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Nèur@l

We are stardust, we are golden -Joni Mitchell

About Me

I'm a dirty fag who listens to ANGRY SCREAMING music that makes you wanna do 1 of 2 things DANCE or THROW YOURSELF AROUND IN HOPES OF HITTING SOMEONE ELSE IN THE PROCESS. I dunno. Want to know about me, well meet me face to face, I feel that's the only way you'll ever truly know who I am. I can't describe myself because at the moment I really don't know myself.. I did, but that was a long time ago. So be impulsive and ask to have coffee with me, we'll chat and when we're finished you can either order another cup and splash it in my face or slowly sip it down while enduring another conversation that'll run even deeper into my sub-conscious.
P.S. I'm not really a dirty fag by means of I sleep around. Cause to be completely honest with you I'm not as big into sexual encounters as I was when I was like 16 or sumthin. I call myself that to appease the masses of Catholics and Christians out there. If you must know my views on sex I wrote a kute fucking blog filled with insight on my views regarding my sexuality.
P.S.S. If you think I'm a mean person you have a shafted opinion of me. Cause let's face it. Reading text off the internet provides only the use of words and lacks the use of facial expressions and tone of voice. Sarcasm is everywhere you just need to be good at spotting it. I'm actually very outgoing and a very nice person (in my opinion) but you can judge for yourself if you've actually met me in person and not according to a fucking MySpace profile. DAMN VNV NATION is making me have funky ass thoughts.
Take the quiz:
What is your inner Demon?

Shadow of Hell
ever get the feeling you're being watched? the hairs prickling on the back of your neck? well this is the reason. the shadow of hell makes a person feel dire uncomfort, unseen and extremely sneaky. you need more friends if you got this result...
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TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name: Josh
Birthday: February 17 1988
Birthplace: Toledo, Ohio
Current Location: WBL, Minnesota
Eye Color: Brown
Hair Color: Brown
Height: 6' 2"
Right Handed or Left Handed: Left Handed
Your Heritage: Polish, Irish, Czech Slovakian, and tiny teeny bit of British
The Shoes You Wore Today: Combat Boots, Jungle boots to be specific
Your Weakness: Attractive individuals
Your Fears: The girl/guy I like hates me, or Fear itself
Your Perfect Pizza: Veggie pizza
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: Gain the privelage of having someone I can call my own
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: Lata
Thoughts First Waking Up: Why do I persist?
Your Best Physical Feature: Torso
Your Bedtime: I'm an insomniac so three days from now
Your Most Missed Memory: Joy and me trudging around a sofa on my old plastic skateboard when we were like 10
Pepsi or Coke: They both suck
MacDonalds or Burger King: I'm vegetarian and they're both arseholes
Single or Group Dates: Single
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Lipton
Chocolate or Vanilla: Chocolate
Cappuccino or Coffee: Coffee
Do you Smoke: Trying to quit
Do you Swear: Fucking right I do
Do you Sing: I'm the lead singer for my band "Digitized Adrenaline"
Do you Shower Daily: Yes, but don't use sanitization shit
Have you Been in Love: I've felt deep desire for someone, love.. What is love?
Do you want to go to College: MIT baby!
Do you want to get Married: Think I would, think I wouldn't. I'm bisexual so it's a toughy
Do you belive in yourself: oh yeh
Do you get Motion Sickness: nope
Do you think you are Attractive: At times, and not at times
Are you a Health Freak: Vegetarian, exercise, I guess I kinda am
Do you get along with your Parents: hell naw
Do you like Thunderstorms: Defiantely
Do you play an Instrument: Keyboard, Synthesizer, bass, drums, guitar, turntables, vocals, and many many more
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: nope
In the past month have you Smoked: sadly yes
In the past month have you been on Drugs: nope
In the past month have you gone on a Date: sadly no
In the past month have you gone to a Mall: All the time
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos: damn I wish
In the past month have you eaten Sushi: Vegetarian
In the past month have you been on Stage: Yep
In the past month have you been Dumped: nope
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping: I've been, but not in the past month
In the past month have you Stolen Anything: shhh don't tell anyone
Ever been Drunk: nope, been buzzed, but I don't drink anymore
Ever been called a Tease: yes.. *Blushes*
Ever been Beaten up: I have beaten people up, but I am a peaceful individual, unless someone causes me a negative
Ever Shoplifted: Again.. shhhh
How do you want to Die: Falling from a building.. I dunno what kind of question is that?
What do you want to be when you Grow Up: lol.. A professional hacker.. White Hat though
What country would you most like to Visit: Ireland/New Zealand/Sweden/France/Germany mainly Ireland to meet my past
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color: BLUE!!!!!!
Favourite Hair Color: umm.. I guess brunette or brown
Short or Long Hair: preferablly short on a guy, and not too lengthy on a girl
Height: Shorter than me
Weight: Skinny yet defined
Best Clothing Style: No prefrence as long as they look good in em
Number of Drugs I have taken: Me? Don't wanna say but let's just say more than 3
Number of CDs I own: don't make me count em
Number of Piercings: Two
Number of Tattoos: None, but Holly Bonner is sure to be giving me quite a lot of em
Number of things in my Past I Regret: An arseload!
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS! I'm just your average joe trying to figure out why he exists and what his purpose in life is to be. Currently I spend most of my time either learning about network security, working, writing, friends(Wish I had more), and working on my zine "Politics Unorthodox". Also, I, at random periods, am trying to raise my High School GPA cause I prolly have ruined my chances of going to MIT for my procrastination. Oh well I can always become a penniless writer. I read a lot!!! I read and read and read. Favorite authors are George Orwell and Anthony Burgesse. I'm a computer phreak/h4x0r!!! RARR so ub3r-31337! I'm a member of the socialist party and I am majorly politically active. I guess I'm somewhat of an advocate. I skateboard, play the drums, learning the guitar, music, I have no life! I'm a dreamer, hopeless romantic, and generally a switched individual, i.e. I'm either REALLY self-conscious or I'm REALLY self-centered. I mean I have my ups and my downs. Overall though I'm a VERY nice person, but I can get ticked off if you are intentionally trying to piss me off. So if you wanna hop on the band wagon and get to know me better the best thing to do would be to approach me at skewl, don't worry I'd probablly love the attention, or if you don't go to my skewl then you can add me as a friend on here and we could chat it up sumtime!
PRAISE THE LORDS: DISBEHAVE!!
Loner
75%
Drama nerd
69%
Punk/Rebel
38%
Stoner
31%
Goth
25%
Geek
25%
Prep/Jock/Cheerleader
13%
Ghetto gangsta
13%
What's Your High School Stereotype?
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I am 17% Emo.

