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her manic disorder

I have come with my dolly from the shadow side, with a demon and an englishman . . .

About Me

i love theaters and coffee houses, china dolls and razor blades, beautiful people and macabre poetry and art. i am a sanguinarian and heavily into the renaissance. i am a submissive and a poet at heart. addicted to the written word . . .i like spiced chai, gloomy days and indoor voices.i like vampire movies, black and white photographs and charcoal drawings and i need black roses to live . . . i am a hopeless romantic, and above all else, i believe in fairy tales. lately, it just feels like the walls are always pressing in on me and i can't breathe. i like to call it virginia woolf because i think that this is the way that she must have felt . . . i like to read anything bloody or morbidly romantic. i larp vampire the masquerade.i am in love with winter. i could fall in love with any mortal boy in the snow . . .dislikes: crude or vulgar language, new metal music, inconsiderate smokers, tribal tattoos, rock-a-billy clothing, the dark, deep water, hillbillies and the ghost in my attic when she gets too loud

My Interests


blood, razors, ren faires, roses and eyeliner . . . projekt records, cemetaries, violins, leonard cohen and herbology/potion making . . . toe-pincher coffins, transylvania, pieces of eight, skeleton keys and slavic accents . . . ouija boards, lolitas, parasols, red velvet cake and death day photos . . . doll clothes, tea parties, ireland, jack-o-lanterns and the children's part of the cemetery . . . immortal vermin, victoria frances, wizard chess, voodoo dolls and wild flowers . . . wicca, witches, rose quartz, samhain and tarot cards . . . trees, toads, grave dirt, hand bells and the beltane fires . . . haunted houses, bats, red wine, poetry and lots of black lace . . .CURRENT MOON moon info

I'd like to meet:

boys who smoke cloves cigarettes and play vampire the masquerade. girls who wear black lace and carry coffin purses. teachers, lovers, dreamers, pagans. anyone who deems themselves like-minded. other poets, photographers and dark artists, willing to spend hours reading poetry with me. anyone who wants to cosplay, draw down the moon or spend endless nights in coffee houses discussing byron or tennyson, other sanguinarians, tori-files, slytherins, toreadors or hopeless romantics. anyone who thinks they've found a doorway to narnia . . .

Music:

my music: i am drawn to somber melodies and reverberate female voices. i listen to ethereal gothic (black tape for a blue girl, amber assylum, unto ashes, october project, faith and disease, midnight syndicate, apocalyptica,nox arcana, dead can dance, attrition, tristania, faun), new age/renaissance (blackmore's night, loreena mckennitt, enya, the dreamside, three pints gone, enigma), neo goth(cruxshadows, bella morte, carafax abbey, zeromancer,paralysed age), and music to slit your throat to (tapping the vein, jack off jill, xandria, my ruin, genitorturers, garbage, ego likeness). i am very much about lilith fair music(sarah mclaughlin,paula cole, jewel, indigo girls), i love funeral dirges and i am a compleate tori-file . . .

Movies:

my favourite movies of all time: the red violin, vampire hunter d, from hell, bram stoker's dracula, sleepy hollow, the vampire journals, ledgend, dead of night,ginger snaps, bible black, hush hush sweet charlotte, skeleton key, bondage mansion, twisted tales of tokyo, braveheart, the mists of avalon, pan's labyrinth, the dark, girl with a pearl earing, dragonheart, brothers grimm,the crow, the libertine, the ring, robinhood, the entire lord of the rings and harry potter series to date, the last unicorn, quills, the labyrinth, interview with the vampire,dark crystal, nightmare before christmas, the secret garden,little women, corpse bride, both dungeons and dragons,practical magic, it's the great pumpkin charlie brown, empire records, mirror mask, snow white (cannon and a tale of terror), lemony snicket's a series of unfortunate events, stardust, white oleander, freeway and freeway II, the hours, stigmata, hocus pocus, dogma, higher learning, willie wonka and the chocolate factory, eyes wide shut, mallrats, poetic justice, the chronicles of narnia: the lion, the witch and the wardrobe, casinova, shakespeare in love, donnie darko,the blair witch project, secretary, harold and maude, romeo and juliette, the witches, all pirates of the carribean, the craft and sleeping beauty . . .

