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Fen (Threnody)

In a world of perpetual twilight, the only song I can sing is a dirge.

About Me

"This thing is like a wolf.
This thing is a wolf.
Thus it is a thing to be banished."
"We are not men disguised as mere dogs; we are wolves disguised as men."
Here's everything you need to know about me; My name is Fen, or Ray, either works though I prefer Fen, thanks. I'm not exactly a people person, but when you get to know me, I am a nice guy, I think. I'm loyal to a fault, and I'm always there for my friends, even when they don't really need me to be. I care too much sometimes, but that's how I am. I love deeply, I hate deeply, I'm not afraid to put myself out there even when it hurts to do so, as long as I can be alone to deal with the pain in my own way. Most of the time you can find me either helping Mike from Pauzed run sound at various locales around the metro (notably Dreamers) or spending time at a show with the intention of writing reviews. You might have read one of "Fen's Concert Reports" either on here, on SLAM or on one of the various band sites that feel the need to display my utter lack of talent. No, I'm not *in* a band (yet.. haha), but I do help out with whatever when I can, and I spend most of my free time around bandmembers. Support local music fuckers and we'll get along just fine.
I said I'm a nice guy, and that's true to a point, but I'm not really a nice person. I don't like most of humanity, because they annoy me. As a whole, mankind is pathetically worthless, scrambling to hold onto the most moronic things just because they think having a Beemer makes them better than everyone else. So if you don't want to add me as a friend, hey, that's cool. If you do want to, please bear in mind that the word FRIEND is the key here; I'm not looking for people that want greater numbers, or that have no intention of actually getting to know me with the goal of being a real friend. There are a small handful of people on here (outside of the group I knew before hand) that I consider real, true friends, and I care about them very much. If I don't tell them enough, I hope that they realize it.
By now I'm sure you think I'm an ass, and you're probably right. I can only do so much to show I'm interested in the things you're interested in, or that I care about the things you care about. I can only stay true to myself. I'm not emo, I'm not goth, I'm not "hardcore" (though I'm prolly harder than you've ever known), I'm not a label. I will warn you though, I am a bit obscene, pretty fucking cynical and sarcastic, wittier than shit, and utterly amusing. And yeah, I am a gamer, deal with it. If you think I'm not the kind of guy you'd like as a friend, that's your perogative, now go fuck yourself.
I had some words of wisdom (ie quotes) to help you understand me here before. Then I decided the only way you can understand me is to know me... And the only way you can know me is to put in that time & effort. You can decide if it'd be worth all that.

My Interests

AIM = SenseiFenris
Mail = [email protected]

    Battletech Bushido Enlightenment ESP Guitars Fighting Styles Fire Games Handy Cams Hate Hockey (Avs & local teams) Honor Iaijutsu Ink Kenjutsu Knowledge Lists Love Loyalty Music Night Pain Power Technology Warhammer Weaponry Yagyu Shinkage-ryu

I'd like to meet:

"Women will be the death of you someday."
"Right! I can't forget to include that in my plans for the ideal life."

Bands never listen. I get alot of requests from bands outside the metro that just suck. Still, I politely add them, unless they suck too bad for me to stand. On a brighter note, and to address the entire reason for this section, I'd like to meet people that I can hang out with, that won't annoy me after five minutes. Someone intelligent, and fanatic about music, and preferably with little or no inhibitions when it comes to doing entirely random bullshit for no real reason. And don't ever say "I hate when people judge/label/etc me" because you know you do the same. I judge everyone in a negative fashion until they prove me wrong. I'm rarely wrong. Very, very rarely. Once every million times or so. :)

And if I sent you a friend request lately, it was probably out of boredom... Heh.

If I gave you pretty enough words
Could you paint a picture of us that works
With emphasis on function rather than design
Aren't you tired?
'Cause i will carry you
On a broken back and blown out knees
I have been where you are for a while

Aren't you tired of being weak?
Such rage that you could scream
All the stars right out of the sky
And destroy the prettiest starry night
Every evening that I die

I am exhumed just a little less human and lot more bitter and cold
I am exhumed just a little less human and lot more bitter and cold
I am exhumed just a little less human and lot more bitter and cold
I am exhumed just a little less human...

After all these images of pain
Have cut right through you
I will kiss every scar and weep
You are not alone
Then I'll show you that place,
In my chest where my heart,
Still tries to beat;
It still tries to beat

Aren't you tired of being weak?
Such rage that you could scream
All the stars right out of the sky
And destroy the prettiest starry night
Every evening that I die

Live
Love
Burn
Die

Live
Love
Burn
Die

Live
Love
Burn
Die

Live
Love
Burn...
Die

Atreyu - Lipgloss & Black

Travis Miguel's guitar work in that song is amazing.. And really, it's beautiful in general... Yes, I like Atreyu, fuck, deal with it.

Music:

Including but not limited to;

    12 Stones 36 Crazyfists Anthrax Atreyu Black Flag Breaking Benjamin Cannibal Corpse Celldweller Chevelle The Clash Clockwise Coal Chamber Cold The Cure Deicide Dimmu Borgir Downshift Dropkick Murphys Emphatic Evanescence Everything on Sunday School The Forgotten Godsmack Gravity Kills Hatebreed Killswitch Engage Kittie KMFDM L7 Manson Misfits Nine Inch Nails Nonpoint No One Otep Oxymoron Pantera Pauzed A Perfect Circle Pillar Pink Floyd Powerman 5000 Rammstein Rollins Band Seether Sepultera Sex Pistols Shinedown Soil Spineshank Stabbing Westward Stalemate Static X Story of the Year Thousand Foot Krutch Thrice Tool Tupac Venaculus Veruca Salt Violent Femmes Wicked Me
Anything dark & moody, or fast & aggressive... I especially love female vocalists. Especially. And if they can play an instrument as well, mmm....

