k~b- bet cha cant guess what im thinking

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8hWgUyl4JTU-Suicide isn't killing -It's setting you free -Grabbing a knife -And pushing gently -Into your flesh -And down to the bone -For once in my life -I don't feel alone -The razors and knives -Sitting by my side -They are the only ones -Who don't run and hide -All the people -Who were my friends -Ended up running -And leaving me alone in the end -So here I sit -With my razor in hand -Knowing that I myslef -Am the one in command -I raise it up -Towards my wrists -I start to think -Of the things I might miss -Forgetting what I was doing -I drop the knife -As I start to walk away -It starts to claim my life -As I sit there alone -And scream in pain -The knife in my wrist -Lets the blood drain -As I sit there and think -Of what I was doing -I was about to run away -I'm just like those people. -Who am I fooling? -I was leaving the ones -Who stayed by my side -But no one would miss me -If I died -Well it's not dying -I'm escaping the pain -So I pick up the knife -And start again -As the tears pour out -And the blood gushes too -I stare into darkness -Thinking of you -How happy we were -Together and apart -When we went out -That's what made it start -Then you turned around -And broke my heart -I cryed for hours -Sitting in the dark -Here I am -In control of myself -The best god damn pain -I've ever felt -I'm in control -Not you or them -I'm gonna continue -Playing with my friends -Until one day -You find me here -When all you see -Is what you fear -I want to get back at you -For everything I feel -I talked to God -And made a deal -I'm watching you -But you think I'm dead -When in the end -You will think it's all in your head -You look at the blood -A tear falls from your face -I sit here and wonder -Why you came to this place -I hear you cry -In hatred of yourself -You know you did it -You set my love on a shelf -You kiss my cold cheek -As I watch you cry -But you have no idea -I'm really alive -You say that you love me -And you want me back -You see the knife -And your heart turns black -As I watch you raise it -I ask God to go back -He tells me "Not yet" -And I feel like I'm having a heart attack -You look at my body -Then you look into my eyes -I yell for you -As you look into the skies -You push it in your heart -As you say my name -Tears roll down our faces -My heart burns like a flame -God sends me back -With my razors in hand -I look around -And I understand -Someone is at the door -So I hide everything -I answer it -And it's like a dream -You have tears in your eyes -When you looked at me -I look up -And God knows that I see -Suicide sets you free -But hurts the ones you love -So just remember -You will sit and watch from above -The choice is yours -To live or die -But think of the people -You will make cry!-I disappear into silence. -Far away from the violence. -Hiding in my corner. -I'm afraid I'll break the border; -between clarity and insanity. -Drowning in my thoughts. -Dead, and here I'm lost. -Only to wake up alive. -A dream I made in my mind. -Sirens screaching out. -Only outside this wretched house. -It should have been me. -You left me with these sentiments. -Can you just pick up and forget? -The love I had. -Broken hearts again. -I waited and you only fled. -Not a word, without a care. -Letters, tokens, a love affair? -Misplaced in this world; -feelings dart. -From place to place, -falling apart. -Kiss me one last time with poison lips. -Wishing you had saved those words I'll long to miss. -Afraid to show my love now, -you left me ashamed. -Stop the pain, stop the pain. -Paint me red for all the bloodshed. -Maybe I'm just laying here..better off dead-I burned the memories today -Watching faces distort and -Words disentegrate -I hoped that this would chase old feelings away -But even the pile of ashes left a stain -People have told me -Time is all I need -But tell me why 2 years later -My heart still bleeds? -The love I try to hide -I covered with blind hatred -But somehow they see through -I guess I just can't fake it -Oh, how my love for you sits in the darkest of despair! -But baby, you need to know that I still care -So I'll count to five and down to one -That'll give you some time to run -Because this was a promise to myself and -It will be through before the night is done -My name will be the last to cross across your brain -Not hers -Oh no -Not hers -Now I'm glad that my name is only spelled with three letters Because carving it on the bullet made me feel a whole lot -better