im a human. i tend to think that im different than most humans, for various reasons. very few people love and/or care about me, but those who do seem to think im pretty fucking wonderful. ask them.
i grew up in silicon valley, ew i know, and have finally escaped. i just moved to marin and am trying to start a new life up here in the woods. so far the only thing stopping me are the freakishly huge spiders that invade my home. well, that and knowing no one. but im working on that i guess.
im tall and im a big girl, and for the most part im totally and completely fine with that. i know im a pretty girl regardless, and if you cant see that so be it. your bad. im also not the typical 20 something chick, but mostly in good ways, i promise.
ive changed so much since i was 16, its insane. there are still some parts of me that remain the same, but its amazing what you can learn about yourself and others if you are brave enough to explore. most of the people who were my life, and my world are nothing to me now. i will always remember them, and always keep them and the lessons that they have taught me close to my heart, but for the most part ive started over the past few years, months, days... depending on how you look at it. and i never intend to turn back.
i was raised in a place that had me speeding down a path of unhappiness and conformity. i broke, or shattered rather. and when i began to put the pieces back together they didnt seem to fit back into the mold they came from. thank the lord for that. i am so blessed to have been given a second chance at making myself and my life exactly what i want it to be, especially so early in life.
the journey im on, and have been on, has been one to remember. and im looking forward to the people i will meet and love and know as i finally try life out as me. maybe youll be one of them, who knows...
thank you to those who have stayed with me on this journey. thank you to those who have loved me when i couldnt love myself.
thank you to those who pushed me, those who used all of their own strentgh to fuel and power me.
thank you to those who have taught me things i would have never known, had it not been for their presence in my life.
thank you to: robin garcia- you teach me something new almost everyday, whitney- you are the second sister and best friend ive always dreamed of and never had, marques- for never once making me feel insecure about who i am or how i look or what i choose to do with my life, nichole- for being my inspiration in so so many ways, salem- for making me feel less alone and less freakish, lamar- for letting me adopt you into my life and for putting up with me, and alexandra- for seeing the real me even when i was being held under some psychotic spell by youknowwho. every single one of you amaze me.
by the way, if you arent mentioned here it doesnt mean you havent meant something huge to me, or that i dont appreciate you or your patience and love. it just means im tired and my brain is shot.
but most of all, thank you to my family: my mom, my dad, my sister, my dogs... for never giving up on me. i couldnt have gotten half as far as ive come without you.
