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SARAH_Scandalous™ &lt;MSB&gt;

I am here for Dating and Friends

About Me

This Is The Way I Live.
You use these buttons to talk to me. Yes? Yes.
I'll show you how a heart breaks.
My hope dangles from a string, slow spinning redemption.
They say quitters never win, but I walked the plank on a sinking ship.
My defense is paper-thin.
I want to hate you half as much as I hate myself.
I want to live where soul meets body.
I'm just a painter, and I'm drawing a blank.
You call me a heartbreaker.
You're the only song I want to hear... a melody softly soaring through my atmosphere.
I'm just screaming into microphones for attention, cuz I'm just so bored.
I'm the new cancer.
I'm the new face of failure.
I'm addicted to the way I feel when I think of you.
I'll never apologize, so don't hold your breath.
I run my mouth off a bit too much, what can I say.
My soul brings tears to angelic eyes.
I'm not falling in love, I'm just falling apart
I kissed the lies - why must they be so kissable?
I'm just the girl all the boys want to dance with.
I found the cure to growing older, and you're the only place that feels like home.
I'm the first kid to write of hearts, lies, and friends.
I am sorry, my conscience called in sick again.
I've got arrogance down to a science.
I keep my jealousy close, cuz it's all mine.
So wear me like a locket around your throat- I'll weigh you down, I'll watch you choke.
I keep telling myself I'm not the desperate type.
I'm not going home alone, cuz I don't do too well on my own.
The ribbon on my wrist says, "Do not open before Christmas."
You only hold me up like this cuz you don't know who I really am.
I've been wallowing in my own confused and insecure delusions.
I wish I was as invisible as you make me feel .
Don't pretend you ever forgot about me.
I've been looking in the mirror for so long, that I've come to believe my soul's on the other side.
I tried to forget you... but without you, I feel nothing.
I've competely lost myself, and I don't mind.
I get frightened, just like you.
I am the end of everything you have ever known.
yeah, my name's Sarah.
i love the font garamond.
i have a permanent broken heart.
if you want to try and fix it, be my guest.
i cry at night sometimes.
i breathe music.
i write in a diary.
i ride horses.
stuffed animals are cute.
i write on myself.
making out is fun.
i play the guitar.
i say things even i don't understand.
i think dead trees are pretty.
i am a flirt
but i'm insecure too.
i'll make you smile.mmoonbeam7
xx SCREAMsarahI like all these things::

