journalist (www.obsession-mag.de),author ( for further info please check: http://spaces.msn.com/members/impulskontrollverlust) and on stage with Dioxyde (www.dioxyde.de) as a live - keyboarder/figure skating coach (ex professional figure skater)/from February '08 'til...who knows...(;)) student at the Henri-Nannen-Journalistic-School (now called "Klara") in Berlin/ a little weird sometimes/ hard to predict and naughty but nice ;)...
Your Stripper Song Is
Closer by Nine Inch Nails
"You let me violate you, you let me desecrate you
You let me penetrate you, you let me complicate you
Help me I broke apart my insides, help me I?ve got no
Soul to tell"
When you dance, it's a little scary - and a lot sexy.
What Song Should You Strip To?
You Are a Glam Rocker!
You put the "show" in rock show with your larger than life self.
No doubt, you are all about making good music...
But what really gets you going is having an over the top show.
Glitter, costumes, and wild hair are your thing - with some rock thrown in!
What Kind of Rocker Are You?
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You Communicate With Your Ears
You love conversations, both as a listener and a talker.
What people say is important to you, and you're often most affected by words, not actions.
You love to hear complements from others. And when you're upset, you often talk to yourself.
Music is very important to you. It's difficult to find you without your iPod.
How Do You Communicate?
You Will Die at Age 58
Not bad, considering your super wild lifestyle
Want to live longer? Try losing a few bad habits.
What Age Will You Die?
You May Be a Bit Borderline...
Your mood swings make a roller coaster look tame!
When you're up, you're a little bit crazy...
And when you're down, your whole world is crashing
Scary thing is, these moods can change by the minute!
What Personality Disorder Are You?
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Praying for the final dusk to rise –
Oh, I’m so tired of searching for a reason to acclimatise –
Dawn is crawling through the empty street –
And I’m trapped between the walls of defeat –
Wimpy and hollow the light sets the day –
It must have been ages, since I lost the way…
Avenues all lined with trees –
Choking on my bitter memories –
Watching the reel, as the scenes were replaying –
Seeing myself like I never have seen:
A wasted portray of degeneration –
Afflicted with regression,sickness and spleen –
Your absence slowly breaks my spine –
Now you savour a life, that I wished would be mine –
Saw me lying scattered on the floor –
Simpering,nodding, then closing the door –
Facing the facts: It was nothing hard to explore –
A sobering perception: something good couldn’t function anymore –
It’s all about this silly game – cruel but easy as it is –
But what I wanted was so much more – I wanted so much more than this –
The last time I saw you – I will never forget:
You were morbidly laughing – filled with shame and regret –
A dreadful cognition rose within your empty heart –
It had ruined you, beaten you, torn you apart –
Now morning has broken, I feel blinded by the sun –
Panic takes a hold of me – I can’t accept that you are gone –
My shivering body delves – a final moment of despite –
Rearing, squaffed off and then merging to the night –
Oh Honey, I tried – please believe me –
I did the best that I can –
But I’m ashamed of the things that resulted –
I’m ashamed of the person I am –
I think it’s too late now – there’s nothing left to say –
Simply nothing I could do – encountering this sway –
I’m obsessed, I’m scared, I’m cutting reasons to my skin –
Awaiting a wonder – somewhere down from within –
Quivering thoughts paralyzing my mind –
I lost all my temper – I’m about to go blind –
Weary and pale – thinking off all that I miss –
There is no always and forever – just this!
JUST THIS!
2.11.06,Shirin V.
Some general stuff:
Birthplace: Münster,NRW, Germany
Current Location: Münster/Berlin
Right Handed or Left Handed: Left handed
Your Heritage: German
Height: 1.72 m
Weight: currently 52 kg
The Shoes You Wore Today: Black Asian Ballerina Shoes from my favourite Asian Store – only 9 Euros the pair!
