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There can be nothing more between us cuz if ur not there for me emotionally you're nothin but a peni

About Me

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http://flavoroflovecasting.com/people/HotteeAshlee
AIM xashleecurtisx
STATS:
Weight: 125
Height: 5 feet 5 inches
Chest: 34 D
Waist: 25 inches
Hips: 35 inches
Hometown: Oakland, CA
ABOUT
Name: Ashlee Curtis
Birthday: 2/15/84
Birthplace: oakland
Current Location: santa cruz
Eye Color: brown
Hair Color: brown
Height: 5'4"
Right Handed or Left Handed: right
Your Heritage: polish and black american
The Shoes You Wore Today: my favorite royal blue pumas
Your Weakness: men
Your Fears: falling
Your Perfect Pizza: cheese
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: this $80,000 piece of paper
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: ...
Thoughts First Waking Up: 5 more minutes
Your Best Physical Feature: my smile
Your Bedtime: when my eyes start to burn
Your Most Missed Memory: high school with my girls
Pepsi or Coke: wild cherry pepsi
MacDonalds or Burger King: Mc D's chicken BK's beef
Single or Group Dates: group
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: arizona
Chocolate or Vanilla: vanilla
Cappuccino or Coffee: latte
Do you Smoke: only when out the country
Do you Swear: like a sailor
Do you Sing: not to loudly
Do you Shower Daily: sometimes twice
Have you Been in Love: of course
Do you want to go to College: not any more
Do you want to get Married: sometimes
Do you belive in yourself: not today
Do you get Motion Sickness: in cars, trains, and planes
Do you think you are Attractive: i try not to
Are you a Health Freak: yes...but i still eat fried chicken and cheese pizza
Do you get along with your Parents: when i'm not around them
Do you like Thunderstorms: when im in the house with someone else
Do you play an Instrument: piano
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: of course
In the past month have you Smoked: nope
In the past month have you been on Drugs: ibruprofen, tylenol, nyquil
In the past month have you gone on a Date: yes
In the past month have you gone to a Mall: of course
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos: no
In the past month have you eaten Sushi: yes
In the past month have you been on Stage: no....sadly
In the past month have you been Dumped: no...never have
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping: no
In the past month have you Stolen Anything: ummmmm....dont remember
Ever been Drunk: of course
Ever been called a Tease: of course
Ever been Beaten up: no
Ever Shoplifted: no
How do you want to Die: in my sleep
What do you want to be when you Grow Up: i have no idea
What country would you most like to Visit: italy's next, brazil, egypt
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color: light
Favourite Hair Color: doesnt matter
Short or Long Hair: short...please
Height: 5'9" and up
Weight: 150 and up
Best Clothing Style: relaxed....tightened up hip hop
Number of Drugs I have taken: i have only tried 2 illegal substances
Number of CDs I own: who knows
Number of Piercings: 5
Number of Tattoos: 3
Number of things in my Past I Regret: dont want to think about it
It's too bad that I had dreams of us being so much
And now i have awaken.....
screaming...
dripping in sweat...
It's too bad that YOU LISTEN to the words that come out of my mouth
when it is so much more important that YOU HEAR the message i am trying to communicate to you
It's too bad that you find me so weak when so many look to me for my strength
That you see me unfit......that you doubt my abiity
When so much of my energy has gone into solving everyone elses problems
That you would tell me I have issues....
when you know that they are my constant struggle
That maybe you feel your contribution is to keep tabs on my insecurities
and just when I think I have conquered one
my life is somehow improved by your reminder of the rest
it's over now
because not being strong enough to laugh at you
would be proving there is truth to your accusations of my weakness
YOUR GOAL: figure out why attack is your first line of defense
"Find you a man who is all about elavating and motivating the positive within you." (thanks krystal)
TIME TO GET RID OF ANY ASPECT OF MY LIFE NOT CONTRIBUTING POSITIVE ENERGY.....
YOU TOLD ME TO THINK....
and now i over analyze
YOU TOLD ME TO FEEL...
and now i'm too sensitive
YOU TOLD ME THAT I WAS "BORING AND RESERVED"....
and i realized you just don't know me
8 April 2006
COLLEGE DEGREE: knowledge free of wisdom
INFATUATION: the heart briefly dipped in happiness
LOVE: the heart soaked in pain
HAPPINESS: realization of sadness
AWARENESS: anger
FAMILY: unbearable weight and obligation
FRIENDS: avid supporters of insecurity and unjustified judgement
PARENTS: molders of an untrue identity
SATISFACTION: surrender
DEATH: constant reminder of the absence of appreciation
LIFE: constant reminder of guilt
DISSAPOINTMENT: knowledge of life's imperfections; truth
STRANGERS: perfect company
WEALTH: sociatal definition of success
SUCCESS: acheivement of constant, irreversible happiness
ALCOHOL: a temporary solution to a permanent problem
SUICIDE: a permanent solution to a temporary problem
Thanks John for helping me realize I was lost
Thanks Tyranny for bringing me back
PERFECT CONVERSATION
It starts with your eyes...their calming effect
Then with the words your mouth softly ejects
The stress and the tension...they slowly fade
and the smile once present again relaid
my lungs and my heart groove to a slower rhythm
My arms start to ache...just to have you within them
We are now engaged in this perfect converstion
Releasing our souls without hesitation
You slice through my mind with perfect precision
Releasing my all...though maybe not your intention
I hand out my baggage...no guilt nor regret
as if you were waiting with hands outstretched
Your thoughts fill my mind to complete saturation
Satifying my black education infatuation
And though i'm impressed with your knowledge and wit
I can't shake the thought of the taste of your lips
Your seduction technique can be summed up with "charm"
You know that if you have the chance to talk to someone...
Well, you won't be talking for long! ;-)
You're great at telling potential lovers what they want to hear.
Partially, because you're a great reflective listener and good at complementing.
The other part of your formula? Focusing your conversation completely on the other person.
Your "sweet talking" ways have taken you far in romance - and in life.
You can finess your way through any difficult situation, with a smile on your face.
Speeding tickets, job interviews... bring it on! You truly live a *charmed life* What Kind of Seducer Are You?
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LOVE

