. how do i learn not to take things so personally? am i that self-conscious? oh lord! my legs hurt. every house i visit suffocates me. i want to live under t...
Posted by state of love on Tue, 04 Apr 2006 11:46:00 PST

settled

i guess i'm better now. just tired. there are always those few days, you know. manic pressure swing throwing us which-ways. me for sure. it's better not to talk to anyone, sometimes. of course i miss ...
Posted by state of love on Sat, 25 Mar 2006 11:48:00 PST

stuff. it.

i want to sing a little "eat shit and die" song to no one today. well, everyone really. sorry.driving home in a manic frenzy, eyes crazed and wanting to ram cars. it happens. these days. nah, not like...
Posted by state of love on Thu, 23 Mar 2006 04:31:00 PST

like ants

i feel like there are little termite-sized monsters chewing on my heart.
Posted by state of love on Mon, 27 Feb 2006 01:23:00 PST

par

last sunday, i went out golfing with two friends. we were hiking up to hole three when i found & picked a large dandilion. as i blew the thing to bits, all i thought was "love".
Posted by state of love on Wed, 22 Feb 2006 11:52:00 PST

humor me...

http://kevan.org/johari?name=rhiana
Posted by state of love on Mon, 13 Feb 2006 11:43:00 PST

joseph arthur

i wish he'd come back and do another show and tell me that i look like i'm 16. I never sleepI been awake for what feels like a year'Cause when I dreamMy mind  puts a faceTo each one of my fears...
Posted by state of love on Thu, 09 Feb 2006 09:46:00 PST

sunday already?

it feels like some sort of off-holiday. i'm at my mom's for a family day sort of thing to gather around tv for the SuperBlow. that's right, i hate football. but at least i will be seeing the fam. and...
Posted by state of love on Sun, 05 Feb 2006 01:54:00 PST