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I mostly wear black, white and various shades of gray. I have a rather mix-and-match wardrobe
Who can I could I honestly call my friend?
Who could I rely on?
Who would be there for erin if she felt as if she was going insane?
None of you
I dislike you, teenage mediocrity generation.
But you already know that.
I don't think I could count how many times I have told you that.
I am my own canvas, and I'm creating my own picture.
Be quiet, you're disturbing the peace
I've always been pretty sure of myself, but now I feel as if I'm looking though a different set of eyes.
I feel like I have become a different person.
I feel as if I have grown more in the past two months than ever have in the 4 years I've been at high school. It's the 5th year now, and I can't wait until it's over.
Why am I seeing all of these things which I have never been able to see before?
Why has it taken me this long to realize?
Maybe it's that, all my life I have thought I was normal, and that every one else was crazy. But maybe everyone IS normal, and I'm the one who's crazy.. You people don't think the same way I think. The kind of things which go through my brain are completely different to the things which go through your brain. It's not very nice to sit back and watch a nice group of kids turn into a horrible, twisted and bitter group of kids. You're on a path of self destruction. And you don't even care..
Don't you understand? You could never know me. And I could never know you. Because I am not trying to kill myself. I am trying to plant my feet on solid ground. And this is why I can not relate to anyone. I don't even want to relate to anyone anymore..
I AM THE MINORITY
And you teenage mediocrity generation are the MAJORITY
mediocrity is a killer
Christ is not a fashion
I can't wait to finish high school. I can't wait to get away from everyone who so deeply angers me. And everyone deeply angers me.
Have you ever wondered why I am so introverted? Have you ever wondered why you feel so uncomfortable around me? Have you ever wondered why you can't tell me a single thing about your lives without feeling ashamed of yourselves? Have you ever wondered why it seems so awkward when you try to talk to me?
IT'S BECAUSE I AM NOT LIKE YOU.
How could anyone possibly feel comfortable around me? How could anyone ever share anything with me?
I understand why I am the last person to ever be invited anywhere. I understand why I am the person you call when you have no body else to hang out with. I understand why you can only tell me half-truthes. I understand why you feel as if you have to hide yourself from me.
I completely understand
And I can see through all of it. And I can see through all of you.
I finally understand why I am the 'freak' and why everyone tries to avoid me as much as possible..
I am the absolute minority.
I will always be seperated. I will always seem strange. I will always be distant.
You could never give me something I don't already have. Don't even try. Don't even try to impress me, because you won't impress me. Don't try to befriend me, I will only make you feel worse about yourself. You could never tell me the truth, because the truth will only shame you.
I have this effect on people
And it greatly disturbs me.. It is the most frustrating thing in the world. But I'm okay with that. God will take it all away
I am already dead to the world
And I am already dead to myself
© erin:face
2007
LOL at this!! Many thanks, Justin ♥
Michelle is pretty brutal.. I dig her a whole lot
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