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I_Will_Find_Happiness_Without_Her

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About Me

R.I.P. Russell "Zombie" JacksonMy name is Cori! I am a big fan of My Chemical Romance...hate me for saying it but I don't give a damn about what you think!! I'm a bitch...you can say it and I'll say thanks....I know I'm a bitch and I'm proud of it so don't forget it!! I love to party and hang out with my friends! I'm really a nice person once you get to know me and understand why I am the way I am. I love making new friends. I'm currently in a relationship..and i'm in love with my girlfriend!!! I'm Bisexual so get the fuck over it!!!! I really can't stand people who judge me by how I look...it really pisses me off!! I really don't see why people do that...you miss out on so many good friendships...look past the rumors and the looks and see the person for who they are on the inside!! I really am a nice person....just know that if you piss me off...I'm going to let you know about it sooner or later!! Most likely sooner rather than later!! My aunt has Brain Cancer and she's sick all the time....its hard watching her go through all this....she's the strongest person I know and its so hard watching her give up....its not like her....I love her and I'll miss her when she's gone. She's my Angel and its sad to see someone so special and wonderful get so sick and start giving up so easily...she will always be my light in the dark...CANCER SUCKS!!!! I wish is wasn't her who was dying...I wish it was me!!!


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What kind of wings does YOUR soul have?(anime pics!!)
You have mysterious wings.Not very many people understand you,as you have a very complex soul. You have some friends, but you trust very few of them.PLus you don't open up to very many people,and stay to yourself alot of the times.Your wings give off an artist side for you, even if you say that you dont have one. But you seem to have your own style to your things... A Quote: If people don't want me here, why did they have me?
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You are the angel of death. You are people's worst nightmare, but it's all a misunderstanding. People view death as bad, yet death is relief from suffering and who knows what's next? You tend to be quiet and not very expressive, giving you an aura of mystique and intrigue. You know much and have a wisdom beyond your years. You are powerful and can see things for what they really are. You have a good heart and are just following orders when you do your job. You are a true friend and very reliable. You rock!
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Your Deadly Sins
Envy: 100%
Gluttony: 100%
Greed: 100%
Lust: 100%
Pride: 100%
Sloth: 100%
Wrath: 100%
Chance You'll Go to Hell: 100%
You will die in a duel. How Sinful Are You? What color essence do you emit?
BLACK
You are black, black is dark, la la la. Sorry, you emit black. Obviously a bad thing, you harbor resent towards others. You are pessimistic and enjoy seeing others suffer. You use and manipulate people for your purposes. All these are bad things if you are doing them intentionally, but if not, then you should seek help with your issues. Maybe you've internalized things too much. Maybe you weren't hugged and/or spanked enough as a kid. You like being alone and may not necessarily fit into social crowds easily... making others feel very uncomfortable around you. This might be your own fault or you simply weren't taught properly how to interact "normally" with others. Your general quality of life may or may not be poor or you might just be on a "down time." Lay off the sleeping pills, crawl out of that dark lonely corner and smile some. Get a good friend and/or therapist and unlock some things.
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My Interests

Books, guys, music, etc.

I'd like to meet:

If I could I'd like to meet the guys of My Chemical Romance because they rock my socks!! They are also an inspiration to me, because they plan to stay true to themselves to the end!!!
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Music:

rock, emo, heavy metal, screamo, punk, stuff like that and lots of random stuff!

Movies:

to many to tell you about so we'll just leave it at that!
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Television:

the show "Mindfreak" with Criss Angel!!!
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Books:

paranormal romance, romance, fiction, and anything with vampires!!
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Heroes:

Gerard Way....he's accomplished so much and he's such an inspiration to so many people... ..START BZOINK.COM SURVEY CODE
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* Yourself *
Name:: Corissa
Age:: 18
Zodiac Sign:: Cancer
Chinese Zodiac:: Dragon
Hometown:: Kenosha, WI., United States
Height:: 5' 6" or 5' 7" (depends on which convience store i'm leaving)
Weight:: 206 lbs.
Eye Color:: Blue (changes to a different shade of blue depending on what kind of a mood i am in)
Hair Color:: Brown
Shoe Size:: 11 in womens, 10 in mens
Jeans Size:: depends on the brand
Blood Type:: O positive
Sibilings:: yes i have two
GPA:: don't know, don't care
Tattoos:: not yet but i'm getting one
Piercings:: standard ear piercings
Hobbies:: to many to tell you! if you really want to know ask me
* Favorite *
Food:: CHOCOLATE!!! (is that a food)
Movie:: anything with vampires in it
Band:: My Chemical Romance
Song:: Don’t have one at the moment...
Color:: (2) Black, Blood Red
TV Show:: Mindfreak (Criss Angel rockz my sockz)
Pizza Topping:: CHEESE!!!
Magazine:: AP (Alternative Press) Magazine
Subject in School:: Theater (yes it's a class in my school bitches)
Political Party:: Fuck the Government but if i had to choose one...DUH!! DEMOCRATS!!! (stupid Republicans)
Radio Station:: 95 WILL Rock
Actor:: Orlando Bloom
Actress:: Kate Beckinsale
Director:: P.J. (Peter Jackson)
Month:: February
Season:: Fall
Day:: any Friday the 13th
Holiday:: Halloween
Shampoo:: Suave Naturals
Soap:: any body wash (no bars)
Weather:: RAINY AS HELL!!!
Store:: Hot Topic
Flower:: Roses (Yellow ones)
Guy's Name:: Gerard
Girl's Name:: Amber
Board Game:: don't have one...
* Would * You * Ever *
Smoke?: yes
Do drugs?: Have but I quit
Starve yourself?: HELL NO!! (anyone who does this shit is a fucking moron!)
Cut/burn yourself?: HELL YES!! (why do you wanna watch you sikko?!)
Break the law?: yes
Run from the police?: no
Have a one night stand?: yes
Date someone from the opposite sex?: yes
Date someone from a different race?: maybe
Date something from a different species?: HELL NO!!
Love someone if you knew it wouldn't last forever?: yes
Betray your best friend for your significant other?: Depends on who that significant other is….
Hurt someone for your own personal gain?: yes
Have sex before marriage?: yes
Cry in public?: yes
Fake sick to get out of school?: yes
Get high/drunk at school?: yes
Say I love you without meaning it?: yes
Go trick or treating after the age of 18?: maybe
* Past *
At what age was your first...
Kiss?: 14
Love?: 14
Sexual Experience?: Like hell I’d never tell you!!
When did you first realize that...
Your parents aren't perfect?: before i was concieved
The world isn't fair?: before i was concieved
You are eventually going to have to live on your own?: before i was concieved
Boys are cute?: to hell if i know
Girls are cute?: to hell if i know
You want to do something for the rest of your life?: longer than five years ago
You're prettier than everyone says you are?: everyone can go fuck themselves i don't listen to them
* Future *
What do you want to be when you grow up?: an Actress
Where do you want to live?: anywhere that's not my parents house
How many kids will you have?: no one can plan this shit i may want two and i'll get like five
How much money will you make?: how ever much i get paid i guess
What kind of person will you marry?: someone who knows me more than most people
Will you be in contact with your parents?: maybe if i don't piss them off when i move out
Your sibilings?: More than likely not…
Your high school friends?: HELL YES!! (some of them at least)
Your high school sweetheart?: yes
Your college roommate?: don't have one yet so i don't know
Your best friend from 3rd grade?: yes
Your old teachers?: some of them (the really nice ones anyway)
Do you want to be?: yes i do
* Present *
what was the last...
Song you heard?: “Over You” by Daughtry
Thing you ate?: Ice cream from my freezer
Person you talked to face to face?: my dad
On the phone?: Amber
Thing you read?: The lyrics to “Over You” by Daughtry
Person you hugged?: Amber
Person you kissed on the cheek?: Amber
Person you kissed on the lips?: Amber
Person you had sex with?: My ex-boyfriend Jakobe
Person you slept in the same bed with?: Amber
Person you thanked?: i have no clue
* Friends *
Best friend:: (4) Amber, Kiki, Jessica, Jersi
Silliest:: Ino
Funniest:: Jersi
Cutest:: Kiki
Hottest:: Amber
Best guy friend:: Steve (Kitty)
Best gal pal:: Amber
Best listener:: Kat
Best party buddy:: Jessica
Best movie buddy:: (3) Amber, Barbara and Ashley
Most supportive:: Amber
Most understanding:: (2) Amber, Kiki
Best secret keeper:: Amber
Worst secret keeper:: Everybody else but Amber
Most religious:: Sara
Least religious:: good question...that would be most of my friends...wow that's a lot of people...
Most annoying:: Pat
Least annoying:: Steve (Kitty)
* Do * You * Believe * In *
God?: yes
Satan?: yes
Heaven?: yes
Hell?: yes
Love?: yes
Hope?: yes
Soul mates?: yes
Reincarnation?: yes
Luck?: yes
Yourself?: nope
* Love *
Who was your first kiss?: My dead ex-boyfriend Alan
How old were you?: 14
Who was your first post-puberty kiss?: My dead ex-boyfriend Alan
How old were you?: 14
Who was your first real significant other?: My dead ex-boyfriend Alan
How old were you?: 14
Who was your first love?: My dead ex-boyfriend Alan
How old were you?: 14
Who was your first sexual partner?: EVEN I DON'T WANNA KNOW THIS ONE!!!!!!
How old were you?: 17
Do you regret it?: HELL YES!!!! (WORST MISTAKE OF MY LIFE!!!!! YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE!!!)
Do you want to get married?: Not really…
Do you trust yourself to fall in love?: HELL NO!!!
Biggest turn on:: if you’re a frontman or woman in a band and you can sing really well
Biggest turn off:: sideburns
First thing noticed about the opposite sex:: their features like eye color and stuff
Most important quality in a significant other:: Honesty and trust
* One * Or * The * Other *
Pepsi/Coke:: Pepsi
Boxers/Briefs:: boxers
Underwear/Thong:: either one it don't matter...
Book/Movie:: both but prolly a book more...
Magazine/Newspaper:: Magazine
Rain/Sun:: Rain
Hot/Cold:: cold
Fall/Spring:: Fall
Summer/Winter:: Summer
Conservative/Republican:: Conservative
Eggs/Pancakes:: Pancakes
Letter/Email:: Email
Play/Movie:: both...i can't just chose one...
* Word * Association *
Bush:: Asshole
Cheney:: another Asshole
Politics:: fucked up
Taliban:: death to all
Love:: sex
Hate:: sex
Gay:: bent
School:: a reason to sleep
Drugs:: a reason to not give a fuck!!
Fox News:: what is Fox News??
CNN:: what is CNN??
Gay:: vote no to change the Wisconson Marriage ammendment
* Are * You *
Happy?: Not really…
Sad?: yes
Lonely?: what is this a counseling session??
Religious?: not all the time..
Surrounded?: not now
Dancing?: no
Singing?: yes
Violent?: yes
Messy?: yes
Smart?: not all the time
Sweet?: not all the time
Loyal?: yes
Artistic?: yes
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