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Shan

What would Jay-Z do?

About Me

the laugh.wear too much eye makeup.want to be a hippie.i love my apartment.vickstar is my world.my chosen family.watching really bad tv.i drink until im messy.i can't figure out what i'm supposed to do in life.dream way too much.hopeful and bitter.when i'm happy i sing out my sentences.i don't like thundercats.living fast but standing still.the word "pupil" grosses me out.being ridiculous is always my option.sometimes i start to cry for no reason.i laugh at the dumbest things.little things make me happy.another word i hate is "panties".i don't live with the storks.i now live in the van house.i can talk to a wall.geese are creepy.sometimes i can describe myself perfectly.sometimes i can't.the laugh is defining.chemically imbalanced.i don't take drugs for it.esther voice.rayray is the keeper of my evil secrets.drinking too much.monica and naz understand me better than i understand myself.kate is my oldest and dearest friend.when i get angry i throw things.i don't hold grudges.make me laugh and i'll love you.my music.super emotional.my emotions are branded on my forehead.believe in me.Myspace Layouts

My Interests

equality.politics.conspiracy theories.tattoos.art.glenn e. friedman.tourettes outbursts.singing like i actually can.making up names for the guys monica dates.the lobster hand.it means i'm drunk.having ridiculous conversations with vick.80's music that has no meaning.mouse.squirrel.loving vick.she's squishy.my fam.christmas trees.playing with makeup.wearing lip glass.being jerky.my chosen fam.i walk around pretending everyone likes me.that annoys people.i like to annoy people.pushing buttons.resident psychiatrist.i need my own sometimes.hate self pity.everyday has to have a wonderful event.finding answers to things no one cares about.informercials.people watching.i love my friend nora.she lives in michigan.it's one of those things i don't explain.making people pretty.i can't figure out what i want to do with my life.i might not ever know.making fun of people.just for being stupid.that's not my fault.halloween.wine gives me a migraine.beer makes me fat.for all my flaws i'm a wonderful mom.i think it's because i was given amazing material.emo kids suck.wahwahwah.i dont think before i speak.there's no brain to mouth filter.i never intend on being mean.gray's.wraps.cnn.i secretly love kelly clarkson.smelly people love to sit next to me on the train.i should learn to love them back.it would make things easier.i sit on the toilet just to have a good conversation.it's the hiding spot.nature does not excite me.i find dead sparrows a lot.i hated my last job.that's the only thing i hate.that's a lie.i hate one person in the world.there's not time to wasted on them.my dad is the coolest dork ever.people with the name john johnson are weird.if i start to wear shirts with wolves or cats shoot me.

I'd like to meet:

someone that will make a difference.bob barker.he is like the cure for all.not many people have stuck by me everyday to make me smile like mr barker has.

Music:

kate havnevik.sia.journey.dramarama.lynrd skynrd.guns n roses.pink floyd.def leppard.pat benetar.motley crue.skid row.queen.steppenwolf.morissey.styx.foreigner.lep zep.the doors.lou reed.neil young.U2.the byrds.van halen.bob dylan.radiohead.beastie boys.ac/dc.talking heads.the clash.fleetwood mac.the pretenders.black sabbath.

Movies:

Porn.Sid and Nancy.A Beautiful Mind.Gia.1984.Clockwork Orange.Swingers.Office Space.Gladiator.Full Metal Jacket.Gothika.Big Fish.Little Children.Dazed&Confused.I Am Sam.High Art. Night at the Roxbury.Old School.Dodgeball.Anchorman.Fat Camp.Reality Bites.Edward Scissorhands. Saturday Night Fever.Grease.Oklahoma.Gypsy.Singing in the Rain.Sound of Music. Center Stage.Chorus Line.Wonderland.Porn

Television:

6 feet under.greys anatomy.intervention.first 48.inked.the hills.project runway.rob and big.

Books:

5 People You Meet in Heaven.Diary of an Addict.Angels and Demons.My Sisters Keeper.She's Come Undone.Flowers for Algernon.Last Exit to Brooklyn.See No Evil.Night.A Million Little Pieces.In Her Shoes.Lipstick Jungle.Trading Up.Hairstyles of the Damned.the glass wall.conversations with God.

Heroes:

I don't do idol worship. Join the Hillary Grassroots Campaign WWW.MYSPACE.COM/HILLARYCLINTON2008

My Blog

Another birthday, another year

So tomorrow I'll be 26. I feel like a small failure and a huge winner. When I was a little girl I had so many big ideas about what I wanted to do and who I would become. Some of it's come true and...
Posted by S the South African on Wed, 21 Mar 2007 05:19:00 PST

the rise and fall of my scale-tales of a girl coming to terms with being a fatass

Any of you that know me(which I know you all do) are totally aware of how disgusted I have become with my fat. I'm going to start keeping basically a diary dedicated to me losing weight. Maybe it wi...
Posted by S the South African on Tue, 13 Feb 2007 08:06:00 PST

dare to be different

so i know i but up the front that i hate going clubbing, even though once i'm there i learn to love it again. once i get there though it's the sea of conformity. same handbags, hair, outfits, stripp...
Posted by S the South African on Thu, 01 Feb 2007 04:16:00 PST

life is life

im tired of caring about everyone else. apparently there are very few people who are going to be happy with their lives. they are the ones who spend most of their time complaining about it instead o...
Posted by S the South African on Thu, 25 Jan 2007 04:50:00 PST

love you

    i know that you are scared about entering a new world.  i don't want you to be frightened of it, please embrace it.  everything you will see and do is going to be new and ...
Posted by S the South African on Mon, 11 Sep 2006 10:42:00 PST

i don't need a prince

cannot stand how SO many females look to a dude to save them.  we don't NEED anyone to save us.  if you are lucky you are born with a brain, 2 arms, hands, legs, feet, eyes and ears.  u...
Posted by S the South African on Sat, 29 Jul 2006 03:16:00 PST

my truth

everyone has regrets.  if it's at the time it happened or later on down the road, there will be regrets.  it happens, it's life.treat everyone the way you want to be treated.  examine t...
Posted by S the South African on Mon, 03 Jul 2006 02:09:00 PST

OoOoooO such a liar

people lie.  it's a part of life, usually to protect themselves.  i accept that, but i don't appreciate it from people that make such a "no lying policy".  it's usually the people that ...
Posted by S the South African on Wed, 07 Jun 2006 05:34:00 PST

my sister

Sarah thinks that I don't love her as much since I don't have her pic on my Myspace.  I'm going to write her a love letter so she can smile at this whenever she thinks I'm a jerkoff.She is the mo...
Posted by S the South African on Sun, 19 Feb 2006 08:25:00 PST

there are no lighters

i have like at least 20 lighters in this house.  why am i lighting my cigs with a grill lighter?  i think its ridiculous.  i bet if my house wanted to burn down all the hidden lighters ...
Posted by S the South African on Sat, 28 Jan 2006 03:46:00 PST