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Jaime ENVY

What Is Love?

About Me


Wow... 2007. What's the deal. I thought for sure that this year would come in with a bang and maintain that bang. Instead, it was blow by blow. And, yes, it all came as a surprise to me. Yet, life moves forward, even when we don't want to. We try to push aside the things that would keep us back, but somehow, it never seems as if we will make it. The ones we love don't love us back and your heart must be mended together from a break up. And then walls are put back up because you don't know if you can trust anyone again with your heart. Again, life moves on but you may not be ready to move with it.
Family... ha. That's a topic of discussion that doesn't go far. What is family? Today's society describes a family as a group of friends that are close to you. There is no family anymore... and I can say that applies to me. My story isn't one that should be told over and over. So, if you are interested in knowing more about my story, feel free to ask. It's just not worth putting up here another time.
The love of my life, Michael, broke up with me February 9, 2007. We were together for almost 9 months. I still love him and just because he made the decision to break up with me doesn't mean I wanted the same. I love him. He nor anyone else can change that. He was all I had. He was there for me during some serious situations. He was my family. I'm sorry for my insecurities and my issues. Some of them I can't change. But, I was and still am willing to work on them. But, as for Michael & I. I feel like it is an unclosed chapter. I don't know where to find the answers. Michael is so unique and he's so hard to figure out. I don't know why I am here... even though he has told me his reasons. But, they just don't make any sense to me. So, again, the chapters are unclosed.
One of my closest friends and the artist that I personally still manage, Donnie C, is a NEO-SOUL artist that is doing some great things. I just knew my friendship with this man of intriguing class would develop into a positive outcome. That has happened this year. Donnie C is in Nashville, Tennessee recording his album in the studio and he's getting ready for the unbelievable. We are yet to announce his image release date and location. That is still in the making! But, it would so important to be a part of this historical event as Donnie C brings the new world of soul and the old world of Portsmouth, Virginia together with his image release. I can't wait to see what happens next. You can visit his myspace page to read his review and listen to his music at myspace.com/donniecsoul.

My Interests


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Diversity & Culture, Philanthropy & Traveling!

I'd like to meet:

The sound minded... humble, respectful and honest individual who has personal goals to achieve for themselves. Someone who is REAL and firm in what they are looking for.
I know how to treat a person. The question really is do they know how to treat me? I put alot of personal investments into someone that I like. So, it is important to me that the person can provide strength back to me where I am weak.
I need a person who understands I want to be treated as I treat them. I expect the same things I give them in return! It is my hope that I can find a person who is beyond a two and three week gig and give me their love, life & time!
James Is A Committed Man!!!
What type of gay guy are you?

You are the committed type! You like to have one man and you don't want to share him and you don't want him sharing you. You don't need anyone else but him. You're into having sex him every night and NO ONE else.
Take the quiz

Homophobia

Listed below is an attitude test on homophobia. One of the main reasons that our gay and lesbian children find it hard to tell us about their sexuality is often because of our attitude towards homosexual people. We may not think we have a homophobic attitude but maybe we say or do things that make us look like we do. We often send off signals to our children that we will not accept them because they are gay,lesbian, bisexual or transgender. This may not be intentional but it does often happen. Here is an attitude test on homophobia I would like you to answer. You may be quite surprised with the answers you chose from this test.
If you answer yes to any of these questions, you need to take the time to think about things more deeply. Homophobia can have very damaging effects on your relationship with your child or loved one. Test your Attitude
1. Do you laugh at jokes whose humor depends upon put downs and stereotypes of gays, lesbians or bisexuals? 2. Do you automatically think of gays; lesbians or bisexuals only in terms of sexuality rather than seeing them as complex people who have, among other significant features, a bisexual or same sex orientation? 3. Do you use dehumanizing slang - queer, homo, fag, dyke, lezzie, butch to refer to gays, lesbians and bisexuals or to put people in line when they stray from traditional sex roles? 4. Do you assume that a lesbian, gay man or bisexual is interested in you sexually, regardless of your sexual orientation? Do you think that if a lesbian, gay man or bisexual touches you, she or he is making sexual advances? 5. Do you react negatively when lesbians, gay men and bisexuals discuss their same sex relationships, when you do not react negatively to discussions of opposite sex relationships? 6. Do you feel it is important to make others aware that you are not gay, lesbian or bisexual? 7. Do you speak up about gay rights, but make sure every one knows that you yourself are heterosexual? 8. Do you think you can "spot one" - i.e. believe that gay people can ordinarily be identified by certain mannerisms or physical characteristics? 9. Do you fail to confront anti gay remarks or behaviors for fear of being labeled gay yourself? Do you assume that people speaking up for gay rights or against, gay, oppression are themselves gay? 10. Do you assume you don't know anyone who's gay? This attitude test on homophobia was not included to make you feel like you have failed your child or loved one. I just wanted you to see for yourself what perhaps your child or loved one sees in you. They sometimes see us more clearly than we see ourselves. I hope this homophobia attitude test has been helpful to you.

