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everything's made to be broken

It's been awhile since I could say that I wasn't addicted

About Me

The Umbrella Representin My Shoulder As A Soldier Me We Can Make It Baby, Get Under These Laws I Abide By Identify Grey Clouds Don’t Stay Converse They Tryna Make Us Wazi Sour And If You Feel A Lil Drizzle You Wont Melt Suggest Just That You Buckle Your Seatbelt It’s A Tough Ride And When We Temporarily Park You Better Look Out Your Window Cus Them Haters Coming Down Outside And If They Touch You And They Gang Up It’s Gonn Thunder Cus If I Help You Then You Mess Up I’m Gon Wonder “What Happened To Him?” “What Happened To Me?” We He Aint Stand Under My Um-Ba-Ba-Rella And Where I’m From What Fall’s Down We Pick It Up Umbrella On The Floor Boy Ima Pick It Up Quicker Then The Stick Is Up Press Button Shoulder’z Up Over Us, Cover Us Boy You Rockin With The Best Its Ella Ellem Eh Em Eh Under My Um-Ba-Rella It is because I had so much joy that I came to have so much hate. It was my fault to begin with to think that your love was worth more than mine.. I still remember the world from the eyes of a child. Slowly those feelings were clouded by what I know now. Where has my heart gone, an uneven trade for the real world. Oh I, I want to go back to believing in everything and knowing nothing at all...I like going on walks ... I like holding hands. I like going to the beach, no matter what time it is. I like looking at the stars and I love hiking. Camping is one of my favorite things to do -- especially in the summer. I love falling asleep in the arms of someone who loves me ... and I love waking up in his arms as well. I like being kissed on the forehead and having my back rubbed. I love massages no matter who they're from. If you give me one, I will melt. Guaranteed. I like taking pictures of people when they least expect it; I don't like when people take pictures of me. I love laughing, I love being silly, I love when people aren't afraid to be silly sometimes. I love cartoons. I love scrapbooking -- no matter how geeky it is. I love to swim and play in the water and I love board games. I love to sing, even though I'm not very good at it. But if you ask me to sing for you, I probably won't. It has to be spontaneous. Music is important to me. I love snail mail ... I love cards. I love getting mail, but I like sending it even more.Even the simplest language is beautiful if phrased correctly. I don't like when people use "their" instead of "there" or "your" instead of "you're". Once in a while, a mistake is okay ... every time you use it is not.I have strong opinions ... I will share them, but only when I feel so inclined. Generally speaking, I think before I speak -- especially in large groups. But once you get to know me, I am an open book. Don't be put off by my apparent shyness ... because shy is the last thing to describe me accurately. I love when people open doors for me and pull out my chair for me ... but I usually forget and try to do it myself. I want to be respected -- I want my feelings to be respected and my thoughts to be respected I don't like when people run from their true feelings because it doesn't do anyone any good. I wear my heart on my sleeve, but I am not naive. I know what it feels like to be completely broken and I am all too familiar with what it means to be hurt. "I know what it's like to see something funny and not laugh." I've been taken advantage of, used, and abused. My feelings have been blatantly disregarded. But I still believe that all people are good at heart ... and my trust in people has not diminished. To be completely honest, I hope it never does. Ever. I'm not afraid to get dirty ... I enjoy being sweaty because I was working out. It's a good feeling. I don't like to walk, I'd rather run. But I love playing all kinds of sports, no matter how unskilled I am. My nails are not my top priority -- they never will be. I might paint them ... but once I do, the polish will stay on until it wears off, no matter how chipped it is.I love long showers and the feeling of my teeth after they have been brushed. I do not like the dentist or the doctor ... I'll probably gripe about going to both of them, no matter how necessary it might be. Needles are a phobia -- so are spiders.Buzzing is my least favorite sound and it can easily drive me insane. If there is a bee in the room, don't expect me to pay attention to anything else.I do not like being told things just to make me happy. I would rather be told the truth and be hurt than be "protected" and happy. I overreact sometimes. Don't be afraid to tell me I'm wrong or out of line. I like people who are strong enough to face me when I'm raging ... people who will let me be angry for a little while ... people who won't think less of me for my somewhat sporadic mood swings. When I'm hurt, I withdraw. I threaten to run away from the situation that is causing me pain. All I want is to be told honestly that I'm loved ... that I should stay ... sometimes I need to hear it multiple times. But if you'll be a little persistent, I'll give in. If I really love you, I might start picking fights over stupid things ... for no reason. It means I'm bored. That things have gotten monotonous. I love just going with the flow ... I don't always want things planned out. I'm indecisive -- there are too many things I would really like to do ... and I'm afraid you won't like what I choose. I am afraid of being lonely ... of having my heart broken ... of not being appreciated or wanted. Of people not knowing how much they mean to me. I'm afraid of drowning, of choking and of not understanding. I'm not afraid to be myself or of interacting with people who are different than me. I'm not afraid to admit that I'm wrong, but I will rarely admit it publicly. I like cold pizza and brand new sharpies. I love animals of all kinds. I'm a huge packrat. Laguna Beach is my favorite show ... Real World is #2. I love the smell of plastic pools and new cars ... I don't like the smell of wet dog or cheap dollar store perfume. I love tuna fish sandwiches with my friend maribel and soft serve ice cream. I love comfy clothes ... I love having my hair in a messy bun. I love being comfortable