"At this moment, there are six billion, four hundred seventy million, eight hundred eighteen thousand, six hundred seventy one people in the world. Some are running scared. Some are coming home. Some tell lies to make it through the day. Others are just not facing the truth. Some are evil men, at war with good. And some are good, struggling with evil. Six billion people in the world-six billion souls. And sometimes ...All you need is one."peyt0n elizabeth sawyer fckknpunk
Okay, so I'm Peyt0n Sawyer. You could say I have two sides of me; my broody artistic emo girl and the cheerleader. Two complete polar oppisites. You must be thinking I've got mutiple personalities. Well, I hate to disapoint, but I don't. I'm just a regular girl who has huge issues letting people in to my life. You may think I'm some poser since I'm "emo" and also a cheerleader. The truth is, you know nothing about me. Pretty much all you know is that I cheerlead and draw. Oh, and that I have trust issues. Don't judge me now, you'll regret it later. You've got no idea who I am underneath my picture. Underneath who you see on the outside. I can be your worst enemy or your best friend. All I want in life is to surround myself with people who love me for me, not someone who you want me to be.
First of all, you don't know me, second of all, you don't know me.
My name is Peyt0n Elizabeth Sawyer, but you already knew that. I grew up in a town called Tree Hill which is located in the state North Carolina. Let me tell you a little about my life, and what it's been like for me. When I was 10 my mom died. She ran a red light, which lead to another car hitting hers in the side, and she died. At that point I felt like my world was crashing, and falling apart. Luckily I had my best friend, Brooke Davis plus my dad, Larry Sawyer to help me.After I while I finally managed to move on with my life even how much I missed my mom. Eventually I fell in love with this guy I met in school, Nathan Scott. Even though we fought alot, he was a wonderful boyfriend to have. At this point I had turned 17. When my relationship with Nathan started fading I practially ran into his brother, Lucas Scott with my car. We ended up just staring at eachother. I admit: I wanted him. Lucas ended up getting together with my best friend, Brooke. It was all okay until one day we decided to go on a trip, and we ended up almost sleeping together. We didn't though. He eventually told her, and of course Brooke was heartbroken.After that things just got weird with Lucas and me, but at least I managed to get Brooke to understand, and we became best friends again quickly. I love her for forgiving me like that. At this time I met Jake Jagielski, whom turned out to be the love of my life. What happened? Peyton Sawyer got her heart broken. Jake left with his daugther Jenny to live in Savannah. His ex, Jennys mother named Nikki was after him so he had to go to keep his daugther. Eventually I met Pete Wentz from Fall Out Boy. We started dating, but sadly that ran over pretty quickly. I met him through the work I did with my real mother, Ellie Harp. Yes, my real mother showed up at my door, and basically my whole life was based on a lie. She died of cancer not long after I met her. Lucas at this point was back together with Brooke, and it was allright with me. I didn't mind or anything like that at all. Then there was the schoolshooting. Jimmy Edwards shot me in the leg, and I was about to die when Lucas came in the library, and he saved my life. I kissed him, and told him I loved him.What happened next? My ex-best friend, Brooke "dumped" me when she found out I have feelings for her now ex-boyfriend. He told her about the kiss at Nathan and Haley's wedding, and she slapped me. Wow, some drama. Well I guess I had it coming. You can't just do things like that, and expect for everyone to understand, right? Still I'm dealing with this everyday, trying to move on. I'll tell you it's not easy with an ex-bestfriend hanging over you wanting to bring you down. And I want her back as I friend, I really do. I just wish she would let me back in.The letter. Yeah, I found a letter from my real mom, Ellie, that she had left for me in a Led Zeppelin record before she died. This letter explained to me that somewhere out there, I have a half-brother named Derek Sommers. Eventually I managed to make myself call him, but he didn't want to talk to me. Then, a few days later he showed up at my door. At least so I thought. It turned out to be some stalker obsessed with me, and he tried to kill me. Again, Lucas saved my life together with the real Derek. After this I've just been trying to deal with it, but it's hard. My life keeps having the wrong turns.After this, I started to date someone by the name of Ryan Atwood. Yes, the Ryan Atwood. The one from Chino. We dated for awhile, but it never really worked out. We simply weren't meant to be. I'll never forget him and I hope he finds the girl for him. After that, I dated a few other people on and off. But them the real suprise came. Confession. So when Lucas said that him and Brooke were definetly over, I decided it was my turn. That moment was the time to tell him exactly how I felt. it didn't go too well. In reponse I got an "Oh". You heard me. All he said was "Oh". Then later on he told me I was the one he wanted next him when his dreams came true, and kissed me.Then I heard about this little sex tape that Brooke and Nathan had made in our Sophomore year. Naturally, I flipped and Brooke and I got into another huge fight. Except this time around, I let her go. I'm not mad anymore, I've cooled down. It just suprised me because Nathan hasn't been that asshole in a long time; I had begun to forget that he had been that guy. We're okay and everything's fine. I feel really bad about Brooke really being out of my life, but what else was I supposed to do? Lucas and I never slept together. It just really sucks to not be her friend.Brooke and I are friends again, finally. I missed her so much. We're working on patching things up and I couldn't be happier about it. Having my bets friend back really rocks. Rachel got expelled, though, and she's gone. But prom is coming up and I for one can't wait for it to be over with. I can't wait to get out of High School. Hopefully prom is going to be amazing. I think we all deserve it because, at least for me, this was the hardest year yet in Tree Hill. I want things to go smoothly for once and if they don't I don't know what I'm going to do. I think I deserve to have a nice time, free of drama. Don't you? Then came nathan scott. I know what you're thinking. Peyton Sawyer and Nathan Scott? Well, that's unheard of! Only, it's not because it happened. I love him and he loves me, it's simple as that. Well, not really, because what we have is so much more than that. He really understands me. He wanted to heal me from all my past mistakes with guys. He was broken and so was I, but this wasn't a rebound. Kissing him, there are sparks that fly and I know I made the right choice. He amazes me so much; he's not the asshole he once was. When I'm with him I feel special and important. I know he wouldn't lie to me and we've got something real. It's one of those things you don't realize until later. I never thought we'd get back together, but now that we are I'm so happy we did. I'm happier than I ever was and I owe it all to him. We've both changed, but at the end of the day; we're in love.
»current chapter in my life; 5yrs later// back
I faked her death. I couldn't deal with everything happening around me, so I faked my death, and I left. But I came back because I realized I could not live without the friends I hate. It's time to start over, and hopefully everyone's gonna' forgive me...
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