. Okay... so I'm not emo at all.. I am probably not even goth, because goths are just messed up emo kids... I am probably a metal head... or into boy bands... Take the
Emo Test
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You are Michael Alig. You are king of the Club
Kids. You are the crack-smoking gay party
promoter with a penchant for hotpants, red
lipstick and Andy Worhol. You created some of
the wildest parties this country has ever seen.
You had it all.. fame, money,.. men. So what if
you helped kill your drug dealer, chopped off
his legs, sprinkled him with baking soda, and
humped the box you stuffed him in. You're still
pretty and you know it!
Which one of Michael Alig's Club Kids are you?
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A GOOD FUCKING CRUST BAND!
I AM SO PROUD OF MYSELF!!! SEE BELOW!!!!
I AM 10% METROSEXUAL! I need some advice. I need to STOP BUYING MY CLOTHS AT WAL-MART!!!! I will never land a decent woman unless I shave this nasty facial hair, and spend more then $5 on a haircut. Take the METROSEXUAL test at Fuali.com
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Yeh so I named my computer ZenBox.. you gotta problem wit dat?
Take the What animal best portrays your sexual appetite?? Quiz
You Have A Type B+ Personality
B+ You're a pro at going with the flow You love to kick back and take in everything life has to offer A total joy to be around, people crave your stability.While you're totally laid back, you can have bouts of hyperactivity. Get into a project you love, and you won't stop until it's done You're passionate - just selective about your passions Do You Have a Type A Personality?
Your Hidden Talent
You have the natural talent of rocking the boat, thwarting the system. And while this may not seem big, it can be. It's people like you who serve as the catalysts to major cultural changes. You're just a bit behind the scenes, so no one really notices. What's Your Hidden Talent?
You are Agonistic
You're not sure if God exists, and you don't care. For you, there's no true way to figure out the divine. You rather focus on what you can control - your own life. And you tend to resent when others "sell" religion to you. What's Your Religious Philosophy?
OK DON'T FUCKING THROW A FIT! I ANSWERED THE QUESTIONS AS TRUTHFULLY AS I COULD.

