benji

- simple. awkward.
i'm ben,
i'm a real person with real heart and real dreams. my conscience tells me that i'm fresh to death, but i ain't really tryin' to be that fresh.. i'm (usually) a fan of now - but isn't everyone? i want to surround my world with sounds, people and places. not intensely; i'll happily take that part watered-down.

i am tired of walking around here with my hands on my guns. it seems like whenever i find a good groove in life, my first gut reaction is to go on total guard, tense up, and worry about what bad will happen next. i'm always afraid of good things going on.

i miss a lot.