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Abstract Vista

To Thine Own Self Be True

About Me



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Well I am on a path of self discovery I am here for me. I am doing this for me. Because in the end it will be me and God. I have traveled a tough road and who knows what the future holds I am trying to live in the present. I am going through a tough season right now but i will pull thru victorious because I say I will and I have faith that I will. I am not seeking attention but to lay low and work on myself if you couldn't tell already.

My Interests

Worship,Nature, the roaring 20's,Reading,History, Art, candles, movies, oil painting, graphic arts,animals, poetry,cooking,spending time with family, Going to church,Helping humanity out any way i can, long walks to nowhere, going to museums,long conversations about anything and nothing,sitting at the bus station observing human reactions to everyday life making my husband laugh at my dorkyness and a whole bunch of other stuff that i guess you will just have to find out on your own...

I'd like to meet:

I know the chances are slim but i would love to meet interesting people who are down to earth true to themselves and who are honest people that dont have to make up a pretend world of grandious plot lines and amazing feats to attract the people they would like to meet cuz in the end the truth always comes out what you see is what you get with me nothing more nothing less and that is what i seek. I am not on here to get laid so if that is your intention please look elsewhere but if you look at my page and see a kindred spirit and you meet the above mentioned criteria then by all means send me a line

Music:

oh wow i do not think there is enough space to list everything but i guess i can try you will see that i have a very wide taste in music. enya secret garden lorenna mckennitt ~~~ know i spelled that wrong annie de franco anything celtic i like those nature cds that have the tumbling sreams and brids on them and lady black smith moombasa,America,Depeche Mode,Dido,Filter,Social D,Beck,Moby,311,Audioslave,The Beatles, Belle and Sebastian, Johnny Cash, Anything with Glen Danzig in it,Type O,Frank Sinatra Bettie Davis,Dina Shore, 1000 Homo DJs, Aimee Mann, Alice in Chains,Aphex Twin,Apoptygma Berzerk,Fiction,Astrid Haven,Bjork,Black Tape for a Blue Girl,blur,breathless,brothers four,cannibal corpse, christian death, deicide,cradle of filth,cerebras,cocteau twins,cranberries,circumflex,das ich,dead can dance,death in june,deftones,dieselboy,sirty vegas,DJ Spooky,Duncan Shiek, electric hellfire club, fairies fortune, fear factory,front line assembly, assemblage 23,funker vogt,garbage,gary jules, rem, genitorturers,ill nino,ima robot,jack off jill,jimi hendrix, the doors, joy division, kate bush,kidney thieves, kittie, KMFDM,Leaether Strip, linkin park,local h,love spirials downwards,mazzy star,ministry,muddy waters, Stevie Ray Vahn, NIN,Nirvana,Opeth,Pale 3,PAntera,Pink Floyd, poe, primus,project pitchfork, prodigy, orgy, radiohead, rammstein, rasputina,razed in black, ruby blue,sepultura,system of a down.skinny puppy,sleep chamber,snot,sonic youth,soulfly,stabbing westward,stellastarr,stoa,suicide commando,switchblade symphony,taproot,this mortal coil,toadies,VNV Nation, white zombie, wolfshiem,wumpscut,tori amos,staind, the cure,tool, a perfect circle,DK(JELLO ROCKS!!!),the ramones,the smiths,guns and roses,Mozart,Slayer,velvet and christ,london after midnight,zeromancer,covenant,the dark,vice squad,the addicts,disorder,peter and the testube babies,blitz,action pact,the enemy, riot,ATV,the drones,angelic upstarts,pigface,klute,elvis,billy holiday,david bowie, and much much more i started getting bored making this list so just ask me if i like anything else cuz the answer is yes muahaha.

Movies:

independent,forgien,strange,crazy,i think you get the point i like muahaha

Television:

Simpsons, Fosters Home For Imaginary Friends, House and when it was on invader zim...but i am not too fond of tv...

Books:

anything and everything i am a read-aholic always have been always will be... you should see my collection of antique books they are awesome muahahaha and yarrr ^.^

Heroes:

My mother for having a sweet and caring disposition even when she had the choice of being cold and jaded because of the hand she was delt. To my father for sticking through the hard times and making sure we had the best life we could have in our situations. My husband for showing me how to have faith when everything seemed lost for sticking with me when i was going through my tuff times and for willing to better himself for himself and me. For my cousin who is more like a sister and kindred spirit for overcoming what life threw at her to grasp on to a dream that most seldom find for being there in my toughest times and always staying true to herself for being an amazing mother and a tolerant wife and when i needed a shoulder to cry on and the one person i never felt i had to hide anything from I love you allR.I.P Mommy I know you are watching over me in heaven...I know especially when there is a sunset like the ones you painted all the time while i was growing up. You were a perfect mom and i will always love and respect you.

My Blog

What the hell is going on!

well i woke up this morning with lower abdominal pain again it feels like someone is squeezing my utuerus with a glove made of rusted nails and razorblades. I have to be honest im a little scared fuck...
Posted by Abstract Vista on Wed, 09 Apr 2008 02:36:00 PST

Informative messages

well seeing that i dont have a computer it is hard for me to keep up on this now but here is an update to let all the importaint people in my life know what is gonig on in my neck of the woods i just ...
Posted by Abstract Vista on Sun, 10 Feb 2008 07:52:00 PST

A lot has changed but has it?

well it has been a long road these past couple of months and people have come and gone what can i do about it absolutly nothing and thats what sux there are so many things that are out of my control b...
Posted by Abstract Vista on Thu, 06 Dec 2007 03:36:00 PST

I cant cope

well there are things more painful than physical pain...and i am feeling it all i dont know why i thought things were going to be ok i am so fucking stupid i deserve everything that i feel all this pa...
Posted by Abstract Vista on Sat, 13 Oct 2007 08:41:00 PST

Life is astrange strange place

well i am in ogden right now wondering why i am here it wasabig mistake to come and visit i feel like a stranger intruding on a life that i dont even know anymore. It is a strange thing to come and fa...
Posted by Abstract Vista on Fri, 12 Oct 2007 11:08:00 PST

A lot has happened...

Well it has been a little over six months since i left my old life to start all ovr again first fearful not thinking i could hack it on my own but with some hard work patience and faith i have my ssi ...
Posted by Abstract Vista on Sun, 07 Oct 2007 09:22:00 PST

no one will understand

what i am going through...they will make thier assumptions and they will have plenty of i told you so's butthey will not understandwhy this has happened or what it means or the love behind it all or t...
Posted by Abstract Vista on Mon, 09 Apr 2007 10:48:00 PST

Broken shattered but collected woman of Faith (EDIT)

Things need to be clarified I was a mess and information was not being passed between me and mike but a lot of emotion was flying. We are seperating for what looks like a very long time with divorse o...
Posted by Abstract Vista on Wed, 04 Apr 2007 01:38:00 PST

Diary of a house wife gone crazy

Where do i start it brings tears to my eyes i feel i have let everyone down especially myself oh how many time i wished to call my father to hear his voice to ask for help but i had too much pride how...
Posted by Abstract Vista on Thu, 22 Mar 2007 01:51:00 PST

REAL MEN!

Real Men- Tori Amos lyricsTake your mind back - I don't know when Sometime when it always seemed To be just us and them Girls that wore pink And boys that wore blue Boys that always grew up better men...
Posted by Abstract Vista on Fri, 09 Mar 2007 01:45:00 PST