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Surrealkiller

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About Me


I am a very passionate and intense individual. Everything that I do has a rhyme and reason, I rarely ever do anything just to do it. I am well travelled, I have been to a few other countries and many states in the U.S., travelling is a passion of mine. I favor tropical areas, I love the desert..the hotter, the better. I am very particular about what I like, I prefer luxury as well as functionality. I love water, I love to swim and I love aquariums. I love anything having to do with water. I love things that flow like water..long flowing clothing, lyrical sounds and art. I am ALL RAVE, I contribute to the cause and assist a few ravelicious companies at various times when needed. Memories and pictures are sacred to me, I have many an album. I am severely artistic...I dance, paint, play a few instruments and take photographs. I went to college for painting but I work in health insurance. I study diseases and medical conditions on my own. I am not very American in the way I live, I do NOT, if I can help it, consume any preservatives, fake sugars/additives of any kind. This makes my life a bit difficult because the food I do eat is sometimes hard to come by and very expensive, however, I think it's worth it because putting fake things into my body isn't. I am into the very exotic. I like to study and practice egyptian bellydance, I love Indian and Middle-Eastern foods, Greek and Turkish as well. I am dating my wonderful boyfriend, Nathan. We are very happy and plan to be together for a very long time, after losing our daughter in November of 2007...we are trying to focus on keeping our relationship strong and healthy. My little lady bean, we wish you were here with us. Nathan and I hope to get married and try to have a family again in the not to far off future, as we found out on NYE that I am pregnant again and having a boy in September of 2008! ahem, anyway.. I'm not really here to make friends, as I have WAY to many to keep track of. So I might not add you unless I know you. Sorry for the inconvenience

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My Interests

Love, faith, long relationships, commitment, children, anatomy, music, the underground, obscurity, feeling protected, light, theology, research, old medical equipment, old medical pratices, medicine, psychology, cognitive development, pre-natal development, pregnancy, suicide doors, luxury vehicles, pimped out PCs, pimped out classy cars, internet, technology, coding, animals, mean fishies (pirhanas), marriage, high class living, collecting art, selling art, photography, painting, drawing, working with local underground bands/rave companies, promotion, the feeling of arms around me, myself, my future, spirits, devotion, running my hands through hair, cuddling, movie nights, friends, closeness, loving, passion, peace, unique features, independant film, sexology, warehouse loft apartments, condos, mansions, traveling, flying in planes, cars, art galleries, the italian mafia, big pants, raving, strobe lights, unz unz unz!, heavy/dirty/deep bass, truth, reality, really seeing, knowledge, the past, how you see me, feelings, deepness, knowing, seeing how people really are, reading between the lines, the male mind, men, insanity, insane asylums, mental disorders, reading, life, living, glass things, interior decorating, strikingly colored eyes, colored contacts, swimming, tropical weather, in-gound swimming pools, indoor pools, security, stability, advancement, aspiration, urbanization, architecture, rolling, round things, lazers, blinky lights, altered states of mind, emotions, purity, determination, humor, dancing, bellydancing, meaty boys, DJ equipment, machines, watching a DJ spin, Parties that last into the morning, getting my badASS groove on on the dance floor.

I'd like to meet:

Most of all, my daughter Anniliese. Mommy and daddy miss our baby, she will always be our first bean. That aside, I want to meet People with passion that never dies. Those who are true to themselves and whom are always moving, always advancing. People who create and want to live, love and die with music, art and passion in their souls. I want to meet those who have spirit and who are interested in intelligent conversation. People who have their shit straight for the most part. People who like to fuckin' PARTY.

Softkey Left softkey Right

Music:

Industrial, EBM, Dance, Techno (and most of it's sub-categories), Trance (every kind), Breaks, House (every kind BUT disco), rap, Rap rock, Hip Hop, Nu Metal, Rock, 60's and 70's rock, 80's cock rock, Nu metal, Contemporary, Irish Folk, R&B, Middle Eastern & eurasian folk/traditional.VNV Nation, Wumpscut, Razed in Black, Tricky, Snoop Dogg, Eminem, Madonna, Hole, Marilyn Manson, La Bouche, Keith Mackenzie, Tolgar, Mercan Dede, Michael WenZ, Micheal J, DJ Zerocool, DJ Tiesto, DJ Lime, Danny the Wildchild, Thrasher, DJNR8, Steven Kaye, No Parimeter, Vial, Paul Oakenfold, BT, Paul Van Dyke, The Cranes, Billy Idol, Henry Rollins/Rollins band, The Smiths, Bone Thugs in Harmony, Cher, Jewel, Sade, Sting, Peter Gabriel, Phil Collins, KMFDM/MDFMK, Metallica, Sisqo, Trapt, Cold, Filter, Cold Play, Dope, Staind, Linkin Park, Life House, Skinny Puppy, Coil, Celine Dion, Rammstein, Radiohead, Mystical, Busta Rhymes, Prodigy, NIN, The Streets, The Postal Service, Kansas, 50 Cent, Prince, Madison Avenue, Daft Punk, Eifel 65, IIO, Deftones, Soul Fly, Enigma, Enya, The Cure, Duman, Depeche Mode, Switchblade Symphony, Assemblage 23, Front 242, Bjork, The Duhks, Skold, Eric Clapton, Tori Amos, Mor Ve Otesi, Apoptygma Berzerk, Lamb, If_Then_Else.