My Interests



Sobe, we're totally BFF!! Does my thing taste good? Dude, where's my skin?? Shut your face up! It is amazing how such a little guy could make so much noise. YOU'RE the lesbian! My mind is a vast oblivion of knowledge! Three-for-one assassin deal? I don't remember everything that I know! Don't Thum me! My legs only have sex with boy legs. Oooh, Sarah has a boyfriend! Did you just hear that? Don't worry, it was a pop burp. Cam-e-RON? VAHH-TI. I love it when you say that. Remind me to tell you why I hate my life. Hi, my name is Mikey and I am a boy. I'm Sarah's boyfriend, DRAYTON! He just has word tourette's. Soy sauce is like the saltiest piece of death. Have you ever been thirsty? How do you feel about dinner? Do you like ham? A smelly old stinker is Denise. MIAMI! Uncle Dan, Uncle Dan, Uncle Dan. Call my phone number; I lost my phone. Faygo... FUCK MT. DEW! Guts guts guts. The Tournament of the Streets! Franksoverhere. Blackhead Squidward. Ogee-beef? Muckypants. Haddixonthecross. Mugly! Junk boy [1 and 2] Early-Pearly. What's up wit it, vanilla face? Dan Comics.
Best friend much? Yeah, she is. Her name's Denise Marie and we have the same mind. Becuase we're from the same country... good ol' Great Britain [lol]. This girl has basically kept me alive over the years, and I don't know where I'd be without her. We can have a serious, deep conversation about my fucked-up family, then go be retards 5 minutes later. And she's just my non-biological sister. We say the same thing at the same time. And we bake the best cookies. And we love to go to the mall solely for the purpose of making fun of everyone we see. And we love to take pictures of her dad being angelic. And we like to try to drive her dad's car, but getting afraid and running away when it turns on. And being drunk on life. And reading Dan, Higpoop, Snappy Pickles, and Flabbybutt comics - the classics. We love going to Panera and yelling at the devil to be quiet and be ashamed when the employees let him out and then have to clean up all the blood. And seeing Porkchop, Tony, The Kettle Corn Guy, and all of our other friends we make at South Park Shops. And making fun of pretty much every single guy I've gone out with. And making up great nicknames for every guy we know. And making epic videos in my house about banshees, puck rockers, Dinkus, all that stuff. And naming all my horses "Horsey". And we have the best sleepovers. And don't hang out with us, because we basically talk in inside jokes... so you'll be on the outside. We live in our own little world... prolly cuz we're "autistic" :D And we love to watch "Drayton" say his own name... cuz he's my boyfriend DRAYTON lol. And our phone convos and library visits and mall trips and hanging out and screaming and pretty much almost every bit of our free time together is frickin awesome.
"It's better to be a dork than a jerk!" This lovely girl's name is Nicole, and she's my other best friend and member of the Man Hater's Club. I don't know what I'd do without her, because she's my ONLY riding buddy, and without her, I'd prolly go insane. We've done so much and been through so much, like horse shows, Marybeth drama [don't ask], wrangling sheep, walking through endless muddy pastures, hating men, watching me struggle with stubborn horses, screaming at midnight over Gaze, going to breakfast, making fun of Tard, chasing cars, singing in Arby's, going on trail raides, fantasizing about walk-trot-old-man, running from Ceasar when he decides to be a racehorse, traveling to the 8th dimension, more Marybeth drama... you get the point. She's been there to help me freak out and magically get a saddle off of Ceasar, help me up when I fell [again... and again... and again], rant about men and family and horses and Marybeth- just about everything. We always have so much fun together wherever we go, even when it's just at King's laughing at her crazy aunt or walking in circles for hours at Janoski's. We'll always be friends, horses or no horses. =]
This kid might just be my best guy friend ever . His name is Jesse , but I call him many, many different things. Lol. We're not weird, we just have ADD... and damn proud of it! I honestly never thought that me and him could become such good friends, especially over myspace, but look at us now... internet besties haha! And *eventually* he's moving to PA.... which means that I'll be able to see my Jessekins ALL THE TIME, which also means that the world will probably die that day.Because we will most likely make the world implode haha. I love him, he is honestly everything and more I could ask for in a friend, and the world needs more people like him. Best friends for life =] This horse. I'm not sure where to begin to tell you all about him... he's wonderful. His name is and I'm in love with him. From the very first day I ever met him, I knew that me and him would make a stunning pair... and we did. We are a stunning pair. It was like starting a relationship with a new boyfriend, seriously... I'd spend a little bit of time with him each day, and spend more and more time, do more and more things with him... until all I wanted to do was be around him. I still remember the first time I ever said "I love you" to him... I was standing with him after a good lesson, petting him, talking to him... and I said it. Without thinking, it just came out because it was how I felt. After I said it, I literally ran away from him. I was afraid of what might happen now that I had upped the level on our relationship, that I jinxed it and tomorrow I'd get on him and he'd buck me off lol. Like I said before... it's like having a boyfriend, that same sort of emotional attachement. Now, him and I are inseperable... we sit together, lay together, eat together, ride together... every last second I have, I try to be with him. He never ceases to amaze me. Twenty-four years old, and he still flys like the wind. When I'm on his back, it's a feeling that I can't even begin to explain... like we're one. Free. Just me and him and the saddle between us and the wind in our hair. Amd the fact that he trusts me that much is amazing... he's blind, by the way. This horse has done everything... from showing nationally, to being in a high school musical, to being a blind carriage horse, to laying in the shade with me on a hot summer day, with his head in my lap sharing sugar cookies with me. He's taught me so much about not only riding, but myself... he taught me how to be confident, how to take risks, how not to let obstacles get in your way, to always push for more. Every hour, every minute, every last second riding that horse is a gift, a blessing. Moving in sync with him, as one being, focused on the same goal, one circle of energy and power... it's like an epiphany of sorts. Even when he's gone, he'll always be chasing the wind with me in my heart.
People I can't live without::
So, other than all my other friends, I enjoy::
- living - breathing - laughing - being real - dancing - singing - scaring people - love - faith - truth - common sense - horses... like Almadina - music - confusion - turning up the music so loud you can't hear yourself scream - indecision - concerts - Ville Valo - forests - lakes - long hugs - roses - nicknames - crying in the middle of the night - eating a whole box of Oreos - screaming - BRC - memories - open fields - sunsets - dancing - talking in song lyrics - AIM - sex - Bam Margera the person - makeup - Bam Margera my guitar - DJ Ashba - rainy days - letting go of the past - ♥ - talking on the phone 'til 3 in the morning - taking pictures [AESTHETICALLY PLEASING] - being myself, pretty much.

