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Caribbean Bank
My mind is an ocean of change
hope is perhaps bedrock
and a foundation for growth,
but I base everything
on the Universal Symbolism
of international currency.
Don't worry,
get rich.
Don't panic,
shop.
Don't succomb to moods,
gobble medications.
Until sitting seaside
one fine day
my mind exploded.
It rained change.
Peace of filthy lucre.
Curse of banker’s blood.
Cartouche
Stolen from her liquid prison
Touched in breathless wonder
That unfinished face her finest mask
Her finest cloak liquid weapons and vapors
Delightful and dapper like the puzzles of her eyes
I stopped before her edifice
and lapped at the puddles her tears cried.
History is my bitch and I am hers.
Robbed from my grave I became a man.
Stolen in the night I remember the child.
Unfinished before you I wasn’t enough.
That’s the last cruelty you’ll inflict.
Seductress from some lonely stone carver’s wet dream
I won’t let you rob me further.
Take it all! what isn’t finished by you
won’t be worth the remains.
CASTANEDA QUOTES
"You are a serious person," don Juan says to Carlos in The Teachings of
Don Juan, "but your seriousness is attached to what you do, not to what
goes on outside you. You dwell upon yourself too much... And that
produces a terrible fatigue."
“The basic difference between an ordinary man and a warrior is that a
warrior takes everything as a challenge while an ordinary man takes
everything either as a blessing or a curse”
“It is important to do what you don't know how to do. It is important
to see your skills as keeping you from learning what is deepest and
most mysterious. If you know how to focus, unfocus. If your
tendency is to make sense out of chaos, start chaos.”
“We either make ourselves miserable, or we make ourselves strong.
The amount of work is the same.”
“Any path is only a path, and there is no affront, to oneself or to others,
in dropping it if that is what your heart tells you”
The Great balance
A small fish complained to the Tao, while swimming in
worried circles, going nowhere:
I am a small fish, this big ocean is filled with things
that want to eat me. Why do you never favor the weak and small, over the great and large.
The Vast and only TaO replied:
I am the Great Ocean, in which you swim, and I support
you all the time you swim. But here you, instead of
exploring the length, breadth, depth, and height
of my expanse, are wasting your time pursuing
your own end.
Why are you afraid alone, when many of you small fish
May form a large and united school. Some predators
won’t be fooled, but numbers intimidate others.
The small fish brightened:
From then on he put his own end behind him, where it
belonged, and set out to explore and organize
with his kind over the entire ocean.
The lesson of this story is:
When you won’t love, or won’t let it out, it emerges
anyway in the form of self-destruction. The
alternative to self-love, in other words, is self-
destruction. Because you won’t take the risk of
loving yourself properly, you will be compelled
instead to destroy yourself. Take this lesson
where you may.
We sit in the belly of the beast
twirling the koan around like a key
fitting it in all our locked doors like a skeleton
and hoping it unlocks something.
But that koan isn't a key
it's a fragmentation grenade
that will kill both the pinpuller
and the beast that feeds upon you.
When you rise from the dead
after the explosion has left
the smoking crater of your mind
in ruins, all the doors will be open.
Then you'll walk around
looking for locks
because the winds blow cold
and the three jewels attract bandits.
Peace of mu.
Thy goddess Inanna directs the Phoenix
And does his bidding in return.
Everyday she slays this mighty ruler,
cruel Inanna,
And everyday she relights his mighty lamp,
forgiving Inanna,
Who bids him burn again over the World:
Giving warmth and extinguishing the light every night.
The Phoenix is her protector and guides
Her into sunrise and sunset
Where Inanna reflects his light
But directs him thus, his Yang to her subtle Yin
Receiving him yet preceding him in light to dark
Directing him, yet yielding to him in dark to light.
It will be a long night with her alone
For she rules the moon and sets phases
For all to see since the Phoenix is long quiet
Buried in Earth or Sea awaiting rebirth in Dawn
Whose misty clouds glow pink with her blush
Raising erections upon which the passion of the
universe is writ.
Peace of Venus.
When Dreams grow this accurate
I run to the hills screaming Blair Witch,
and immediately
CAST AN I CHING

Bear Call
Hey Bear...
Bear who isn't ever there
Bear with vicious fur
Bear with faraway stare
Hey bear, say bear
stay away bear.
Bear with yellow teeth
crying to the moon
for a pilgrim to eat
looking in hollow logs
settles for white grubs.
Bear with water ribbons
streaming from face, neck
and back turns looking
with a huge fish in mouth
Sees me and shakes his jaws.
Hey Bear, say Bear
stay away bear
I don't want that fish
but I've come for his brothers
enough to feed me.
Bear with green glass eyes
stuffed inside log cabin lodge
stands fourteen feet tall
with claws outstretched and
jaws flashing massive teeth.
That isn't you Bear
hiding behind pine groves
stuffing belly with berries
and hiding from fat tourists
who point their cameras like guns.
Hey Bear, say Bear
stay away bear
You've every right to fear me
because my fear of you
spells your doom.
Bear with broom colored fur
bear with more speed
than these two feet
bear with articulate mitts
that caress your cubs.
Stay away Bear
you invisible being
suddenly visible
we both just
want to disappear.
Peace Bear.