Your Weakness: A good, sweet Frozen Strawberry Daiquiri
Your Fears: Too many ("The highest goal to achieve is to overcome your fears)"…
Your Perfect Pizza: No cheese except mozarrella, spinaci, lots of tomato sauce
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: I guess I will keep this secret
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: *lol*
Thoughts First Waking Up: Did I oversleep again?!
Your Best Physical Feature: I think, I will leave this question for other’s to answer…
Your Bedtime: Depends – usually between 2 and 4 a.m.
Your Most Missed Memory: No comment
Pepsi or Coke: Diet coke
MacDonalds or Burger King: McDonalds (only because of the gorgeous McFlurry they have there)
Single or Group Dates: Depends – both can be nice
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Lipton
Chocolate or Vanilla: Vanilla
Cappuccino or Coffee: Coffee
Do you Smoke: yes
Do you Swear: depends
Do you Sing: yes (but I sound horrible – believe me ;-))
Do you Shower Daily: yes
Have you Been in Love: yes
Do you want to go to College: already graduated
Do you want to get Married: probably somewhen
Do you belive in yourself: sometimes
Do you get Motion Sickness: sometimes
Do you think you are Attractive: Attractiveness lies in the eye of the one who's watching you…
Are you a Health Freak: Not really
Do you get along with your Parents: Not really
Do you like Thunderstorms: yes
Do you play an Instrument: I used to play the guitar for four years, afterwards I played the piano
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: jap
In the past month have you Smoked: yes
In the past month have you been on Drugs: yes
In the past month have you gone on a Date: Hmh…well…I hate this word „date“, but yes…
In the past month have you gone to a Mall: yes
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos: no
In the past month have you eaten Sushi: Yes ( and got terribly sick of it)
In the past month have you been on Stage: yes
In the past month have you been Dumped: no
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping: Öhm…no…
In the past month have you Stolen Anything: no
Ever been Drunk: yes
Ever been called a Tease: no
Ever been Beaten up: no
Ever Shoplifted: yes
How do you want to Die: While sleeping or committing suicide..
What do you want to be when you Grow Up: What a question…I believe, that we are NEVER really „grown up“ – we learn something and grow in every second, from the very first minute we are born. And if we don’t - we could be dead aswell…
What country would you most like to Visit: China (Hong Kong), Finland (Helsinki - for putting the "L" back to HeLlsinki ;) (thanx to my gorgeous Mr.P here - you were so damn right! ;))
Best Clothing Style: Pppfff…I like extraordinary fashion – mostly black, elegant and sexy…varnish/corsettes/short skirts and some nice minimalistic, black casual shirts and trousers for relaxing
Number of Drugs I have taken: I really don’t want to start counting that now…
Number of CDs I own: Too many – hey, I’m a music journalist ;-)
Number of Piercings: Eight (ears excluded)
Number of Tattoos: Only one jet – two more planned
Number of things in my Past I Regret: Too many – and too personal as well
Nicknames: lots of...(mein klein) Schätzken,Maus,Schwesterlein,dat Shirinchen,Schnecke,Kuschelkrabbe,Peanut,Aura,Sweet,Shir,See
pferdchen,Mrs.Underwater,Sunshine,Socke,Lolita...br
Favourite Soundtrack for:
a wild dancing session in a club: Combichrist,Painbastard,Agonoize,Prodigy,Suicide Commando -all that electronic-kiss-ass-stuff
stripping: "Closer" - NIN, "Take Me Naked" - Darkar And Grinser, "Blue Orchid" - White Stripes (but only for this nasty kind of stripping - session,with an open Jack Daniels bottle in my hand ;-)), "Slow" - Kylie Minogue
a romatic evening with your love: "Iris" - Goo Goo Dolls, "Isabel" - Ego Likeness, "Creature" - Clan Of Xymox, "Purple Rain" - Prince, "Jolene" - The White Stripes, "Don't Take Your Love Away" - VAST
being down: The Cure's "Pornography", Nick Cave's "No More Shall We Part", "Colourblind" from Cruel Intentions O.S.T., "2nd Sun" - Deine Lakaien, Placebo's "Without You I'm Nothing", "Hurt"(live) - NIN
having sex: depends - from Combichrist over NIN and Type O. to Carl Orff's "Carmina Burana" - everything possible...a gorgeous "having sex - song" is also "Fitter Than You" by Pzychobitch vs. Hanin Elias