Television:

the history channel, my so-called life, six feet under, true crime, dark shadows, the addams family, dragon tales, beatlejuice, ghost hunters, forever knight,dark heart iron hand, adventures in wonderland, neverwhere, the never ending story, the chronicles of narnia, tribe and the arts channel

Books:

Books: the historian by elizabeth kostova, anne rice's vampire and sleeping beauty chronicles, neverwhere, stardust and coraline by neil gaiman, the ledgend of sleepy hollow by washington irving, the embrace by aphrodite jones, stone words by pam conrad, the book of nod, j.k. rowling's harry potter, dragonlance, the craft series by dorothy morrison, marion zimmer bradley's avalon series, grimm fairytales, lost souls by poppie z brite, blood confession by alisa libby. i am beginning stephenie meyer's vampire series with twilight, frank beddor's alyss series with looking glass wars and angie sage and alan corduner's septimus heap series with magyk and i expect that i will be liking all of these very much.Poets: tennyson, byron, keats, poe, baudelaire, de sade, cohenComics/ manga: gloom cookie, petite cossette, nightmares and fairytales, jthm, the crow, model, bizenghast,the sandman, r.i.p., i luv halloween, lenore, dolls, tarot cafe

Heroes:

.. tori amos, my darling baby sister, elizabeth bathory, j.k. rowling, morgain le faye and my mommy.. .. .. ..

My Blog

cesko-nar hrbitov

the sky was dark and threatening rain as we rounded the corner to the old bohemian cemetery. the gates read "cesko-nar hrbitov" wich means "czech cemetery" i had gone to gather dirt from gram's grave ...
Posted by her manic disorder on Wed, 16 Apr 2008 05:36:00 PST

i saw my reflection in the snow covered hills till the landslide brought me down

belladonna makes the eyes bright;i have a skull cameo on the way. i’ve come back to you donna, will you have me? this is me falling even more in love with snow . . .moonlit skin and bare neckcru...
Posted by her manic disorder on Wed, 09 Apr 2008 07:12:00 PST

home sick

so i drank waaaayyy too much last night and have been home sick all day puking with a terrible headache . . . ugggh.  i feel like franken-amanda. so i decided to put my hair in pigtails because y...
Posted by her manic disorder on Tue, 01 Apr 2008 01:07:00 PST

i’m trying not to move, it’s just your ghost passing through

so, my acceptance of "the beekeeper" is complete. i am fully aware of the fact that i am unable to spell febuary and i really don’t care. this is another faerie ring weekend and what do you thin...
Posted by her manic disorder on Tue, 25 Mar 2008 05:56:00 PST

name your god and bleed the freak

four years today and i'm still afraid of the dark. i just hide it now. my mind is full of mud and bubbles today. like a lavender lens. i see me and pig-pig someday in a tutu. i like when jeff plays al...
Posted by her manic disorder on Wed, 27 Feb 2008 06:15:00 PST

how are the lizzies? hows your jesus christ been hanging?

paper dolls, if i told them it would stopspread out like cobwebs across my tonguei didn't mean to tell on you, dark hallwaysit was snowing big fat flakes outside my grandmother's window the night that...
Posted by her manic disorder on Wed, 27 Feb 2008 04:15:00 PST

it tasted like strawberry soda cyanide

so i finally wrote a happy song . . .  and i'm kind of excited about it. it makes me want to dye my hair neon pink . . .last night i dreamed that a friend was giving me open heart surgeryand it t...
Posted by her manic disorder on Sat, 26 Jan 2008 08:57:00 PST

go to bed, the priests are dead, now no one can call you bad

katherine's got two feet in the grave and i can see it on her facethe way that time wears thin when the petals fade awaythe boys chased and chased her till they were dizzymuddy feet like a drum song b...
Posted by her manic disorder on Fri, 18 Jan 2008 07:40:00 PST

love dont mistake that it wasnt safe for mathas foolish ginger

"the little girl, remember? you told me something from the tombstone. the girl who died and her mother planted the pink roses . . . so they would bloom on her birthday. don't you remember the rose bus...
Posted by her manic disorder on Thu, 03 Jan 2008 07:37:00 PST

ive been here . . . silent all these years

i have this need within me to create a faerie ring. perhaps it has to do with the absence of the horned king, but i feel a craving for spring and rain and beltane. i want to make this faerie ring with...
Posted by her manic disorder on Thu, 03 Jan 2008 07:13:00 PST