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Shinigami Ä®§ëñ¡€

Bleed Love and You Will Be Loved

About Me

I love because I'm human...and i can't stop and never will....no matter how much pain I go through......i can't live life without love....without showing love....trust in it.......you never learned from standing still...you touched the hot stove once and never again....learn and love..This profile was edited with MySpace Help - Profile Creator and Editor MySpace Profile Help!
Disorder Rating
Paranoid Disorder : Low
Schizoid Disorder : Low
Schizotypal Disorder : Low
Antisocial Disorder : High
Borderline Disorder : Very High
Histrionic Disorder : High
Narcissistic Disorder : Moderate
Avoidant Disorder : Low
Dependent Disorder : Moderate
Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder : Moderate
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Different Kind Of Pain Lyrics Before I let you go, give me just one more night to show you just how I feel I lost all my control, if it takes my whole damn life I'll make this up to you. Kind of like the waves, that roll their whole life towards somewhere crashing on the shore That's blown in by the wind that carries the clouds to hide my wish on a fallen star A different kind of pain, is someone there to hold you is someone there to take you away from me I tried to let you go I wish I could turn back time and show you just how i feel i needed you to know, if it takes my whole damn life i'll make this up to you Kind of like the waves, that roll their whole life towards somewhere crashing on the shore That's blown in by the wind, that carries the clouds to hide my wish on a fallen star A different kind of pain, is someone there to hold you is someone there to take you away from me Before you let me go away Before you let me go away Before you let me go away Before you let me go I needed you to know A different kind of pain, is someone there to hold you is someone there to take you away from me A different kind of pain, is someone there to hold you is someone there to take you away from me A different kind of pain A different kind of pain It's a different kind of pain It's a different kind of pain Before you let me go It's a different kind of pain I need you to know It's a different kind of pain It's a different kind..
"I love you today, as I have from the start, and I'll love you forever, with all of my heart."
"They may forget what you said, but they will never forget how you made them feel."
~Carl W. Buechner


Family Guy is Hilarious Love


Rancid is Punk Love
My Chemical Romance is Love
Love is...
Stewie is Evil Love
COLD
"It's All Good"
Take another motherfucking hit of LSD
Let all the love inside the world belong to you
Well, I can't understand just why you went away
Too young to feel the pain & bitterness of love
Well, I can never understand a motherfucking Word you'd ever say
And all the people that you hurt Came down on you
And I can't understand just why you went away
I sat and waited for the day you'd come back home
But it was all good
Take a loaded gun and blow my fantasy away
Turn off the light and shine the spotlight Down on you
Well, I could never understand a motherfucking word You'd ever say
And all the people you hurt came down on you
Well I can't understand just why you went away
I sat and waited for the day you came back home
Rock my world once more..........knock the sense into my head........that we failed and now your gone........that this lasting love that burns deep inside me.....will last forever......until the day i die...i will feel this yerning for you.....and i know that death isn't an escape from myself.......and the joys we shared.......even thoguh in memory your eyes still seem so bueatiful......and your smile makes me feel so many things once lost to my heart....you meant so much to me.......and now it's but a dream to be wished for........a hope come true.....but in a fairy tale flash........and now.....it's my time to reminisce on all we felt and did......forget me not.............dear love i miss you so
"In Joy And Sorrow My Home Is In Your Arms...In A World So Hollow It's Breaking My Heart" "My heart is dead.......and so are you......so come lay with me in death........as one" I think we should start out with this ........well i'm this little fuck that came out of my mom......if your not careful...when you turn your back i'll make you my mindless zombie slave with my super powers.....then i'll have spiderman wrap you up in web and take you home and put you in my meat locker......but enough about you..more about me......i shop....talk to friends....hang out with wierdos......i also love to head out to a lot of places around minnesota to hang out with friends.....well...when i have transportation....lol...but that's otherwise i like to stay home and play some games watch movies and read and all that nerdy stuff too.....oh yea...and lets not forget cooking....tehehehehe...and now enough of the bouncing around.......normal persons and stuffness-ness-ness are what i'm used to..but the occasional freak is fun(ok so i'm lying about the normal persons thingi).......and i sit on the computer when i can to download music and find anything interesting out in the world...wish me lots of luck with that one.....i mostly update my online journal and bitch and complain about how much i hate humanity and life and the way things never seem to work out the way you think it should but ends up finding some odd way of doing it anyway and so on....but i do have very enlightening conversations about things with the random people i talk to...optimism is a good thing...and so is hate sometimes but not always.....it's good to love and be loved....never forget that awesome feeling of love....it can move people in strange ways......why don't you take a walk to My Poetry Journal while your here.........oh yea......and lets not forget..i might suck at playing but i like to play Go .....god...and i always for get the best things.......... Rocky Horror Picture Show @ transvestite soup
You Are 86% Evil
You're the most evil person you know.
The devil is even a little scared of you! How Evil Are You?



