Keep it steady you were never ready

I am in a house that i dont like very much! i mean my dad is great, i love him! but i hate the fightin! and i'm thinkin that Vancouver W.A. will do me sum good! well i sure hope so! i just got back in to school, and now have to try all over again in vancouver, but its ok! Now i dont live there yet but i will very soon! i'm hopin that when i am there i can get use to whats around me and fine a job! but school is a must cause i really need it! well this is all about whats new in life, well kind of!......................................................... ............................................................ ...........................................................W ell, i am a cat lover!! but i also just sit in my room all day and all night do just about nothing! theres not alot to do in idaho! i listen to music just like any other person, but i dont leave my room much! and when i do, i always feel like sumthing could be wrong, my room is safe, yes i know i'm a loser! yay cool, but my room is pretty cool! but i am gettin very sick of it now days! i feel as if i sleep my life away! and thats only cause i am not happy where i'm at in life! i want a start over, and i think i got it! i do smoke cigs, i dont smoke pot as much anymore! i will never buy it! thats dumb! but yes i do drink!...................................................... ............................................................ ........................................................... The person i want to become, is free and happy! and not to cry like everyday! i want sumone to want me as much as i want that person! to kiss and hold! and not have to care what people think! to look up at the stars for hours! to talk about anything and everything! i want to find a guy who has been thought as much as i have or even more! then i know they understand! but most of all to be happy! so i bet your think i'm pretty borin, right? well i also like to go camping and hikeing, dont do it much anymore but i love it, and always will! i like goin on long walks, but i hate bein cold! i'm not like any other girl, well i dont think so! but hey who knows!