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...even if it kills me

Trying one last time...

About Me

I am the world's fattest fitness geek, but that's slowly changing. I don't really care about dating or intimate relations anymore. I don't like wasting time. I am an artist, musician, craftsman, philosopher, aspiring magician, intellectual, gamer, geek, metalhead, Viking, master of the kitchen, student of Soto Zen...but greater than the sum of my parts. No label can define me.

Best friend/worst enemy...seems like a cliche, but there are people that can attest to both.

Many things to many people. What will I be to you? Are you willing to find out, or are you afraid?

My Interests

Playing, performing, writing, and listening to music. I also love weightlifting, movies, video games, books, and being a craftsman.

I'd like to meet:

Ideally, it'd be really cool to meet more local people, preferably ones with interests like mine. All in all, I'm interested in meeting anyone that's able to hold a conversation...or anyone with nerves of steel. Both are important, but a functional sense of humor is mandatory.

Music:

None of these are in order. Here goes (long list):

Metal (first, of course): Megadeth, Burton-era Metallica, Judas Priest, Iron Maiden, Black Sabbath, Children of Bodom, Death, Testament, Anthrax, Amon Amarth, Opeth, Motorhead, Shadows Fall, newer Killswitch Engage, In Flames, Iced Earth, Dark Tranquility, Dark Moor, Hypocrisy, Nightrage, Fear My Thoughts, Into Eternity, Destruction, God Forbid, Soilwork, Evergrey, Sonata Arctica, Blind Guardian, Celtic Frost, Nightwish, Masterplan, Meshuggah, Stratovarius, Edguy, Firewind, Dream Evil, White Zombie, Venom, Vader, Poisonblack, Sentenced, Suicidal Tendencies, Primus, and a whole lot of others I'll add to this as I think of them.

Punk/Ska (ish): Dropkick Murphys, Flogging Molly, The Pogues, NoFX, Less Than Jake, Reel Big Fish, Bad Religion, Lagwagon, The Eyeliners, The Misfits, Me First and the Gimme Gimmes, The Ramones, The Clash, Operation Ivy, Rancid, The Mighty Mighty Bosstones, MxPx, Save Ferris, old Offspring (Ignition, Smash, and the Self Titled EP from 1989), The Specials, Mephiskapheles, Buck O'Nine, MU330, The Vandals, Tokyo Ska Paradise Orchestra, Social Distortion, Less Than Jake, Bouncing Souls, and again, a bunch more I'll add as I think of them.

Other shit: Paul Simon, Peter Gabriel (with Genesis and solo), Victor Wooten (with The Flecktones and solo), Squarepusher, Loreena McKennitt, Aesop Rock, Eyedea, anything from Anticon, Atmosphere, Liz Phair, P-Funk, Run DMC, Sir Mixalot, Scooter, DJ Liquid, Static-X, Powerman 5000, VNV Nation, Covenant, Vanilla Ice (I mean that, I have 3 of his CDs), Jaco Pastorius, and one more time, more that I'll add as they come to me.

Support the Indianapolis Punk Scene!

Movies:

Big movie geek. Here are a few:

Boondock Saints, Wayne's World 1&2, The Princess Bride, Standing In The Shadows Of Motown, Scratch, ID-4, The Incredibles, Shrek 1&2, everything from Kevin Smith, everything Monty Python, A Fish Called Wanda, Braveheart, Snatch, Lock Stock & Two Smoking Barrels, Blues Brothers, Animal House, Slap Shot, The Lord Of The Rings Trilogy, The Tao Of Steve, Stargate, PCU, Hudson Hawk, History Of The World Part 1, a bunch of animated flicks including Disney and assorted anime.

Television:

TV pretty much sucks. I only own one so that I can play video games and watch movies.

Books:

Orson Scott Card's Ender series, Frank Herbert's Dune and Dune Messiah, Terry Brooks' Shannara books, Tolkien's Silmarillion, Lord of The Rings and The Hobbit, C.S. Lewis' Chronicles of Narnia (since before the movie, bitches!!), Stephen Hawking's Brief History Of Time and The Universe In A Nutshell, Eric Meyer on CSS, Douglas Adams' Hitchhiker's Guide To The Galaxy, Anne Rice's first 5 Vampire Chronicles, and a whole lot of others I can't think of off the top of my head.

Heroes:

No one has ever demonstrated anything extraordinary enough to be considered a hero.

Some of my musical influences: Matt Wong, Cliff Burton, David Ellefson, Joe Gittleman, Steve Harris, Steve DiGiorgio, Victor Wooten, Fat Mike, Alex Webster, Jari Kainulainen, Tony Levin, and Les Claypool. All bass players, if you didn't figure that out.

My Blog

Falling apart.

Physically, not mentally or emotionally for a change.My jaw is fucked up.  It's really sore and then it pops.  With my luck, it's gonna end up being TMJ or some shit.I shit blood on Friday n...
Posted by ...even if it kills me on Sun, 17 Jun 2007 08:58:00 PST

Another new beginning

I started a new cut today.  I figure if I do everything right this time, I'll only be dropping about 15-20 more pounds and can realistically do that in 8-10 weeks.No, I'm not really motivated to ...
Posted by ...even if it kills me on Sun, 13 May 2007 10:38:00 PST

Round 2 of this bitch

I'm drunk.  It's 3pm on a Sunday and I've already had a good bit of whiskey and rum and whatever the fuck else is in my shelves/fridge/freezer, so it's time for another round of "10 things in uns...
Posted by ...even if it kills me on Sun, 22 Apr 2007 12:22:00 PST

4-6

24 hours ago, I hadn't decided if I was going to go out last night.I'm glad I did.A bit of the shit going through my mind got cleared up.  Not all of it, some things are still processing, but som...
Posted by ...even if it kills me on Sat, 07 Apr 2007 12:28:00 PST

God damn mood swings

It's amazing.  I was doing pretty well, and then all of a sudden, I'm in the shitter.Tried getting some song ideas laid down, but the subject matter is all wholly depressing and I'm depressed as ...
Posted by ...even if it kills me on Tue, 03 Apr 2007 04:37:00 PST

When should the line be drawn?

It was recently proposed that I give too much of myself.  In the past, I've been willing to give freely to people that needed it.  I've denied myself things I've wanted because they conflict...
Posted by ...even if it kills me on Sun, 25 Mar 2007 10:39:00 PST

Holy shit...another blog!!!

An article that was written a while back by Henry Rollins showing the power of self-improvement.:------------------------------------------ --------------------------------------- I believe that the d...
Posted by ...even if it kills me on Wed, 14 Mar 2007 07:10:00 PST

I may have been adopted

One of my recently acquired friends has made it her mission to get me belo 10% bodyfat.  The lowest I've ever been in my life was my senior year of high school, and was about 18% at 282 lbs. ...
Posted by ...even if it kills me on Tue, 13 Mar 2007 03:08:00 PST

3 days later

Alright, as some of you know, this weekend was a real eye opener for me.  I went in expecting to see some cool stuff, have a good time, and that would be it.  I didn't know that I was going ...
Posted by ...even if it kills me on Thu, 08 Mar 2007 05:00:00 PST

First cycle is done

Ok, my first PSMF is at a close.  I'm maintaining for two weeks, that'll get me about 2500 calories a day.Once rehydrated, I'll be down about 7.5 lbs of actual fat in the last 21 days.  I've...
Posted by ...even if it kills me on Sat, 24 Feb 2007 02:03:00 PST