Every.body let's do the Emo {dance}

[*]Hey[ ! ]![ ! ]

you stumbled upon me...that hurt!!!! Im Carmen I go to a Ufo writing pad. I'm a senior!!!!(Yah Senior's Rock).I'm in the???? Gobles High School marching band????, I play the [ flute ]...and i seem to of made it on the [ c ]o[ l ]o[ r ]g[ u ]a[ r ]d also..YAYwell i love pop tarts and i love punk/goth guys and guys that wear eyeliner......that is sooooooo hott....! my heart had been taken advantage of way to many times and i am scared to trust anyone......i am a person that when you look at my picture you just see this wanna be and this fake but if you took the time to get to know me you would totally love me and have a great time with me....! so do me a favor and take the time to get to know me and dont judge my looks...!i love to hang out and have fun...im an outgoing person most of the time and i love to party...i do not smoke....im totally turned on by guys that are better at things then me because then we can have fun trying to perfect me.....!i dislike people who are fakes...people who are someone they are not..it makes me sick that you cant be true to yourself...! if you wanna chat then just add me as a friend and i will accept, i am on just about everyday, more on the weekends...! i love to meet new people so dont get discouraged by my description..if you are what i said i hate i will still take the time to get to know you and if i like you then i stand corrected but i WILL take the time to get to know you no matter what!

{Im} Buried under an Avalanche

of the Male P.o.p.u.l.a.t.i.o.n

[ My Promise ]

Ok so im not gonna right some [ cliche ] filled with [ * ]quizzes and [ * ] pictures off the interent and [ * ] qoutes from dead people...this page is gonna be one hundred percent [ me ].. no one else ...if you got a problem with that then to bad... but the sad thing is that everyone is writing this non cliche description because they dont want to be the same as everyone else so really this description is getting a little cliche too ....[ GREAT ]....just what i need...! well meesage me if you wanna chat im up for just about anyhting i have brown hair and hazel [ eyes ]. i love to party and have fun. life is so short to not do what [ you ] want...[ ! ]Too many people in this world have become [ inconversable. ] Your feeble minds have become [ warped, ] and you have all conformed into what has been asked of you. Brainwashed; taken over by society, the government, the entire fucking world around you. Daily life is that of a slaughterhouse, and [ I ] am your butcher, I am the God that you have looked for, the [ Satanic ] figure you have feared. I am life; I am death. [ Irate, spiteful, sarcastic, grim, bitter, malicious, authentic, delirious, intense, cynical, indignant... ] I am the things you will never understand, that which is uncomprehendable. I am the one you aspire to hate. maybe it is not intentional, maybe you were brainwashed with the others; [ or ] maybe there is still time to save you from society's cruel game of cat and mouse. hopefully you will understand what i am promoting - [ free thinking, equality, and the right to express your own opinions and not the lack-luster views society has forced upon you. ] maybe it is about time you thought and fought for yourself, instead of re-enforcing the views of the shallow, the weak, and the desperate. maybe you should stand up and be counted but with your own views and opinions, instead of jumping on the band-wagon with the rest. maybe, just . . . maybe . .

[ H ] A [ T ] E [ S ]

posers one word messages ( what a way to make a first impression ) fakes/plastics any vegetable that is green myself and my body sporks when you have to pee really bad clowns most insects that have 5 legs or more

Poems

[ 1 month 11 days ]monday november 8th 4 hours at lane 11 and 12 is where is all started the ride their on the blue velvet seat where the couch cuddling, hand holding and tatse of doritos began brandi's and shawn's hands no where to be met by my eyes knowing what im doing is wrong the six year age difference doesnt matter when he walks in and our eyes meet we know whats going each other's minds and automatically its over no words to be said and no looks to be met our worlds drift and minds are never to be read again[ Dying ]trying to slice blood dripping everywhere my life ending no care's no one see's no one hear's no one is me life not existing troubled teen always depressed killing herself inside people talk but they dont listen the only light in her life is cadle light no color no dreams all negatively taken away no love in her life except the love for herself almost dead almost gone[ Tragic Day ]a clear liquid comes out of my eyes streaming down my cheeks i take my hand smudging away the tears and my makeup the phone rings and my parents call my given name "carmen" i hear your voice on the other end and i begin to dream that i was yours again and i hate every girl that you have ever hugged because for that one moment they were holding my entire world i sit here wondering what your life would be like if you and me would of never met a thought comes to mind why dont we figure out what its like and thats when the small white capsules poor out of the bottle and slide down my throat as if they were water my hearbeat slows coming to a complete stop my hand drops to the side and my letter to you falls to the ground i hope you remember this tradgic day because it was all to make your life better...!

*****Side note from Jill : Mess with her i eat your cookie!!!

* if your talking to me and get really annoyed im sorry this just means we are not compatible on a spiritual plane and that our paths weren't ment to merge together in harmony and peace...well that was a load of bullshit

Just remember, when you think your free.. The crack inside your fucking heart is me.