and I love being told that I'm beautiful, even if I'm in sweats and my hair is a mess.I love to work, it makes me feel productive and useful. It keeps me from being idle. I hate feeling useless. I love staying up late and I love sleeping though I will never sleep enough. Coloring is fun ... drawing is not. My dog is better than your dog -- I don't care if she's small.I love kids. I want 3 ... at least. I know it's a lot of work, you don't have to tell me. My two favorite animals are wolves and penguins. My favorite color is pink, so get use to it. I don't like math ... I'd rather do english. I love reading for hours on end ... especially outside on a sunny day. I love the sun ... I love being warm. However, I love playing in the rain and sitting outside when it's stormy. I like making snowmen and snow angels ... when i get the chance to actually be in snow.I support and appreciate people who can argue their point in an educated manner, who have a logical reason for things -- even if I don't agree. I don't like when people can't support themselves ... I don't like laziness. I'm trying to learn how to disagree without being disagreeable and I admire people who know how. I also admire people who can hula. I like mismatched decorations and sappy letters. I love to cuddle. I love being close. I love having friends and I love laughing with my friends -- especially during class. I pray often, bet you didn't know that ...I'd rather be cold than hot and I would rather eat chicken than beef. I don't like pork. I love waffles and toast. Halloween and Christmas are my two favorite holidays. I love birthdays and Thanksgiving because they bring people together. I admire integrity and honesty -- I love when people aren't "too tough" to forgive. I love best friends and old friends ... and I love when new friends become old friends. I love blankets -- even in the summer. I love fans ... even in the winter. Fresh air and natural light cure just about anything. I am a firm believer that everything happens for a purpose ... that it is up to us to discover that purpose ... and that more often than not, we won't understand ... even if we find an answer. Regardless, I believe that everything works out for the best. Always. I can't dance, but I love to do it.I like people who can make me laugh ... I love making people laugh. I don't blush easily, but if I do, it means something. I like people who make me think about things ... people who willingly put up with my absentmindedness and like it. Common sense has never been one of my strong points. I'm not afraid to laugh at myself ... nor am I afraid to laugh at other people. I have a hard time letting go and when I love, I love deeply. I'm sincere and genuine ... and I like people who are sincere and genuine. People who respect themselves, Boys who love their moms. I want to be adored ... and when I date a guy, I want him to be absolutely stoked about me. And I want it to be okay that I'm stoked about him. I don't want to be told that I'm loved ... I want to be shown. If a guy tries to pay for me, I'll pretend to be objective ... and I'll never expect it ... but I'll always appreciate it. If you give me the chills ... if I let you kiss me ... it always means something. I will never admit that I'm interested in you unless I know you are interested in me. If you hurt me, I'm going to talk to my friends about it ... I'm a relational person, that's what I do. If I'm angry, I will always tell you about it. I will try to work things out and if I have my way, we will work things about before going to bed. I believe strongly that you should not let the sun go down on your anger. I love giving flowers to boys and I'd rather pick a flower from my front yard and give it to you than buy expensive flowers. I'd rather have a homemade picnic in the park than go to a fancy restaurant. I'm not good at being fancy. I like homemade cookies and handcrafted gifts. I'd rather give you something sentimental than something practical ... but I'm not against practicality. If I'm shopping and something silly catches my eye and makes me think of you, chances are ... you'll be receiving it shortly thereafter. Silly gifts make life enjoyable. :) I love applesauce and apple juice.I would rather carry out the plans than create the plans. I love beginnings, but I know that endings have to come before beginnings can happen. Some of the most beautiful things in my life have ended ... but endings bring about strength and teach lessons that could never have been learned otherwise. And I can definitely appreciate that!As corny and Hallmark-y as this is going to sound, I am just finally understanding that when you chose to let peple into your life, you accept the bad and the good. I guess you've just got to deal with it, because you can't spend the rest of your life being isolated. Just remember that everyone, no matter who they are, manages to leave a mark on your life... They make you who you are. Thank them!
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The Keys to Your Heart
You are attracted to good manners and elegance.
In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.
You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.
You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance.
Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.
You think of marriage something you've always wanted... though you haven't really thought about it.
In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily. What Are The Keys To Your Heart? [bbzSpace Falling Objects]
How to make a Jaiden
Ingredients:
1 part anger
5 parts courage
5 parts beauty
Method:
Layer ingredientes in a shot glass. Top it off with a sprinkle of emotion and enjoy!
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Personality cocktail
From Go-Quiz.com Virgo
You are shy at first, and because of that, it is hard for you to find lots of random sex partners. You are very intelligent and very into sex. You will only have sex with clean people, because you are afraid of getting an STD. You are also very kinky and imaginative in the sack. Your partners always have a hard time keeping up with you. Sex matches: Taurus, Capricorn, Scorpio
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My Interests