dreaming: Sopor Aeternus, VNV Nation - "Standing" and "Beloved", CoX - "There's No Tommorrow", "The Best Of" - Nick Cave, "Hallelujah" - Leonard Cohen, Diary Of Dreams - "Drop Dead"
a tripping night: everything by Syd Barrett, early Pink Floyd (gorgeous here: "Careful With The Axe Eugene", "Set The Controls For The Heart Of The Sun" and the whole "Relics" - Album)
long trips by car or train: Joy Division's "Unknown Pleasures" or "Substance" or "Still"
Some songs, that got you addicted - you used to listen to over and over again for hours: "Creature" - Clan Of Xymox, "The Mercy Seat" - Nick Cave And The Bad Seeds, "Some Kind Of Stranger" - Sisters Of Mercy, "Exterminate Annihilate Destroy" - Rotersand, "Comfortably Numb" - Pink Floyd, "Drop Dead" - Diary Of Dreams
The Most important things in your life?
being comfortable with myself,my beloved friends,collecting many beautiful and crazy experiences, being able to develop myself („Never Stop!“ ;-)), being loved and loving in return, being sucessful in what I do
What does an „ideal“ relationship look like in your dreams?
Something I can’t generalize – trusting each other and accepting each other is quite important, I guess....
Your favourite activities on a Saturday night?
most important: being with my friends – rather in a nice bar, in a club or on concerts…sometimes being alone is okay as well – than I usually write,hang out in front of the computer, or watch some cool movies…
Your favourite spare time activities in general?
sports (fitness center, figure skating (actually I’m a figure skating coach besides my “main jobâ€),writing (journalism,poetry,novels), music(listening to,dancing to (people tend to tell me, that I’m a dancing – addict)),translating lyrics etc. …), travelling and getting to know different cities and cultures, reading,talking about senseless or deeply philosophic stuff (depends on the person I talk to ;)),hanging out in front of the phone, in the sun,decorating my room,shopping,cuddeling with my pets….
Are you more active during the day or during the night?
depends – both is possible;)
Where do you feel more comfortable: in a huge city or in a small village?
I’m definately a city- girl ;-) – though I love nature and long walks through snowy landscapes, I always need some things happening around me AND good party locations in my daily life ;-)
Alcohol is ...
yummie ! *gg*
drugs are…
dangerous
Favourite smell:
Men’s Perfume: Joop Homme,Boss In Motion, B-Men, Gaultier, Jil Sander Men,Armani Il but also more fresh perfumes like: . Axe Air., Diesel maskulin,Nemo...
Women’s Perfume: Wish, NOA, Coco Mademoiselle, Gaultier La Famme, Shiseido Energizing Fragance,Eternity,Cerutti 1881, Hugo Deep Red, Diesel Feminin;Armani Mania,Gucci Rush
Smells in general:Amber, Musk, Nag Champa, Vanilla, Cocos,
in nature: chimney smoke in winter, BBQ-smell in summer,the smell of the air in the woods after a thunderstorm
(Yes…I know: I’m a scent – freak! ;))
Favourite season:
Definately: winter! (I love that peaceful, quite image of snowy landscapes)
Favourite Artist:
mainly:Jenni Tapanila (www.suzi9mm.com)!!Besides: Anna Varney, Yendri, Thomas van de Scheck, Thomas Buchta und Edward Munch
Luck is:
...nothing that lasts forever. I think, if you try to search for the „big integral“ state of happiness, you CAN only fail – because you miss all those little „perfect“ moments which this state of a final happiness consists off. Happiness is a thing for the moment, while being comfortable with yourself and your life is something on the long run,developing out of many unforgettable moments. So (to quote somebody I actually don't remember here): “Treasure your moments in life!â€
A romantic place for a very special moment:
Maybe on top of a skyscraper in the middle of a pulsating city,a snowy landscape at night…well in the end it’s all up to the person you share that moment with – if it’s the right one, I would find it even romantic, being trapped in the middle of Tschernobyl and sniffing cocaine from a razor blade, I guess…
Favourite Live act so far:
Puuuuuuuhhhhhhhhhhh....hard to say. If I would answer spontaneously, I’d say Placebo about six years ago – but not for the actual gig, but because those days were the best days of my life so far....