How to make a Arsenic
Ingredients:
5 parts pride
5 parts humour
5 parts joy
Method:
Blend at a low speed for 30 seconds. Add lustfulness to taste! Do not overindulge!
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Personality cocktail
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What is your connection with darkness? [pics]
Your connection with darkness is through your interest in vampires. These occult beings fascinates you immensely. Their lives are simply something you would kill for, and if you would have the opportunity to be sired, you would. Living a mortal kind of life is too ordinary and tedious. You aren't necessarly evil just because of this interest/obsession, you just can connect with them and their lifestyles. To belong to a specil group of "people" in which "superpowers" come with the deal is appealing. Though most people have a hard time understanding this, and chances are you're a social outcast. Perhaps you hate your current life and therefore developed this interest, to escape reality.
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What is Your Phrase? [for darker people]
"Time passes by, but persistant demons still clutch on to me"
You have been wronged in the past and have to live with those awful memories now. That is why you carry inside much hate and sadness, which you hide away to most people. To this day you still feel pain thinking of it, and desire revenge done to them/him/her, to right the wrongs that has been made to you. You usually are alone or with a few friends, but you aren't too keen on the human race anylonger. You might find temporary happiness in some sort of activity, such as music, to get out your feelings, even if it is just listening to it. Most people might think you are overreacting to still feel such contempt, and that doesn't exactly help to be around those who can't understand. You might feel insecure nowadays, and you have little faith in most things.
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My Interests


Which of the 7 Deadly Sins Are You Most Guilty of?

Envy: "Like Greed, Envy is characterized by an insatiable desire, however the two sins differ for two main reasons. Firstly, Greed is normally associated with material wealth, whereas Envy can apply to other concepts, like love or success. Secondly, those who commit the sin of Envy desire something that someone else has." I'll admit, being envious is pretty sad...but it's not enough to send someone to hell I mean WTF, who came up with this crap?! [hah meli envys corn! ^-^]
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Your soulmate will be the quiet type. The mysterious person whom no one really understands, and that's what you like about him/her the most. You can find a person like that mostly in the shadows, or the person tring to hard to be something he's/she's not.
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You are the "happy" kind of person. You care about what happens all around you, always making sure to fix what is wrong. Your heart is large and beautiful, filled with jewels of many emotions. Passion and love flows through your veins and keeps you alive and well. An honest person, who doesn't go around trying to fight, Someone who truly deeply cares for their dear ones. Even when times get hard, you always manage to stay alive. An unselfish person who is referred to as an angel. A happy good going cheerful person. Most of your friends count on you. Always remember to protect what matters to you the most. A loyal person as well.

Color(s): Pink, White, Purple
Quote: "Light glimmers even in the darkest of nights"
Element: Water
Animal: Rabbit
Word: Tenshi- Angel
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You're fated to have a Dark love. Probably a lover of things gothic, you're artistic and original. Although you are a loner and independent to a fault, all you will need is him, and he will feel the same...

Please rate aaaaand... eat chocolate bars? *cough*rate*cough* ^^


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What's Your Inner Emotion Your Not Letting Out?

Your not letting self-pity show...dude i have the same problem...but its not always good to think of everyone ALL the time...think of yourself once in a while...your problems matter too you know...
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What Type of Killer Are You? [cool pictures]

You are an assassin.
That means you are a proffessional and do your job without mixing any emotions in it. In your life you have probably been hurt many times and have gotten some mental scars. This results in you being distant from people. Though many think that you are evil, you are not. What you really are is a person, trying to forget your pain and past. You are the person who never seems to care and that is why being an assassin fits you good. Atleast, that's what people think. Even if you don't care that much for your victims, you still have the ability to care and to generally feel. It is not lost, just a little forgotten. In crowds you tend to not get to noticed, and dress in black or other discrete colours. You don't being in the spotlight and wish people would just leave you alone. But once you do get close to someone you have a hard time letting go and get real down if you loose him/her.

Main weapon: Sniper
Quote:"The walls we build around us to keep out the sadness also keep out the joy" -Jim Rohn
Facial expression: Narrowed eyes
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What Dark Word Represents You? [anime pics]

Your word is: Brood. You are a true thinker and often try to figure out the meaning of life, why we are all here etc. You may not be so social, and often think twice before acting but those thoughts you have in your mind never stop flowing in. Sometimes you can be so concentrated you forget about other things that you have to do. Don't change, this world needs deep people.
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How do you see life?

