Bo

Bo aka. REASON bka. XIII
love is....
love is not what it may seem to be
to me, its been tears, tearing away
at my soul, cold and withering into
a shallow puddle, my reflection
when i look into my eyes, mirrored
i see, a sea of broken promises
farther in the distance, memories
past my fears, a place sheltered
forever i've tried to conceal
with a smile, making it into a laughing matter
whatever i can do, to make the feeling
the feeling of not having anything
disappear, where is this love
did i misplace it, while i was chasing it
is it my fault, i wanted it more than i needed it
looking everywhere to find something, anything
to fill in what is missing, wishing upon stars
crossing my fingers in the dark
comforted by thoughts that parade in my head
waiting to be awaken at any moment
let down again and again, every morning
a far way from where i first started
now it hurts less, but i can still feel the echoes
between my ears, circling my temples
how can my heart, only heard from near
uncontrolled by my own will
show so much affection
while mending the worst conflictions
without missing a beat, drumming
to find, i have asked, answered with two choices
a decision for me to make, alone and honest
a road of stone, concrete and easily travelled
or a path, unmarked and hardly noticable
for so long, i have been looking and searching
nearly giving into the traps, set up like webs
hope at its ends, and almost lost in the process
but still i follow my way, against the grain
the skin from my feet, cut and bleeding
a glance back, i see a small following
they are blind and deaf, but can taste the rust
in the air, unto thier tongues
breathing in the sweat
tears of joy, overshadow the doubts
with each step, a footprint, embedded
following others, maybe i am complete
what i have been looking for
what seemed so unattainable
has gotten me this far
a goal, yet to be achieved
patience, tests to be certain
lessons dealing with reasons
now the rhyme shows purpose
the will to overcome, i will succeed
and all the survivors will see
that it was always meant to be
no accident, nor failure
the past molds, the future history
in the end, its the love that is forever
now i know, hopeless i am, never
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