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I need moe. kes!!!

Ill never get out of this Maze

About Me

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about me... i can be brutally honest about myself, like i spill everything out into the open so people know what they are getting involved with when they meet me... i have plenty of baggage, some i want to keep, some im trying desperatly to get rid of. i love to play games with people to sorta one-up them but i often lose. i love the thrill of the chase, whether im the one being chased or doing the chasing. I have a tendancy to get super philisophical and talk about the meaning of life... though most of the time im mostly content with cuddling and watching movies, or just hanging out with people and doing nothing siginificant... i have an intense desire to change the world we live in now and when i figure out how im going to do it, you'll know... i think that one day, im gunna go down in the history books... im supposed to be something important to the world...who knows...there's so much more to me than meets the eye... sit down over a cup of tea with me and find out, if your lucky, ill let you in
"Many people lack a spiritual belief system and fill that void with obsessions about celebrities. The celebrities are raised to the rank of gods, and these earthly gods will always fail the expectations the masses have set for them. The cycle runs thusly: adoration turns to obsession, obsession turns to disappointment, and from disappointment it is a just a short emotional jump to contempt." -- Donna Phillips
Remember your dreams and fight for them. You must know what you want from life. There is just one thing that makes your dream become impossible: the fear of failure. Never forget your Personal Legend. Never forget your dreams. Your silent heart will guide you. Be silent now. It is the possibility of a dream that makes life interesting. You can choose between being a victim of destiny or an adventurer who is fighting for something important. -- Paulo Coehlo
Everything had changed suddenly- the tone, the moral climate; you didn't know what to think, whom to listen to. As if all your life you had been led by the hand like a child and suddenly, you were on your own, you had to learn to walk by yourself. There was no one around, neither family nor people whose judgment you respected. At such a time you felt the need of committing yourself to something absolute- life or truth or beauty- of being ruled by it in place of the man-made rules that had been discarded. you need to surrender to some such ultimate purpose more fully, more unreservedly than you had ever done in the old, familiar, peaceful days, in the old life that was now abolished and gone for good~ Boris Pasternak Dr. Zhivago
Starvation is the creation of the devil, a rebel I'm bringin' food to the people like a widow bringin' flowers to a grave in the middle of the city isolation is a riddle to be surrounded by a million other people but to feel alone like a tree in a desert dried up like the skin of a lizard but full of colour like the spots of a leopard drum and bass pull me in like a shepherd scratch my itch like a needle on a record full of life like a man gone to Mecca sky high like an eagle up soaring I speak low but I'm like a lion roaring baritone like a Robeson recordin' I'm givin' thanks for bein' human every morning. Because the streets are alive with the sound of Boom Bap can I hear it once again Boom Bap tell your neighbour tell a friend every box gotta right to be bomin' because the streets are alive with the sound of Boom Bap can I hear it once again Boom Bap tell your neighbour tell a friend Every flower got a right to be boomin'
and all the freaky people make the beauty of the world ~Michael Franti- Stay Human
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My Interests

Im intrested in lots of things...lets start: im a bookworm, i love good movies and bad movies and movies in general, im addicted to music, i like learning... history majors have to do that stuff, so middle ages and renissiance crap, also the roman empire and greek world... umm... im gym addicted now too so going to the gym i guess is an interest... yea... and i like looking for the meaning of life yea..

I'd like to meet:

Someone who will like me even with all my baggage without rubbing it in my face that I have baggage. Someone who will sit on the train with me and listen to music while holding my hand, stealing a kiss every now and then. Someone who while with me, not a word needs to be spoken to break the silence because we can be that comfortable with each other. Someone who will see how amazing I am and get over their past to be with me. Someone who sees that they are in the presence of someone who is never just an ordinary girl. Someone who makes me weak in the knees with every kiss. One who knows how to make me feel better when Im feeling down on myself with a simple smile and a kiss, somebody who wants to hold me for 20 minutes straight and that's all they do. They don't pull away. They don't look at your face. They don't try to kiss you. All they do is wrap you up in their arms without an ounce of selfishness in it.
The dream life is nothing more than a flimsy gauze of pink spun candy that melts at the first signs of a little rain

What would you do for someone you love? Would you lie, cheat, steal? Break the law and call it justice? Would you say yes? Scream no? Would you kill? Would you give up your own life? Would you move mountains, swallow fire, keep a promise? Would you change the world? Would you change yourself? What would you do for someone you love? -- Jodi Picoult

"I want you to be happy. More than anything else I wanted to be the cause of happiness in you. But if I'm not, then I can't stand in the way, you see?"

there are some things I know for certain: always throw spilt salt over your left shoulder, keep rosemary by your garden gate, plant lavender for luck, and fall in love whenever you can.

