Come Away Oh Human Child
To the Waters and the Wild
With a Fairy Hand in Hand
For the World's More Full of Weeping
Than You Can Understand.
I Believe In Honor Above All
If you dont have it
I cannot have you in my life
Words by me... Wish the image was as well.
ON LOVE...
OKAY, I'M SICK OF THIS SHIT!
Here is what I want...and not just for a damn month or so...I want it to last.
Honesty above all!
Communication!
She will take haven in the safety of my embrace.
She will fall asleep in my arms, never having the
need to move away.
I will be treasured.
I will be needed.
She will know how she feels and examine such
thoughts before telling me emotions that will
undoubtedly change!
Her mind will amaze me as mine will her.
I will learn from her.
She will learn from me.
She will heal my wounds and lift me higher
than I ever could have flown alone.
I will reach for HER dreams when her arms are not
long enough.
She will see and appreciate all the things I do
for her.
She will seek to do the little things for me.
My kiss will ignite her heart.
My passion will make her think of no other.
My eyes will pull her away to another world.
I will never be shut out again!
I will be necessary!
In all these things I pray, in all these
things I dream of one day finding
...but I know they can't.
Such things are only found in the fairy tale.
And believe me I have lived a few.
Women claim to want these things too.
But in the end they are just as likely as any
man to let their mind become saturated to the
beauty and magic of such things.
As with anything else, the brain seeks to
diminish its response to things it experiences
over and over...the newness of a car,
the excitement of a new movie, and sadly enough,
the magic and necessity of being in "his" arms.
I WILL NOT HAVE MY KISS GET OLD.
I WILL NOT HAVE MY EMBRACE BEGIN TO FEEL LIKE
ALL OTHER EMBRACES.
AND I WILL NOT HAVE A
WOMAN FALLING OUT OF LOVE WITH ME AFTER
BEING TREATED SO WONDERFULLY.
We are the only animal in nature that
can reprogram our brains.
We can master the mind in such a way as to
always keep the passion alive.
And never watch the fire dwindle down to ashes.
It can soar and dance high into the night
sky never to be extinguished.
Unfortunately most people are too damned
selfish or lazy to put forth such work.
May all the souls who fall prey to the
corrosive tendencies of emotional saturation be
cursed to feel it themselves.
"Love is passion, obsession, someone you can't
live without. Fall head over heels.
I say find someone you can love like crazy and
who'll love you the same way back.
And how do you find him?
Forget your head and listen to your heart.
I'm not hearing any heart.
Run the risk, if you get hurt, you'll come back.
Because, the truth is there is no sense living your
life without this. To make the journey and not
fall deeply in love - well, you haven't lived a life at
all. You have to try.
Because if you haven't tried, you haven't lived."
--Meet Joe Black
THE NAME...
Wes aka "Evil Wes" aka "The Barefoot Guy" aka "Mr. Big"...alive and on the air. I go by "Evil Wes", dont worry its more of a joke than anything. At my old job there were a few Wes' and since I was the one playing jokes and getting into mild trouble all the time, they named me Evil and the other one Good. Actually in the huntsville/madison area there are a bunch of us, good wes, evil wes, druggy wes, nashville wes, pimpin wes, and sexy wes. So i got stuck with that. Oh well. If a name keeps you away then not sure aboutcha --just kidding.
WHY HERE...
Most recently, I moved to Madison from Huntsville...Alabama urgh. I left everything behind except my parents. All my friends....all my places...GONE. I left to escape a very painful breakup, shitty friends, and to start my life over.
ON PEOPLE...
For most part, people seek so desperately to convince themselves that they are better a person than they actually are. They want to be good and honest and compassionate. But more often than not, all they do is claim to be these things --when its time to actualize them, we see what they are really made of.
After all, when you really look at it with open eyes, you realize that the way most people talk and act is a direct causal result of what they are afraid they're NOT. They are scared that all the things they want to be might alude them. That the only way to be what they want to be is to pretend to already be those things. They tell you what you want to hear so they look better. They claim to love and care for you, but this is only contingent upon how it makes them look to claim such things. In reality, they are so scared that they may be selfish that they convince themselves that they do care.....but when all is said and done this is only a facade created in the midst of self dillusion and hope of being something they are not...real....genuine....and inately capable of truly caring for someone.
To paraphrase "Meet Joe Black"...
"Love is all these things...but most importantly, never hurting the object of your love."
ON PAIN...
In the beginning it hurt so bad. Pacing back and forth. Crying in the midst of panic and anxiety attacks so severe they would bring me to my knees in a wailing sea of dread.
There is no way out of this abyss. There is nothing you or others can say or do to pull you from this ocean of tears. You cannot see an end to the misery.
But inevitably, and with no temporal rules, things slowly get better. Sometimes you can feel it, other times you just wake up one day and smile...
...For the first time in a long time.
I love seeing people smile and try to help all those that honestly try to keep a loving and kind heart.
I believe in compassion, but not allowance.
I believe you can forgive someone and love someone but not allow them to destroy the goodness in you.
"Forgiveness does not equal allowance."
and
"Forgiveness does not equal trust."
I believe in the fairy tale. I believe in romance.
I believe you can love one woman all your life and be the better for it.