Life is all about balance. Darkness can't be without light, and light can't be without darkness. You see everything through different angeles to gain perspective over situations. You act rather rational and people can find you stiff and/or emotionless due to this. Life is not really that good to you, yet it's not so bad. Like everything else, you need to balance it in order to find peace.
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What Do You Need in Your Life? [dark pics]

You need love.
You are a pretty normal, well-rounded person that just craves that fairy tale love where you will be swept off your feet and live happily ever after. Chances are that you fantasize or dream about it so much that you either see all the guys/girls as unromantic or you tell yourself that anyone could be your soulmate. You long to have someone by your side and you want to give back on the romance part too, not just give.
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What Type of Person Are You? [pictures + detailed results]

The satisfied - The desireless


Not greedy by nature, the Satisfied knows of what they have achieved and earned, and feels content with that. Materialistic impulses happen rarely, if ever, and they don't value possessions and trends nearly as much as most do. The Satisfied usually have a calm personality and tend to be full of care, whether they are open with it or not. Of course they can be selfish, but their selfless nature proceeds that by far.
Downsides are that the Satisfied may be taken advantage of, in the likes of favours per se. It is in their nature to help, and they can be big push-overs when it's about injustice towards themselves. Also, since they don't want to bother their peers and close ones, they keep most of their problems inside. If this builds up they may start to suffer in silence, a completely unnecessary act.
Because they have a hard time to say no, and since people may use them, with time the Satisfied could grow hateful and distrusting. However, it appears now, that they are not. They reckon that some people are bad news and stay away from them. They stay with their own group of trusted people instead. As the Satisfied's name implies, they don't seem to have any dreams or goals. That is a perception not quite true. As any other human being, they do have them. But the difference is, that the Satisfied are content with their life even if the dream would not come true.
Quote:"It is not length of life, but depth of life." -Ralph Waldo Emerson


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What Color Is Your Soul?

Midnight Blue -- You're a very calm person and nothing really fases you. You love the night sky and anything else that can relax your soul. You care about all the people you love more than anything and would probably do almost anything for them. Probably very trustworthy and deep.
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I'd like to meet:

lol.....what a question to ask.....any one who would like to meet me i guess.....fun people that can see both sides of life...the dark and light...the parts of the human that wish to destroy and the side that wishes to nurture.........it may be you....or you...or you.....ummmm....yea....=^.^=.....oh yea.......and i'd like to find a love that stays......no matter what form it takes.....so far i'm doing ok...but i think it's hard to spot and deal with sometimes....here's to life

Music:

My music is my life.....i can't live without it......i listen to anything that will give me a good emotional feeling on most levels or just get me moving......i love techno, death metal, metal, power metal, pop, punk, rock, some rap, oldies, and some other crazi shit too...i go to concerts for local bands and love to find other bands i like....Some of the mainstream bands I like are...Breaking Benjamin, Cradle of Filth, In Flames, Dimmu Borgir, Nonpoint, Korn, Tool, NOFX, Killswitch Engage, Smashing Pumpkins, Dope, Rammstien, all sorts of techno...trance....house.....and industrial, Avenged Sevenfold, Atreyu, aperfectcircle, Bush, As I Lay Dying, No Doubt, Linkin Park, Blur, Marilyn Manson, Mudvayne, Slipknot, Staind, 3 Doors Down, Metallica, Fuel, Radiohead, Disturbed, Rob Zombie, Alice in Chains, Mindless Self Indulgence, YellowCard, Kittie, Seether, PM5K, Papa Roach, Enigma, Taproot, Deadsy, Savage Garden, Greenday, Audioslave, Soundgarden, Incubus, Silver Chair, Lit, Flogging Molly, Shadows Fall, SoulFly, Fear Factory, Tantric, Lost prophets, three Days grace, Apartment 26, Static x, 40 below summer, Ill Nino, Primus, Smile empty soul, Type o negative, revis, Opeth, Otep, Simple Plan, Saliva, System of a Down, eminem, Mushroom head, infected mushroom, Megadeath, NIN, Cold, Nightwish, Orgy...... Take the quiz:
Insane clown posse quiz, Juggalo or Poser?

Juggalo
Your a True Juggalo, Born With a hatchet and a juggalo face, Cruisin with A trunk full of faygo and a car full of fat chix, and haunted by a Dark Carnival, your hmies are family too, and you believe Santa Clause is a fat bitch. Hallowen is prolly ur favorite Holiday. if this is tru and ur a juggalette you should im me on .. IndependentJ0ker (with tha number zero) Much Clown love!

