Joshua

I fail. I fall short. I am selfish. I am prideful. I leave the toilet seat up. She loves me anyway. I am forgetful. I am afraid. I rationalize. I fart. She loves me anyway. I stumble. I am weak. I procrastinate. I hide. I sing out of tune. She loves me anyway.

I've gained one hundred and seventy pounds in 28 years. By 56 I will be approaching four-hundred pounds.

Life is war. True power is surrender. Your mind controls you, let it go. You too Josh, let it go. The Spirit is in me (the believer). I MUST sacrifice self. If I decrease He will increase.

I am not worthy to breathe my next breath. I don't deserve to see beauty, feel the sun on my back, or eat ice cream. Much more, I am not worthy of the life I've been given. My best friend lives in the same house as me, shares the same bed, and wears a ring that says, "committed". Committed to me....

I used to think my elbows were muscles. They are still rock hard.

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