Music:

I love hip-hop, r&b & house remixes! Missy Elliott is off the hook with some of her great works of art!

Movies:

I love action movies, animations, dramas & (only if I have someone to really hold close) a small horror every now and then! Comedies are a plus.

Television:

The Parkers!!! Will & Grace, Noah's Arch!!!

Books:

The Power of Now!!! YOU GOTTA READ THIS BOOK!
You Are 40% Boyish and 60% Girlish
You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch.
Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes.
You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them.
You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be. How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

Heroes:

My My mother is my hero as well. She was murdered in Mobile, Alabama in 1985 two (2) days before my sixth (6th) birthday. Not a damn day goes by that I don't sit up out of bed before I do anything else and honor her for how she, in her death, has been a serious positive energy pushing me to succeed! Here is to you - MOM!

My Blog

Exist

Trials of life... haaaa.  They come and they go.  They are pretty much the guarantee of a lifetime.  The waves of success and prosperity come less frequently than those of trials for th...
Posted by Paradoxical Truth on Wed, 11 Apr 2007 05:43:00 PST

Thoughts for the New Year

In reflection of the previous year... My mind goes from vast memories of harsh issues to the most precious memories that I will never want to forget.  Of course, all of us have the same extremes ...
Posted by Paradoxical Truth on Mon, 08 Jan 2007 09:30:00 PST

ALL I WANT

The inner core of my existence and each fiber of my body could only want what it cannot ever have.  It's the unreachable goal and the unimaginable thought.  From deep within, it is the drivi...
Posted by Paradoxical Truth on Thu, 14 Dec 2006 10:53:00 PST

Going Beyond The Road

Yes, there are times where we realize when looking back over our shoulder that sometimes we have ventured well off of the travelled path and have started walking where there is no road for our journey...
Posted by Paradoxical Truth on Sat, 18 Nov 2006 09:02:00 PST

P.O.W.E.R.

In my last blog, I said that I was going to talk about power.  Well, what is it exactly.  Power is hard to define just like quality was hard to define. What qualifies a person to possess pow...
Posted by Paradoxical Truth on Mon, 30 Oct 2006 09:21:00 PST

The N.E.W.S.

Sophistication.... it is defined in a myriad of ways.  Some view it as how classy you represent yourself.  Others view it as how intelligent you are.  At some point, I have heard people...
Posted by Paradoxical Truth on Sun, 29 Oct 2006 06:12:00 PST

Lights from the Soul

We all at some point of time reach a climax in our lives.  We find that the enlightenment we have been waiting on has finally come!  Others have hiked for a summit that most believed would b...
Posted by Paradoxical Truth on Wed, 07 Jun 2006 11:21:00 PST

The PATH

When we start thinking about things... we recognize that life is simply a path we are following... a journey embarked upon.... What we forget is in order for there to be a path, something or someone h...
Posted by Paradoxical Truth on Tue, 30 May 2006 08:01:00 PST

How Can...?

I have been working like a dog... I mean... 18 hour days that feel like they won't ever end... just to start them over again in less than six hours after they end. I mean... my check might look nice a...
Posted by Paradoxical Truth on Tue, 30 May 2006 04:58:00 PST

May 28, 2006 Virgo Horoscope

Your Horoscope for May 29 , 2006 For you, one of the earth signs the shift of Venus into Taurus is going to make you feel happier and more content. A little surge of optimism is likely to flow...
Posted by Paradoxical Truth on Sun, 28 May 2006 02:25:00 PST