I'm not happy with the world as it is, and I seek change. Of course I seek political change, however I can see that political change would be not only pointless, but totally irresponsible, and even horrific, without a prior cultural change. I seek to examine the depths and breadths of the required aspects of these changes, for the eventual goal of total autonomy.
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Politically, I don't know where I stand, and really I can hardly say I ever knew. I know that I am not right wing, and I know I am not left wing, so I guess that I am of a "third position," which is inevitable for anyone who is nihilistically willing to question any value they are confronted with. I consider myself a nihilist only insofar as it has allowed me to reconsider my entire life. Furthermore, while there is definitely value in developing and maintaining perspectives, it is always important to temper them with a little doubt. Unfortunately, as I do not feel that I totally understand everything there is to understand about human nature, I can not pretend to have a definite stance. It seems that I am more nihilistic than I think.
However, I can not deny the romantic qualities that play upon my psyche as well. These are the things that make life worth living. Understanding factual reality is important for survival's sake. However, for the survival of the soul, romance, which to me is a combination of creativity, beauty, magnitude and identity, is very important, and is not required to be factually accurate. Ideally, a poetic intercourse of romance and reality can be created. A life lived thus is my ultimate goal.