Your Political Profile


Overall: 0% Conservative, 100% Liberal
Social Issues: 0% Conservative, 100% Liberal
Personal Responsibility: 0% Conservative, 100% Liberal
Fiscal Issues: 0% Conservative, 100% Liberal
Ethics: 0% Conservative, 100% Liberal
Defense and Crime: 0% Conservative, 100% Liberal
Myspace Tracker That Works at
.. How Liberal / Conservative Are You?
The Cranberries - Salvation
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W6_sZd3viG8

Music video by The Cranberries performing Salvation with Olivier Dahan, Hervé Humbert (C) 1996 The Island Def Jam Music Group


The Cranberries - Salvation
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W6_sZd3viG8

Music video by The Cranberries performing Salvation with Olivier Dahan, Hervé Humbert (C) 1996 The Island Def Jam Music Group

My Interests



Drums. Music. Placebo. Punk Rock. Aus-Rotten. RIP Damage Deposit. Monkeys. Books. Politics. Skateboarding. Guitar. Technology. Network Security. Fones! My zine "Politics Unorthodox". Writing. Friends(When I have em). Love. Romance. I'm so hopeless.

And this is about the best Artwork I've done ever.. A friend and me were bored at Taco Bell (DON'T EAT THERE) and this is the fruit of our boredom.

Disorder
Rating
Paranoid : High
Schizoid : Moderate
Schizotypal : High
Antisocial : Moderate
Borderline : Moderate
Histrionic : Low
Narcissistic : Moderate
Avoidant : High
Dependent : Low
Obsessive-Compulsive : Low

-- Personality Disorder Test - Take It! --

I'd like to meet:



I'd like to meet people that have a sense of humor, adventure, and the willingness to take risks.. I'd like to meet someone who's open-minded and willing to discuss politics, ideas, theories, etc. without getting irritated on the opposition. Cause let's face it.. We all have our opinions and those opinions are going to vary from person to person. Like me with friendship, I lose friends cause I eventually reveal an opposing opinion and the person obviously can't handle that. Umm.. I dunno.. I'd like to meet someone who's interesting. And isn't a complete dick-wad/asshole/fuckface.
Jeffery Dohmer (sic), David Berkowitz, Chicatillo, Ed Gein, and many more. I would love to meet God so I can tell him to go fuck himself!
If i was a serial killer i would be The Zodiac Killer
.

Over the course of almost 9 years in the 1970s the Zodiac Killer took the lives of over 13 people, either stabbing or shooting them to death in or by their vehicles. All the targets were the same, couples in cars off rural roads.

Taunting cops the Zodiac Killer would send in encrypted messages to the local papers, describing how his past victims had died, and who would come next if they didn't post his message on the cover of the newspaper the following day. The only surviving witness described the zodiac killer as a heavy set man in a self fashioned hooded jacked that covered his face, brandishing a crossed circle that he always signed his letters with.

After 1978 the killings stopped, the Zodiac's case was never solved.

Kill count: 13
Find what serial killer you would be, Take the Serial Killer Quiz now!

Music:

One of my favorite bands would have to be Man Afraid because they totally get that message out.. May they rest in peace. Other bands would include Aus-Rotten, Otep, Damage Deposit, The Gits, Placebo, Depeche Mode, anything your grandmother wouldn't listen to, Beethoven, Bach, The Germs, Leftover Crack, Misery, Doom, Drop Dead, The Vandals, Destroy, Disrupt, Attenant Sonore (French Punk Band), Skinjobs (Queercore), Nehemiah, Napalm Death, Lords of Acid, Skitsystem, you name it I like it. I like music period. I only don't like rap and country, but I prefer rap over country! Country just SUX!!!!

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Movies:

A Clockwork Orange, The Messanger, Hedwig and the Angry Inch, Johnny Mnemonic, Sid & Nancy, The Fifth Element, The Filth and The Fury, and lotsa others!