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You are the Wraith, the Sixth Joker's Card. You
are rather holy...or unholy, as the case may
be. You direct people to their destination,
whether it be Heaven or Hell. You are Death,
aka the Grim Reaper. You show people what
they deserve: the golden light of Shangri-La,
or the fiery pits of Hell. While they are
the judge, you are the one who leads them to
their destination.

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Movies:

Donnie Darko, Boondock Saints, Freddy vs Jason, Corky Romano, Dawn of the Dead, Dogde Ball, Pirates of the carribean, Fern Gully, Resident evil, House of 1,000 corpses, The beach, x-men, Gia, Requiem for a dream, Identity, Mambo Italiano, Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, Pan's Labyrinth, Brick, Virgin Suicides...

Television:

I basicly watch most anything on [Adult Swim]....but anything anime is good...Charmed, Buffy, Angel, Lilo and Stitch, Viva La Bam, Jackass, Farscape, VH1, MTV, Comedy Central...i guess i'll watch anything...

Books:

I do like to read......i have my quirks about what i get into....i'm a huge manga and anime fan so that is a big part of what i read

Heroes:

who the hell has any heroes anymore...this is like asking if you have a very special anti-christ in your life......my only hero would be spiderman...lol.....sticky web stuff....hot tights..oh yea!...but seriously....it's hard to have heroes....look for the good people in your life...the ones who help and give guidance..those are the real heroes...

My Blog

the little death

i dive in cause you feel so good......i fall out...into nothing all alone.....i cry out screaming and it's too much.....you linger and leave......my emotions turn into your problem and undeserved atte...
Posted by Shinigami Ä®§ëñ¡¬ on Fri, 13 Jul 2007 05:05:00 PST

is it a matter of taste or touch

when does one forget the pains of the heart...the scars of day to day...and learn that it's ok to be hurt.....to let go of it all.....to open up....cause even if you know it's ok and you can handle it...
Posted by Shinigami Ä®§ëñ¡¬ on Sat, 28 Apr 2007 10:00:00 PST

do you know the words?

is this the way it goes....this damned ring of pain...maybe i should figure it out...jump out...jump down....embrace death...embrace the things i fight back day to day...stop holding this pain for tho...
Posted by Shinigami Ä®§ëñ¡¬ on Thu, 19 Apr 2007 11:29:00 PST

it makes sense

fuck all your stupid bullshit....your melodramatic shit....give me the time...do fuck with me.....it's the games again...and i'm not gonna lose...cause i wont play....your all gonna see what it means ...
Posted by Shinigami Ä®§ëñ¡¬ on Mon, 19 Mar 2007 02:03:00 PST

Drive in The Knife

I'm here...i've fallen..i'm at the bottom...is there anyone looking....anyone laughing...does anyone care....i've cried bleeding for you....stripped of everything.....i'm lost...alone.....just finish...
Posted by Shinigami Ä®§ëñ¡¬ on Tue, 06 Mar 2007 02:20:00 PST

i need.....

i need this to feel...to suffer...to rejoice in my failure.......to complete myself.....to die....to go beyound my own limits....to learn.....to mourn...to fall ...
Posted by Shinigami Ä®§ëñ¡¬ on Fri, 09 Feb 2007 04:12:00 PST

Old McDonald

lets get technical....or metaphysical....lets talk heartbreak......how about hollowness....or grief....loneliness....lets mix some stuff together     old mcdonald had a farm e i e i o and on...
Posted by Shinigami Ä®§ëñ¡¬ on Fri, 01 Sep 2006 01:30:00 PST

Crawling back......

i'm remember thinking of the family we would have...the days spent with each other and the kids....comming home and making you dinner.....watching tv and eating ice cream or popcorn.......falling asle...
Posted by Shinigami Ä®§ëñ¡¬ on Mon, 14 Aug 2006 05:34:00 PST

Banging my head

if i do it long enough will i die...cause it's getting old......and my blood is starting to smell......the pain has gone beyond my head into my body.....and my heart is the only thing that can take it
Posted by Shinigami Ä®§ëñ¡¬ on Sat, 12 Aug 2006 11:53:00 PST

Mad World

All around me are familiar facesWorn out places, worn out facesBright and early for their daily racesGoing nowhere, going nowhereTheir tears are filling up their glassesNo expression, no expressionHid...
Posted by Shinigami Ä®§ëñ¡¬ on Fri, 11 Aug 2006 08:55:00 PST