some are born to sweet delight,some are born to the endless night
I think the safest thing to say about myself is that I am a person of contradictions, dancing on the borderline of my fluid existence. What was hidden-shall remain hidden within this solitude and what deserves to be seen or written, will eventually find it’s way out though words soaked with meaning. ain’t that what we’re all searching for, in a way?
I know the funniest things regarding myself- I know that the color of blue suits me the most, and yet I would never be caught wearing it outside the walls of my house, I know that my taste in music lacks the coherence to attribute me to any specific scene, and that I am able to enjoy the gentle nuances of various styles and moods. I know that I am one hell of a stubborn, annoying bitch and that I can be the best friend to whoever might deserve that, and I seem to be drawn to the comfort of solitude and words of dead artists the most. Nevertheless, my melancholy is a cynical one, and I reckon that if we cannot make fun of life-we might as well go and kill ourselves-which is more or less the direction modern civilization is pushing itself to, but hey, I do find comfort in the fact that cockroaches will survive. Someone must.
Either way, I don’t mind going too personal with this about section, after all, if I don’t scare you guys here- my imaginary body guards sure as hell won’t-lazy fucks that they are.
My interests are more or less divided. On the one hand, I enjoy styles of literature and art that offer the opportunity to find depth and opinions about our world in them, as well as the author's inner world and views. I enjoy stories-my life would have been a boring one without them,as well as art,be it deep and morbid or plain beautiful like the pre raphaelite. I have always been drawn to what people refer to as dark, long before I have discovered the wonderland of the alternative subculture. My barbaric classmates as well as the difficulty to adjust to a new culture had made it difficult for me to develop social skills. Part of me is misanthropic, the rest is just a disguise of old time awkwardness. So if I appear antisocial, think twice before you take it personally. If you master the ability of thinking twice, it might just be I will not find you worthy of my disgust. On the other hand I enjoy humor, especially bitter cynicism but silly shit just as well, Kevin smith is one fine provider of those. I am an alcoholic, a heavy smoker, and I am addicted to lingerie. I do not believe that a certain sense of aesthetics makes you superficial. I am in love with cats, although there will always be a warm place in my heart for owls and swans. But they should not be domesticated, you know that. My cat's name is ceaser, he understands Russian and likes to mark my shoes. I love kitschy tattoos, so far am the proud owner of 4. have been pierced 10 times-only 5 have survived till now.
i am going to add or approve people I know, people I would like to know or bands I like. Please don't add me just to fill your list.
p.s.none of the pictures presented in this profile are mine-sorry for my laziness to give specific credit.
You are not special. You are not a beautiful or unique snowflake. You're the same decaying organic matter as everything else.