I have learned a lot about myself over the last several months...I learned that I don't care about yesterday, I can't because I would never want to wake up tomorrow if I dwelled on the stupid shit I have done in all my yesterdays. So now I am a big fan of living in the right now, and I mean "right now"...so dammit, I'm gonna drink my last little bit of chocolate milk that is in the fridge knowing I won't be able to have it w/ my cereal in the morning, and I'm gonna enjoy that chocolate milk. (yes, i use choc milk in my cereal) I know, I'm crazy. I realize that I love to take risks and deal w/ the consequences..they are usually bad. Shocker. But that's who I am, and I don't think I will ever change. I love to gamble, but i'm greedy. I love to drink, but i'm thirsty. I love to write but my pen just ran out of ink. I love to laugh but haven't been around anybody funny lately. I wish I believed in moderation, but I don't. Even when I have my shit tight, I'm a loose cannon. I am a walking oxymoron. I should have been a psychologist b/c I know so much about people and why they do what they do, including myself, but I don't listen to "what I should do" - ever. My life would be much easier if I did, but much simpler. I don't like simple. I should have been a philosopher as well, b/c you're never wrong. I don't like being wrong. I want to move back to Las Vegas. I want to move back to St. Louis. I want to stay here. I put hot sauce on everything, including salad sometimes. I'm funny. I'm gonna be a teacher. I just enjoyed that last glass of chocolate milk. Now i'm pissed I can't have it for my cereal in the morning. Damn, I did it again.