I'd like to meet:

I'd like to meet...

someone as weird as me :DI would like to meet all of these people as well::
Robin Williams ... for being my inspiration and hero.
DJ Ashba ... for being my musical inspiration and always making me strive for more.
Davey Havok ... for showing me what beautiful lyrics and stunning music can do for the world.Comment me... you know you want to *wink* beauty is nothing more than a tarnished sense of elegance; a warped dream of a lie.

Music:


AFI.
Fall Out Boy. Korn.
Disturbed.
Manson.
Flight of the Conchords.
Slipknot.
J-Star.
Queens Of The Stone Age.
Red Hot Chili Peppers.
Geoffrey Paris. Panic! At The Disco.
Augustana.
Plain White T's.
Cradle Of Filth.
Bubblegum Octopus.
Celldweller.
A Black Rose Burial.
So basically anything, especially electro / grindcore stuff.

Movies:

anything with Will Ferrel.
Talledega Nights.
Cal Norton, Jr.:: "I wet my bed until I was nineteen. There's no shame in that."Dead Poet's Society.
John Keating:: "I was the equivalent of a 98 pound weakling! I would go to the beach and people would kick copies of Byron in my face!"Harry Potter... all of them.
Professor Snape:: "Know what it is?
Harry:: "Bubble juice, sir?" LOTR... all of them.
Gollum:: "Stupid, fat hobbit."Elf.
Buddy:: "...and guess what? I love you, I love you, I LOVE YOU!!"Stranger Than Fiction.
Harold Crick:: "This may sound like gibberish to you, but I think I'm in a tragedy."The Grudge 1 and 2.
Kayako's Mother:: "It will never stop it will grow. it will hurt anyone it touches."The Ring 1 and 2.
Samara Morgan:: "Here we go, the world is spinning. When it stops, it's just beginning. Sun comes up, we laugh and we cry. Sun goes down, and then we all die."School Of Rock.
Dewey:: "Would you tell Picasso to sell his guitars?"POTC.
Jack Sparrow:: "But why's the rum gone?"Jackass.
Ryan Dunn:: "I'm Ryan Dunn, and I'm about to get the shit kicked out of me by a girl."Haggard.
Glauren:: "Hellboy fucking fingered me."Shrek 1 and 2 [lol].
Donkey:: "And then one time I ate some rotten berries. Man, there were some strong gases seepin' outta my butt that day!"Ice Age.
Sid:: "Awww, the big, bad Tigey-Wigey gets left behind. Poor Tigey-Wigey."Edward Scissorhands. Edward:: "And then she took me to the back where she sat me down and took all her clothes off."Benny & Joon.
Benny:: "You can't bet a human being!"

