Writing,Hanging out with Harmony,Going on the computer,making the campground living hell,listening to music,partying,running out in the middle of the night to lay on the road and stair at the stars thinking about life, talking on the phone, reading, being crazy, caring to much about my friends, watching people skate, trying to skate and falling on my ass, doing anything and everything that's emo, screaming at my mom when she's a bitch, getting screamed at by my dad, hating school, hating life, loving gothic guys, loving emo guys, loving guys, always trying to make my self better for him, making all my friends crack up, hanging out with Shae (Skittlez) all school year, playing vollyball with Trina, Sitting in the bathroom writing with Taylor, talking to Maison on the phone, Writing notes to Vanessa all during SSR, Being hugged by Saige and talking about Twilight to her, drawing broken hearts, and bleeding roses, being hated by half the school, not giving a fuck what you think, helping my friends when they're down, cutting when I'm down, and always being in love with him
My Chemical Romance, AFI, Flyleaf, Taking Back Sunday, HIM, Avenged Sevenfold,Blue October, Eminem, Hawthorne Heights, He Is Legend, Rise Against, System Of A Down, The Killers, The Raconteurs, The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus, UnderOATH, 30 Seconds To Mars, Panic! At The Disco, Killswitch Engage, This is Hell, Everytime I Die, Saosin, Black Label Society, Fall Out Boy,
I SAID:
I miss Chris, I miss my life, my love. I miss it all, even when I'm with him. Because one day, I know we'll no longer be together. I know most of you get the wrong impression of him, because of my blogs, because of my tears, my pain. It's not like that. Me and him have our issues, everyone does. We always get through it,unlike half of you reading this. Our love makes 1,000 miles seem like nothing. Christian is one of the only people who I can talk to, the only person who makes me feel complete. While I was searching for myself, I found him. He led me to discover who I am, where I belong, what I want. Without him, I'd be just another number in this world. But at least now, I'm his number. I'm his angel, and he's my savior. You're hate and jealously will never change that. You'll never be able to change the smile on my face when I see him calling, the butterflies I get when he says my name, and the never-ending love I feel for him. I'm not going to tell you guys that we're engaged, how long we've been dating, cute things we've said to one another, memories, I'm not going to try and show you that we're better. Because I already know. I don't care about high school dating, I don't care about prom, I don't care about the distance, I don't care about the age...I just care about him. And you all better start getting used to that idea. It's not changing any time soon.
HE SAID:
“ Our love is beyond what people will ever give it credit for. However, I'm content with that. As long as you know what we have is beyond our hearts. This isn't a school relationship. Neither is it a teenage relation bound to end like everyother. I am not your boyfriend, you aren't my girlfriend. We aren't even a couple. I refuse to lable. Never have I been touched by such a miracle and have gone on to lable it anything less then what my heart can put into words. We both know what this is. And however it may be. I may tell the world I don't deserve you. I may tell the world I'm the luckiest man in existence for embracing you. I may tell the world that your real savior is out there waiting to come and steal you away, but untill that day comes, when I am force to give away what God has given to me as his gift. You belong to me. You beautiful Angel of mine. And I'll make sure this never ends for you. Because aslong as I am to breathe in this life, so will you're initials be incarved within my Heart. For aslong as our souls are. We belong together. Hand in hand. No matter what anyone believes of us â€