Your Sexual Profile (you sexual deviant you...) by sparkledee
Name
Your Secret Kink Thing You like being spanked.
Your Sexual Strength Your hot-tub antics..
Your Sexual Weakness Your partner never orgasms.
Your Likely STD You're clean!
How Many Partners in Crime? 13

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Your love is... by ChibiMarronchan
Your name is...
Your kiss is... delicious
Your hugs are... friendly
Your eyes... sparkle like the stars
Your touch is... heart warming
Your smell is... exotic
Your smile is... entrancing
Your love is... everlasting

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I'd like to meet:

Angelina Jolie

Music:

System of a Down, Weezer, Nine Inch Nails, Green Day, The Offspring, The Vines,Staind, Jimmy Eat World,Garbage, Red Hot Chili Peppers,Metallica, The White Stripes, Stabbing Westward, Evanescence,Tool, Linkin Park,Korn, Gorillaz, Tenacious D, Utada Hikaru, The Killers, Switchfoot, My Chemical Romance,Raver Techno,Hoobastank,The Killers,Blink 182, Marilyn Manson, Gwen/No Doubt,All-American Rejects,Ciara, Finch, Nirvana,Black Eyed Peas, Death Cab for Cutie,Coheed and Cambria, Sublime, The Used,Fallout Boy,Taking Back Sunday,Incubus, Shakira,Rihana,The Pussycat Dolls,Dir En Grey,Pink,Blue October,Mariah carey,Cyndi Lauper,Fort Minor,Natasha Bedingfield,Dashboard Confessional,Avenged Sevenfold,She Wants revenge,Goo Goo Dolls, James Blunt, Train,Arrowsmith, Sean Paul..to many to keep writing

Movies:

Sweet November is my favorite, i love all kinds of movies. ..

Television:

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Heroes:

♥Loving the right person at the wrong time,having the wrong person when the time is rightand finding out you love someone right afterthat person walks out of your life...And sometimes, you think you're already over a person,but when you see them smile at you,you'll suddenly realize that you're just pretendingto be over them just to ease the pain of knowing thatthey will never be yours again...For some, they think that letting go is one wayof expressing how much they love that person...in my opinion, some are afraid to see the one they lovebeing held by someone else...Most relationships tend to fail not becausethe absence of love. Love is always present.It's just that one was being loved too much and theother was being loved too little...As we all know that the heart is the center of the bodybut it beats on the left. maybe that's the reasonwhy the heart is not always right...Most often we fall in love with the person we think we lovebut to only discover that for themwe are just for passing time, while the one who trulyloves us remains either a friend or a stranger...So here's a piece of advice;Let go when you're hurting too much.Give up when love isn't enough.And move on when things are not like before...It's certain... there is someone out thereWHO WILL LOVE YOU EVEN MORE...

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Feel Bad

At night when your alone in bed and happen to think about me           I hope you feel bad, for losing me.....
Posted by everything's made to be broken on Thu, 17 May 2007 10:28:00 PST

i just want you to love this broken girl you use everyday

I wish i could understand why sometimes you reject me the way you do When i want or need you, most of the time you push me away But when you want me, you have me, no matter what i say you take what yo...
Posted by everything's made to be broken on Mon, 05 Feb 2007 10:39:00 PST