Ive been down..for far too long..til my faith was nearly gone..I never knew somebody just like you..could be a friend I could call my own Til I let go of a broken heart..I let go to an open heart..I let go of my broken dreams..I let go to the mystery and I believe in the miracle..I believe in the spiritual..I believe in the one above..I believe in the one I love And take one step closer to you..I just take one step closer to you..Even when I've fallen down..My heart says follow through and I take one step closer to you

Music:

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recently, my music love has changed.... so mostly, everything you see in my top 24 is my current flavor....though i still hold true to my roots.... i still adore my boys of LiVE... then we bring on the jammy stuff.... aka MOE.!!!! yay!

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Movies:

now when it comes to movies, my favorites are usually those with some life altering perspectives that are made visible... or movies that make you think about your existence, make you want to change your life, become a better person... those are the movies that are truly worth watching

Television:

ive recently become obsessed with arrested development, meerkat manor, family guy, rescue me, so you think you can dance, americas next top model, gossip girl has gotten me entranced, and of course gilmore girls

Books:

i like my books like i like my movies... they need to have meaning to them... thats why tuesdays with morrie and perks of being a wallflower have so much impact on me,.... augusten burroughs also rules my world as does chuck palanhiuk!!

Heroes:

i dont know if i really have a hero... i mean... i admire a few people... my mother and my grandmother most... two amazing women who have had pretty hard lives... but we all have hard lives i guess

My Blog

redemption song

First off i hate being home alone.... and its a bad idea to watch scary movies but ive been wanting to see this movie for so long that i just couldnt resist despite my better judgement.... so i watche...
Posted by I need moe. kes!!! on Sun, 04 May 2008 10:28:00 PST

Procrastination, mental break and Jebus aka Jesus.... please note this blog will piss people of

As some of my readers know I am currently working/finishing my thesis project, the topic being Jews and the First Crusade. First off, i needed a mental break and i had a rant so here is where im takin...
Posted by I need moe. kes!!! on Fri, 11 Apr 2008 07:30:00 PST

im trying to find a witty topic name but its not coming.... yea

i figured i havent written a blog in a while now... since new years and i figured i should catch my readers up on my life.... however, not much has changed since the last time i wrote a blog... well i...
Posted by I need moe. kes!!! on Thu, 06 Mar 2008 03:17:00 PST

party party!!

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Posted by I need moe. kes!!! on Fri, 18 Jan 2008 01:06:00 PST

its gunna be a happy new year!! (this is my year review)

another year over....holy crap... it went by too fast....but im so glad its over and i can move on to the future which holds deeper, happier times.this year was definatly one of the most interesting y...
Posted by I need moe. kes!!! on Mon, 31 Dec 2007 11:09:00 PST

a blog.... i havent written in a while... i owe one

hey all... im alive... i guess... things have been pretty busy... definitly great though.... its getting cold.... scratch that, it IS cold out already.... and now the christmas lights are coming up......
Posted by I need moe. kes!!! on Tue, 27 Nov 2007 04:12:00 PST

an update on my life

im not really sure where to start today.... i guess things are pretty calm....thats the best way to put it i think... im calm.... its been unusually long since ive been so calm.... im secure in my sta...
Posted by I need moe. kes!!! on Tue, 06 Nov 2007 04:02:00 PST

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Posted by I need moe. kes!!! on Wed, 17 Oct 2007 07:55:00 PST

profound thoughts and thinking

its been a month since i wrote the last blog about my happiness and ive ben thinking about things since... then again im always thinking.... i keep going back to memories im not gunna lie... they are ...
Posted by I need moe. kes!!! on Tue, 02 Oct 2007 01:17:00 PST

how the fall changes everything

its been two weeks since my last blog and i figured its time to write a new one on how terribly happy i am! its not difficult to make me happy let me tell you.... but its rare for me to be this happy ...
Posted by I need moe. kes!!! on Fri, 07 Sep 2007 04:25:00 PST