my heart's infected
with the love you injected
my life redirected
to feelings not ready to be reasurected
a happiness so very unexpected
and a sadness no longer neglected
'cause
with every smile a tear
and every security a fear
so
Monday I can't complain but
Tuesday she gets in the way so
Wednesday I won't answer my phone but
Thursday I can't wait for you to get home 'cause
Friday you'll give it to me all day long so that
Saturday we'll spend getting along 'til
Sunday, 2 am, your phone starts to ring
things are just never as good as they seem
but no matter what your lips say
or your hands might do
I look into your eyes
it's simple
i love you

CAN I BE HONEST

You told me how you felt, but I know that you faked it
And now there's a thin line between love it and hate it
The power you emit I just can't escape it
But I'm standing at that line and I plan to face it

You told me that our love would be too complicated
But you didn't let me know we just wouldn't make it
And somehow I'm confused, I thought you would have waited
Cuz now you're out my life, your "good-byes" belated

And if I can be honest, you didn't have to say it
Cuz without all your talk of love I still would have gave it
It really wasn't your body, but your soul I tasted
That had me all strung out and infatuated

Now our only communication through the phone is jaded
Cuz my angry, bitter heart tears through the conversation
I only want to hear about how great your day is
But the calm sound in your voice so simply takes it

You say you been in town, and now you're LAin' it
There's no longing in your tone cuz your feelings have faded
So now I'm just a friend, and I'm not okay with it
You might have forgotten, but I live everyday with it

I listened to your songs, even cried when you played it
And I promise to support you until the day you have made it
For that little bit of happiness that my life was laced with
But I'll never understand how your heart, I misplaced it

music keeps me moving

FAVORITE QUOTES:
"...didn't sign me so I signed myself..."
Artist J Myers

"I don't suck dick...I just look good...."
Artist April D

"It's no love, no kisses no hugs, how you fall in love with a slut..."
Artist A2

CHANGE
Changing because you were caught doesn't make you honest... Changing because you were forced to confess and now live under watchful eyes, doesn't make you fixed.... Change because you can't live being who you are... And change alone.

BIOLOGY BARBIES

I'd like to meet:

FIND HIM FOR ME: He handed her 12 roses. 11 real. 1 fake. He said i'll love you until the last one dies..

12:53

So before we go ahead and get this thing started
Before I jump in truly open hearted
you have to promise me you'll never lie, cheat, or steal
and try to be honest to the best of your will
cause another heart shared in another heart broken
thats the risk you take when you leave yourself open
and if I'm so lucky as to have finally found love
he who cherishes my life and puts me above
then its worth being up alone with this pen
fighting sleep, my feelings, this blunt, and this gin

Music:

And the closer we become the more she gravitating
heiUntil we buckle down and there is no escaping
Now it typically became an everyday thing
Regularly, physically communicating sexually, scientifically penetrating

Books:

The Poisonwood Bible

Heroes:


I Love You Daddy
9.4.43-12.4.04

ME AND MOMMY

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love

love my hearts infectedwith the love you injectedmy life redirected to feelings not ready to be reasurecteda happiness so very unexpectedand a sadness no longer neglected'causewith every smile a teara...
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