+being okay with how I look, though I seem to be getting in better shape (DAMN YOU THIRD STORY APARTMENT and CAMPUS FULL OF HILLS AND STAIRS)
+ discovering new music
boyfriend does this
+drinking, but only on occasion (though when I drink, I DRINK)
+ hanging out with
missing my Crest family
+ kicking junior college's ass PWNED. now kicking real college's ass
+living in santee cruz, ca (middle of the forest, next to the ocean, 10 minutes from downtown)
+loving my boyfriend (who is like the greatest guy ever)
+ pissing people off on purpose not so much anymore
+planning a future
(or just daydreaming)
+reading fashion magazines (and pretending that one day I will be fashionable)
+searching for awesome concerts to go to (which rarely happens)
+shopping (on clearance, and half off clearance, and sometimes...rarely full price)
+sleeping whenever I can (and as much as possible)
+ watching people stare at my lip ring as if a starfish has attacked my face not at college! no one cares!
+writing (uh...sometimes)
I'd like to meet:
I've met him.
"in the end, I think the relationships that survive in this world are the ones where the two people can finish each other's sentences. forget drama and torrid sex and the clash of opposites. give me banter any day of the week."
douglas coupland, hey nostradamus!
Music:
I will lie awake
lie for fun and fake the way I hold you
let you fall for every empty word I say
brand new
tiny spirit in a k-hole, bloated like soggy cereal
God will come and wash away our tattoos and all the cocaine
cocorosie
and we say, "love was made like a book, or a page just ripped out, but we never read anyway"
and you say "love was made like a ship at bay never to see waves"
we should probably get used to it, but we don't
colour revolt
stones taught me to fly
love taught me to lie
life taught me to die
so it's not hard to fall when you float like a cannonball
damien rice
you should make amends with you, if only for better health,
but if you really want to live, why not try and make yourself?
incubus
as life gets longer, awful feels softer;
well it feels pretty soft to me.
and if it takes shit to make bliss,
then I feel pretty blissfully.
modest mouse
all in all is all we are
nirvana
and maybe ours is the cause of all mankind:
get loved, make more, try to stay alive
rilo kiley
just know
we are
a spec
in time.
so follow your bliss and destroy the beauty
senses fail
if it's love, make it hurt
taking back sunday
Movies:
"maybe I'll just sit here and bleed at you."
brick
"it's not who you love, it's how."
chasing amy
"what's with you? yesterday you were normal and today you're like the Chinese guy from the Karate Kid. what's with you today?"
"what's with today, today?"
empire records
"conspiracy theorists of the world unite."
enemy of the state
"sand is overrated. it's just tiny, little rocks."
eternal sunshine of the spotless mind
"it's not until you lose everything that you are free to do anything."
fight club
"that's life. if nothing else, its life. it's real, and sometimes it fuckin' hurts, but it's sort of all we have."
garden state
"should I bolt every time I get that feeling in my gut when I meet someone new? well, I've been listening to my gut since I was 14 years old,
and frankly speaking, I've come to the conclusion that my guts have shit for brains."
high fidelity
"you probably got it all figured out, Corey. if you start out depressed everything's kind of a pleasant surprise."
say anything
"what lingered after them was not life, but the most trivial list of mundane facts:
a clock ticking on a wall, a room dim at noon, and the outrageousness of a human being thinking only of herself."
the virgin suicides
Television:
"being cool is wack"
can't get a date
"the sort of trips I go on are all about living cheap and getting dirty which is how I like it."
globe trekker
"we're adults. when did that happen? and how do we make it stop?"
grey's anatomy
"4 8 15 16 23 42"
LOST
"every week, I'm supposed to take four hours and do a quality spot-check at the paper mill. and of course the one year I blow it off, this happens."
the office
"your life is not defined by what has happened to you - your life is what you choose to do with what has happened to you."
oprah
"make it work!"
project runway
Books:
"and anyway, a few decades after your first kiss and your first cigarette, I don't care if you're rich or poor, life leaves the same number of bruises on you."
-douglas coupland, hey nostradamus!
"I once believed that people never change, that they only become more like themselves. now I think that people do nothing but change."
-douglas coupland, all families are psychotic
"time erases both the best and the worst of us."
-douglas coupland, all families are psychotic
"your past isn't something you escape from. your past is what you are."
-douglas coupland, all families are psychotic
"if you're not spending every waking moment of your day radically rethinking the nature of the world—if you're not plotting every moment boiling the carcass of the old order—then you're wasting your day."
-douglas coupland, girlfriend in a coma
"until you find something to fight for, you settle for something to fight against."
-chuck palahniuk, choke
Heroes:
dream Song 22: of 1826
john berryman
I am the little man who smokes & smokes.
I am the girl who does know better but.
I am the king of the pool.
I am so wise I had my mouth sewn shut.
I am a government official & a goddamned fool.
I am a lady who takes jokes.
I am the enemy of the mind.
I am the auto salesman and lóve you.
I am a teenage cancer, with a plan.
I am the blackt-out man.
I am the woman powerful as a zoo.
I am two eyes screwed to my set, whose blind—
it is the fourth of july.
collect: while the dying man,
forgone by you creator, who forgives,
is gasping 'thomas jefferson still lives'
in vain, in vain, in vain.
I am henry pussy-cat! my whiskers fly.
"I always like to think of it as like, I've got 'em sittin' there, whip a little message at 'em. whip a little moral at 'em. whip a little of what my view of the world is. because that's what every good filmmaker does. you can't change the world. you can't cure the world. all you can do is be like, 'this is it through my eyes. do you agree or not agree?'"
kevin smith