Besides:
Skinny Puppy @ M'Era Luna '05
The Eternal Afflict @ Secret Garden '05
Nick Cave And The Bad Seeds - Düsseldorf,Phillipshalle '04
The White Stripes - Berlin,Columbiahalle '05
Rotersand @ Advanced Electronics Festival, Dresden '05
Clan Of Xymox@Bielefeld,Movie ‘06
My pets:
Two gorgeous little chinchillas called Samantha and Sonic, a black/red striped cornsnake called Eos and a Gecko from Madagaska called Pee Wee
With whom would you love to share a drink someday?
hehe...funny question...I think, there are a lot of guys….hmm…Robert Smith would be interesting (“Say yes! Do it now!â€) and Trent Reznor,Nivek Ogre,Jack+Meg White,Jon Crosby, Ian Curtis (if he would be still alive),Jörg Buttgereit, Asia Argento, Vin Diesel,Klaus Kinski,Andrew Eldritch again,Yendri and the guys from Endraum would be cool aswell…
What makes you laugh?
generally mostly things,pictures or situations which are not set to be funny at all (like that gorgeous scene from „The Ring“, where the horse jumps off that ship and bounces against it again, before it dies…), slapstick and my best friend, after he smoked some pot…
What makes you angry?
being not able to do things I planned to do, arrogance if it’s not warranted and acts out to be a way of compensating ones inferiority complex, people who always blame others for their very own problems, people who cannot deal with critiscism and are not able to reflect themselves or their behaviour,completely self-centered people , violence against children…
I don’t like:
see: “What makes me angry†Besides: ignorance, raw tomatoes, beer, depression, fear,sweating without doing anything (sauna is excluded here ;-)),messy rooms, where old food is lying all around, Après-Ski – and Ballermann-Feeling, some typical old german names, when people do not respekt your own privacy and personal freedom,the US and lots of things related to it (don’t wanna generalize of course!),spoiled and nasty children
I like:
the way you look at each other – right before the first kiss, falling asleep and waking up next to the one you love, intensive conversations,getting to know manifold and interesting personalities,people with some live experience, doing crazy things, Cocktailbars, BERLIN, having Sex at unusual places, candle light,Vive Maria,Pussy Deluxe, UV-light, strobosopes,varnish, corsettes,buttons,Emily Strange,hairpieces , cool Bandshirts, the song "Naughty Girl" by Beyoncé (...and I won’t feel ashamed now! I also like Kylie Kinogue, Sarah Connor and Robbie Williams!;-)),a piercing glance, vegetables and salads, when you go home after a party night, it’s dawning and you realize, that the birds are starting to sing,wind,white roses,piercings and tatoos, nice hotels,joss sticks,snuggeling,sauna,greek hospitality,redlight in a flat, mangas,candied cherrys…
I couldn’t live without:
My best friends and the people around me I love (a huge kiss goes out to: Oz,Hötti,Marco and Volker at this point!), Gauloises (the red ones), chewing gum, sports, writing, music, trust, love, affection, the feeling of being important to some people - same as they are to me, the feeling of doing something with my life, my favourite cocktails ;-),sex, my tv, and most important: my memories and my experiences (the good AND the bad ones), Coke Light,being creative,feeding my spirit and getting to know interesting people...
