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∞ The Grand De-Spyzer ∞

Reality: the original Rorschach

About Me

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My word! My distinguished profile has been defaced by fun-loving caricatures, who dance away like fools, completely oblivious to my seriousness. Is there no place for an intellectual in this world? Can I have no peace of mind? Stop grooving, you little miscreants! You parasites! I'll have none of this! Stop it!

ubtly, words are changed, phrases rewritten, and old thoughts banished from reality. To the mindful reader, the change does occur, even when the old text's existence is erased completely, beyond proof and without a trace left behind. What have you noticed lately, gone except from your memory? Do others believe you when you remember something that isn't "true"?

All of my memories are false. They never happened, and yet there is an honest truth within the lies, because I actually believe them and I believe in them. For only a time or endlessly I may still believe them. Arranged for better organization within the mind, they take on the shape of antidotes with lessons to be learned and insight to be gained. Strung together with other events recollected, the story of my life, (a false and exaggerated one), takes shape. It is wrong and untrue, but closer to truth than your own perception of the events that may have taken place, for they include my emotional bias. If you're reading this right now, that's what your after. You want to know how I spin reality.

I change what's real and what has happened into, sometimes profound, sometimes silly, knowledge. I share what I feel at the moment of writing is of worth, and hopefully you see its worth. I'm more than willing to share if you are listening, reading, and commenting midfully. Notice when I rewrite history for that means a part of me has died and another has been born. Tell me when I'm wrong, and tell me when I'm right, before the last shreads of innocence within my soul die. Life kills them when they are not appreciated or when they are not shared. I know you feel them too.

The contents of this profile will not be proof-read, because otherwise I am not truly reflecting the moment honestly. They are imperfect. If I take longer than necessary to express my feelings, they may no longer be felt. The moment containing a belief that still exists or may have died five seconds later. There's more truth in that kind of lie. Tell me you believe my lies too so that together we can make them true. Tihis is the only way.

Disclaimer
I am picky. You may be denied access to my lies. Those who are not denied are people I respect or have a crush on. If you are requesting an add to promote your business, hobby, or special interest, please note even if I do accept that I will probably not read or view your profile very often if at all, thus making your advertising attempt useless. It is completely possible that I may be all for your cause or ideas but that you will still be denied. I am far more interested in individuals whom I already know or am genuinely interested in.

Also I may write something in french, because I'm trying to learn the language, (hopefully others afterwards), and it may be horrible and butchered. I'm always looking for people who can help me out too.


If you've managed to read this entire thing, I'll be scared. I haven't even read it all.


My Interests

Music, profound discussion, a craving for knowledge, sounds, intimacy, compassion/maturity, reciprocal love, soft whispers, tea, privacy, someone who can keep up...

I'd like to meet:

Well-wishers, Musicians, Estranged friends, Chums, Crazies, Ex-lovers, Word smiths, Childhood buddies, Non-procrastinators, Associates, Self-made scholars, Acquaintances, Soapbox preachers, Extroverted adventurers, Space cadets, Gentle souls, Gifted artists, Academics, The perpetually perplexed, Profound spiritualists, Fellow conspirators, Travelers of the mind and of the world, Lucid dreamers, Early risers, Night owls, Secret admirers, Regular people, Floozies, Causal pals, Those who eagerly impart special and private pieces of themselves to me, and other jerks.

Music:

I like at the very least a couple of songs by:
The Rapture, Tom Jones, Death From Above 1979, Broken Social Scene, SIANSpheric, Deep Purple, The Strokes, Beck, Tool, Estradasphere, Jethro Tull, Martin Denny, Pink Floyd, Björk, Muse, Frank Zappa, Pavement, The Mars Volta, Marilyn Manson, Radiohead, Massive Attack, The Unicorns, Echo and the Bunnymen, John Williams, Portishead, Fantômas, System of a Down, Raymond Scott, Mr Bungle, Secret Chefs 3, Modest Mouse, Blind Melon, Kamikaze Baby , Tapes 'n Tapes, Black Sabbath, The Talking Heads, Amon Tobin, Captain Beefheart, Primus, and others

I love music. Please play me some... ♥

Movies:

This scene has just begun and yet continues to unfold.

Television:

My wit can be dry. You may think I'm being pretentious by mistake.

Books:

Knowledge is power; power is dangerous. The more you think you know and won't challenge, the less open you'll be.

My Blog

go here...

http://www.myspace.com/paracidicmeme
Posted by ∞ The Grand De-Spyzer ∞ on Fri, 02 Nov 2007 11:15:00 PST

whhoooops

forgot to post anything here...paracidic meme has had some new songs for a while now... I just forgot to announce it here.Anyway, we'll soon have a few more big announcements.A....
Posted by ∞ The Grand De-Spyzer ∞ on Wed, 01 Aug 2007 11:55:00 PST

an ode to myspace

do people still use this thing? let me know...ps paracidic meme songs are on the myspace.
Posted by ∞ The Grand De-Spyzer ∞ on Sun, 15 Apr 2007 11:15:00 PST

hey there, four eyes...!

get yer face out of that book and find me on facebook!
Posted by ∞ The Grand De-Spyzer ∞ on Tue, 20 Mar 2007 02:03:00 PST

the mantras during the rite of the walk

as i watch this tree i'm approaching, i am being mindful.as i watch the drops of the melting ice, i am being mindful.as i feel each step of my walk, i am being mindful.as i feel the cool air on my fa...
Posted by ∞ The Grand De-Spyzer ∞ on Tue, 13 Mar 2007 06:12:00 PST

CLICK ME - upcoming show (public)

Hey so, paracidic meme will be a part of an acoustic night show at the Underground on March 1st, (a thursday).doors at 8, show at 9.here's a link to the headliners for that night's profile THE HOLYFIE...
Posted by ∞ The Grand De-Spyzer ∞ on Tue, 20 Feb 2007 05:22:00 PST

You only exist if I perceive you.


Posted by ∞ The Grand De-Spyzer ∞ on Thu, 01 Jun 2006 02:58:00 PST