Television:

The Tribe and Our Hero otherwise CNN! I hate TV!!!

You are nurturing, kind, and lucky. Like mother nature, you want to help everyone. You are good at keeping secrets and tend to be secretive.A seeker of harmony, you are a natural peacemaker. You are good natured and people enjoy your company. You put people at ease and make them feel at home with you. The World's Shortest Personality Test

Books:

A Clockwork Orange, 1984, Animal Farm, Neuromancer, Linux for Dummies (lol), LOTR series, The Hobbit, J.R.R. Tolkein is a GOD! And yes, I've unfortunately read all 5/6 or how many there are Harry Potters AND I'M FUCKING PROUD OF IT!!!!! THOSE BOOKS KICKED ASS. Takes a real man to admit that! :-D (smiley)

Heroes:

Sid Vicious, because he died in a blaze of glory, Stefan Olsdal, because he's hot and has a great taste in music, Milla Jovovich, because she's hot and she knows how to make it big, and Tom Shear, because he makes the music that moves my mind and my soul. I also am a fan of David Berkowitz, not because he's a homicidal maniac, but because he was brilliant (in a creepy kinda way). William Gibson, because he helped deliver the vision. There's more but I'm bored and can't think of em!

Morpheus

?? Which Of The Greek Gods Are You ??
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My Blog

Fuck To Get Fucked

Why waste your time? Why wait? Relationships are bullshit, especially when you get dumped. Especially when the other person is pretending they're the victim. Fuck it. Just fuck to get fucked.It's wort...
Posted by Nèur@l on Sat, 19 Apr 2008 07:13:00 PST

Last Nights Lovefest

So yeah, I had many friends over last night. And would you know it. After smoking fine cigars I realize that strip poker would be an excellent idea. Of course heading to my bedroom where a space heat...
Posted by Nèur@l on Mon, 11 Feb 2008 11:20:00 PST

Explaination of my New foto

Ok so I know I've been getting all these crazy e-mails about how sleazy I am or whatever. But the foto of me restrained to a bed with a pizza covering my "region" is for my sole enjoyment.My roommate ...
Posted by Nèur@l on Tue, 05 Feb 2008 09:50:00 PST

My Sexuality

Ok I have no clue why I'm exactly writing this but here goes.This is my view on how I partake in the role of love, sex, and all that.By nature I consider myself to be more interested in the small, see...
Posted by Nèur@l on Mon, 17 Sep 2007 03:33:00 PST

College and my Quit Plan

So yes I have been completely occupied with skewl. The stress loads are amazing considering I've just been dubbed the biggest nerd in class. Like today I had to help a couple class mates learn how to ...
Posted by Nèur@l on Wed, 12 Sep 2007 10:01:00 PST

The Virtues of Alcohol

So I went to go see "1408" with Emily today. It was pretty good.. Not the best but meh. Anyways to the main reason of this blog/journal/diary: Alcohol can solve a great number of problems. It makes dr...
Posted by Nèur@l on Mon, 23 Jul 2007 04:17:00 PST

The big house

Just got out of jail. Gawd it sucked. Fucking only 1 hour out of my cell for the whole day. The rest of the day was spent in a fucking tiny ass cell with my 45 year old roomie who I definately could N...
Posted by Nèur@l on Tue, 10 Jul 2007 07:06:00 PST

The Greatest Truth

Spiraling upwards, out of the ashes. The phoenix is born a new. Light and love fill up all thoughts as he lays naked curled on the floor. The journey was long, brutal, dark, and evil. However he pulle...
Posted by Nèur@l on Tue, 03 Jul 2007 11:27:00 PST

Shadow Cat

So I was bored out of my mind last night and no one was really interested in seeing me.. I decided to drink till I was on the verge of dropping and somehow hopped on a bike, rode around aimlessly unti...
Posted by Nèur@l on Wed, 06 Jun 2007 11:12:00 PST

Blinded

In darkness, covered in shadow. Cloaked by the mist or the chance of rain. Desperate for the adrenaline. Fiending for the rush, the excitement, the energy. Decaying inside, well aware but continues wi...
Posted by Nèur@l on Wed, 16 May 2007 02:15:00 PST