Movies:

The Notebook, Dancer In the Dark, The Eye, The Cell, The Others, Neverending Story (1&2), Session 9, The Dark Crystal, Poltergeist (1&3), American History X, 8MM, My Girl (1&2), Terminator 2, Fried Green Tomatos, Texas Chainsaw Massacre (Original), Silence of the Lambs (And sequels), The Stand, IT, The Ring (1&2), Phonebooth, The Man on the Train, Heaven, Not Without my Daughter, Swimming Pool, Contact, The Cube (sequels too), Lorenzo's Oil, The Sixth Sense, Kiss the Girls, Thirteen Ghosts, Glass House, From Hell, Momento, Run Lola Run, Sleepyhollow, Losing Isaiah, The Island, Legend (regular version), A series of Unfortunate Events, Amelie, Happenstance, many more.

Television:

I like to watch educational shows, true stories/biographical, medical, animal, humorous and emotional shows. Some I enjoy are: Dr. G Medical Examiner, Behind the Music (VH-1), Seventh Heaven, Baby baby, Simpsons, Shalom in the Home, Animal Planet, Biography, Jackass, Birth Day, The Travel Channel, The History Channel, The Discovery Channel and Discovery Health, Seinfeld, Super Nanny, The Twilight Zone (2nd edition), Oprah, Montel, Mythbusters, Dirty Jobs, PBS.

Books:

Books: A Walk Through the Wheatfields, Embracing the Light.Manuels: Touching Magazines: American Baby, Parenting, Psychology Today, Time, Spin.

Heroes:

Vincent Van Gogh, DJ's that make me move, people who are true, those I can really trust.

My Blog

Goodbye my Charlemagne...

So, today I lost one of my cats. Her name was Charlemagne and she was three years old. She was playing up on the window screen catching bugs when the screen suddenly fell off out of the tracks in the ...
Posted by Surrealkiller on Mon, 23 Jun 2008 04:22:00 PST

Motherly rudeness...

So today I went over to my grandparents house for the yearly fathers day cookout thingy they always have. I did try to locate my dad today since he hasn't been calling me back when I call and it's bee...
Posted by Surrealkiller on Mon, 16 Jun 2008 08:08:00 PST

New directions...and free money.

Yesterday in the middle of the day, I was quietly doing my work at my desk when my supervisor came and got me. In a somber tone, she said "Come with me hun". I followed her, my heart sinking, to one o...
Posted by Surrealkiller on Fri, 09 May 2008 05:28:00 PST

Recent happenings, feelings, etc...

Lately, I've been under extreme amounts of mental stress. Mostly because of money issues, someone owes me a great deal of money and it seems to be piling up instead of getting paid back. I can't ...
Posted by Surrealkiller on Fri, 02 May 2008 08:07:00 PST

Singled out, but still loved.

Today my supervisor Lucy decided to buy lunch for my main department (Repricing unit)...with the exception of me. The reason being is that the people getting the free lunch have volunteered ...
Posted by Surrealkiller on Fri, 21 Mar 2008 10:41:00 PST

Tagged by Jessie!

The Rules: Once you have been tagged, write a blog with ten strange/ random facts or habits about you. When you are done, pick ten people to be tagged. List their names and why you tagged them. Don't ...
Posted by Surrealkiller on Wed, 16 Jan 2008 08:02:00 PST

2007 year in review...

I have been thinking about last year and I have been noticing that in it I have only really focused on the negative and hardly even touched on the positive. I did quite a few wonderful things this pas...
Posted by Surrealkiller on Sun, 06 Jan 2008 01:44:00 PST

In search of something to hold on to....

Trying to sum up my thoughts here..I don't know why I'm sitting in the dark. I have candles going but it's still too dark for my eyes to adjust to see a damn thing besides this computer screen. I'm to...
Posted by Surrealkiller on Sat, 24 Nov 2007 01:53:00 PST

Lost my lady bean...

Nathan and I lost our baby early Friday morning. I know you are all wondering what happened, how, why...some of those I am wondering too.My feelings right now? I feel unbearably empty. Where there was...
Posted by Surrealkiller on Sun, 04 Nov 2007 06:18:00 PST

The Vanishing...

So recently I have been thinking of my old friend Courtney Thomm...she was my best friend from the ages of  7 - 10. Her and I lived down the street from each other and played together quite often...
Posted by Surrealkiller on Tue, 16 Oct 2007 02:23:00 PST