Television:

I really don't watch much TV anymore, but... Viva La Bam [all time favorite]
Gossip Girl
America's Next Top Model
Will & Grace
Jackass
Next!
The Simpsons
Family Guy
Fraiser
Two and a Half Men

Books:

anything by Clive Barker.
Twilight by Stephanie Meyers. I read constantly. Give me a suggestion, and I'll most likely read it. =]

Heroes:

Someone that can prove to me that love means anything anymore.

My Blog

so how about poetry is my life.

an infidelity--this fragile dream of minea timid, porcelain figurinethat you once gently heldhas slipped from your fingersand shattered.i've been fooled againswept up in midnightand masked in toxic wo...
Posted by SARAH_Scandalous™ [[MSB]] on Fri, 07 Dec 2007 08:37:00 PST

so how about poetry.

european daydreamslet's play a game of tagbut with our eyeslet's play hide and seekwith our feelingslet's let the tension build and build and growuntil it all explodes in onehotsweatyfireyburningwetin...
Posted by SARAH_Scandalous™ [[MSB]] on Thu, 29 Nov 2007 01:51:00 PST

how about some more poetry.

addictim dying for hot breathclinging, flingingmyself at youhands meet hipslips meet lipson your hoodin the darkwhere no one can see[your dirty secrets]and the rain [wont wash us clean]   prism o...
Posted by SARAH_Scandalous™ [[MSB]] on Thu, 22 Nov 2007 12:07:00 PST

so how about im thankful for...

hey, bitches. it's that time of the year again... turkey day. good old thxgiving. i think that  ppl lose sight of what thxgiving really means. youre giving thanks for the things youre thankful fo...
Posted by SARAH_Scandalous™ [[MSB]] on Tue, 20 Nov 2007 07:41:00 PST

how about poems to describe my life now.

this is what happens when youre bored in chem class and falling in ? im quite aware im irrationalimpracticalnaive & starstruckbut when i look into your eyesthe part of me that still humancant hel...
Posted by SARAH_Scandalous™ [[MSB]] on Wed, 14 Nov 2007 08:04:00 PST

so how about random poem and if you call me an emo bitch ill fucking cut you.

so delicously excitingmy temperature is climbingits nothing, im sinkingperfection in my eyesis racing through my mindif only i could catch him.a shared smile, laughter, a looki bet he can read my face...
Posted by SARAH_Scandalous™ [[MSB]] on Thu, 20 Sep 2007 10:26:00 PST

how about i need these words just to get by.

Hey, hoebaggs.Finally found the patientce/drive to write one of these, hah.   So, in a nutshell, I'm a wreck.I feel like I can't do anything right.I feel fat and nasty and yeah... don't really fe...
Posted by SARAH_Scandalous™ [[MSB]] on Wed, 06 Jun 2007 07:45:00 PST

how about i stole this from mike. :D

Yeah, sorry, Mike.The idea that you stole from your friend was just too good to pass up for a crazy blogger girl like me, lol. So, here I go.These are the highlights of my year. ^_^   1. showing ...
Posted by SARAH_Scandalous™ [[MSB]] on Sat, 02 Jun 2007 06:40:00 PST

how about FUCK YOU.

i stand in the crowdand stare up at youtaken aback, you're the starwashed away, so washed awaymy heart beats in time to your musicsouls are made oneit must be some sort of magic fate is a mysterious ...
Posted by SARAH_Scandalous™ [[MSB]] on Thu, 24 May 2007 09:07:00 PST

how about WOAHH crazy life!!

Hey bitches. :DIt's been a while, for real.I have sooo much to say lol.So, first things first... list!!Mmm, organization.   - me and Brian = FRIENDS AGAIN!- Cameron...?- Billy *swoon*- family :P-...
Posted by SARAH_Scandalous™ [[MSB]] on Sat, 19 May 2007 08:14:00 PST