Top 5 Bands;
    1 - Stabbing Westward 2 - Killswitch Engage 3 - Fear Factory 4 - Rammstein 5 - Demon Hunter

Movies:

This is so gonna be an incomplete list, but I like doing the bullet thing and alphabetizing for my own sick and twisted amusement. I'm bored today, can't you tell?

    A Clockwork Orange American History X Anything with Jessica Alba Anything with Jet Li Army of Darkness Boondock Saints The Crow Enter the Dragon, or any other Bruce Lee movie Fearless Fight Club Gladiator Gone in 60 Seconds (The Nick Cage version) The Last Samurai The Punisher (newer version) Ran Rashomon Seven Samurai The Transporter Underworld Yojimbo, Last Man Standing (same movie really)
I love anime, gothy type flicks, anything with a high body count, wuxia and a comedy or two. I really have no sense of humor though haha. Seriously, comedies bore me when it becomes the same movie every time a new one comes out.

Television:

I don't watch much tv, except for at night, and even then only certain shows; NCIS, The Unit, Smallville, One Tree Hill, Supernatural, Heroes and anything that is sure to get cancelled after an episode. Other than that, I'll stick with DVDs and vid games.

Books:

    The Art of Japanese Sworsmanship - Nick Suino The Art of War - Sun Tzu The Bible - God? Book of Five Rings - Miyamoto Musashi, naturally. Bushido - Tsunetomo Yamamoto Gallic Wars - Caesar, hah so I can read Latin when I try... Hagakure - Tsunetomo Yamamoto Path Notes of an American Ninja Master - Glenn Morris, ignore some of his dogma, the rest is worth a read The Prince - Machiavelli Songs of Innocence and Songs of Experience - Blake The Will to Power, Beyond Good and Evil - Fredrich Nietzsche Tao Te Ching - Lao-tse Vom Krieg - von Clausewitz
I like fiction, history, RPG stuff, and anything else that can hold my attention.
"And the sea gave up the dead which were in it, and death and hell delivered up the dead which were in them, and they were judged every man according to their works." (Revelations 20:13)

Heroes:

"We tell the tales of heroes to remind ourselves that we too can be great."

    Miyamoto Musashi - Kenshinzo of Japan. Travis Miguel - My guitar idol. My mother - Because putting up with me had to have been tough. My father - Just because. James - If I could be more like him and less like me, my life would be so much easier. Bruce Wayne - Man is he cool. Heretics the world over.

Anyone with the courage to stand by their convictions.. Anyone who is willing to follow their heart despite the pain they'll have to endure. Anyone... Just anyone who isn't like the rest of humanity - not worthless and pathetic and a waste of good carbon molecules.

My Blog

Yes

I typed a really long blog about alot of stuff... Doesn't matter. It all boils down to this; I'm happy & Arielle is a big part of the reason why. The end.
Posted by Fen (Threnody) on Fri, 22 Jun 2007 02:23:00 PST

Entropy 1, Local Bands 0

Metal on the Mall was the death of several bands... Dead of Dawn - Their last show.Second Coming - Their last show, but they didn't play, so fuck 'em.Slave One - Their last show for the summer, at lea...
Posted by Fen (Threnody) on Tue, 19 Jun 2007 02:25:00 PST

A Son's Duty

I'm having a really bad day... Not just because of work.. You know those days, the ones where nothing feels like it is going right? Like... No matter how hard you try, you're running into the same bri...
Posted by Fen (Threnody) on Tue, 12 Jun 2007 02:22:00 PST

Why Last Night Sucked

Or "Um.. I'm going to Hell? Yeah!!" I'm OCD about organization, so let's make this a list;1) Show up two hours early, barely had time to shower, didn't shave & STILL had to park a block away. Wait...
Posted by Fen (Threnody) on Thu, 31 May 2007 02:16:00 PST

The Rest of the Weekend

I've been running myself ragged lately... Too many shows, too many long nights, too much time being all over the place. I have a three-day weekend (ah, paid holidays.. the saving grace of my shit job)...
Posted by Fen (Threnody) on Sat, 26 May 2007 09:04:00 PST

Wait... What?

Flyleaf this Friday.... Hellyeah next Wednesday... Going to Norfolk with Pauzed tonight... So why am I not bouncing all around? That's a good question.. I'm sure it has nothing to do with the fact tha...
Posted by Fen (Threnody) on Sat, 19 May 2007 08:42:00 PST

Fen's Concert Report 12 May 2k7

Why is it everytime you show up to a "battle of the metal bands" half the bands are light rock, half the bands are medium rock and half the bands should just go kill themselves? Sure, that's three hal...
Posted by Fen (Threnody) on Sun, 13 May 2007 12:20:00 PST

Fen's Concert Report 11 May 2k7

Yes... Oh yes... Oh yeeeeess!! It has been so long since I spouted off my opinions that it almost feels orgasmic to do so now. Dreamers bar is a great place to hang out & people watch, if that's ...
Posted by Fen (Threnody) on Sat, 12 May 2007 02:05:00 PST

The Dumbest Dumb Person I Know...

Friday night Stalemate finally won a battle of the bands... For the amount they've been in, they were bound to win one eventually... I was there before any other fan & as a group, we started drink...
Posted by Fen (Threnody) on Wed, 09 May 2007 08:29:00 PST

Just Random Shit...

This would be really chaotic if I didn't organize it... Part the first - What the fuck is up with all the damn shootings lately? Not just the big ones either... It seems like I can't turn on the tele ...
Posted by Fen (Threnody) on Sat, 28 Apr 2007 08:29:00 PST