~*~Riley Lynn~*~

Ok everyone hello my name is Riley..im going to honestly tell you ppl about me but first of all id like to appologize to everyone in my life that ive hurt..or upset in any way..im truly sorry to all of you.Now to tell u a little about my life. I grew up here in Illinois until i was 8 and after 8 yrs. of fights,and gettin hit by my dad everyday of my life. finally my dad left us..which is pretty normal if ur me..cuz ive been left by everyone.then we moved to austin and houston Texas..it was nice becuz i made lots of friends and actually grew up well for a little while until my mom met my step dad..who she is still with..and who also isnt the best person to be around..hes always drunk and has threatened to kill me numerous times..he hits me when i dont do everything he says..which i always try to thats usually all i ever do cook,clean, and work..and i get nothing in return..ABSOLUTLY FUCKING NOTHING! which has really affected my life becuz now i usually cant make my own choices..i let others do that for me..i tend to push ppl expecially guys away alot or cant stay with one for a period of time becuz i have trust issues and always assume they'll end up leaving me like the others..so i try to push them away before i get hurt for the millionth and one time...i really do love everyone i meet it just takes time for me to lets say..be me..so dont give up on me ppl..and im sorry for everything ive ever done..now to finish with my life story..haha..well after 6 more years in texas we moved back to illinois..where i met alot of great ppl..and found "the one"(or at least, who should have been the one).he and i were together for 2 1/2 years when he proposed and i said yes but i was only 16 turning 17 and he was 18 and going to iraq to war..we decided that we'd stay together through it all and make it work..and once i turned 18 we'd get married and id finish college and we'd start a family then..and live happilly ever after..well lets just say sometimes shit happens and ppl take away ur dreams or in my case...my life..he was shot and killed in iraq within his 5th month there..and if none of u know how it is..lets just say its like having ur whole heart, ur life, ur love. everything in side of u ripped out by someone you dont even know who didnt even give a shit wat they did..it fuckin hurts..my life has never been the same since..every relationship ive been in has been bad..theres only a few that i regret becuz most of them i learned from..and theres still a few i love and miss..well thats about 1/4 of my life soo ya im gonna stop before everyone reading this knows me better than my family..well i love you all with all my heart seriously..bye everyone, Riley Lynn xoxoIf you want to talk to me on yahoo my messy name is [email protected] the old one lilsexy_27 is not mine anymore delete it..thank you and goodbyeLayout made by infamous_chiq at CreateBlog.com . Get Your Own! | View Slideshow