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Ab-errant

Get out of bed an let's have a little fun, shall we?

About Me

Volatile. Stares into space like a dead china doll. Thinks a lot about nothing in particular. Bitches regularly about the inadequacies of her surroundings. Critiques regularly those inadequacies of her own. Dances about in ecstasy. Falls down in a heap of messy hair, exhaustion and tears. Feels too much for comfort. Says many smart things. Says many stupid, unthoughtout things. Loves people as much as she despises them. Trusts few. Doesn't know what the box is she's supposed to be thinking outside of. Maybe she thinks in it and through it and all around it and on top of it and thinks it's a big jungle gym for her eternal youthful amusement..orangetext15, strong, .lightbluetext8, .whitetext12, .nametext, .btext, .redtext, .redbtext{ color:rgb(26,42,37); font-size:16pt; font-weight:bold; font-style:normal; text-decoration:none; text-transform:capitalize; font-family:monospace,sans-serif;

My Interests

I'm way into my store right now. I am into entrepreneurship in general. I like ideas. I like being a smarty-pants when I can be. I love learning. I like thinking probably more than anything in the world. I sit and stare off and wonder. I enjoy reading, watching movies, meeting people and having experiences that make me rethink the things I've taken for granted. I'm interested in excellence and quality. I like cooking decadently and eating that way as often as I can. I like finding new places of interest: a thriftstore to which I've never been, a new hangout, an old alley I'd never noticed. I like water; I like swimming in it, looking at it and seeing how long I can hold my breath under it. I like sensual pleasures like stolen kisses, chocolate dipped in rich coffee, cold water on hot finger tips, wind on bare skin, a buzz from a sweet cigarette, or the burn of a sunrise in your eyes after a sleepless night. I like music, both listening to it and making it. I like the sounds and sensations of big cities. I love adventure and a little harmless mischief. I love being lazy and I love being inspired. I love the feeling of loving something. I'm interested in the prospect of my life and its future.

I'd like to meet:

I like imaginative people: daydreamers, visionaries, innnovators, philosophers, creators. I like people who question themselves and value self-improvement. I like people who are intelligent and who've put in the effort to learn about what interests them. But above all, I enjoy people who make me laugh, who can be themselves around me, and whom I never stop learning from and about.

Music:

the kinds that tap the heart beat. I'm really into indie rock, hip-hop, trip-hop, ambient electronic, some blues/jazz & misc.- Portishead, Lamb, Mazzy Star, bjork, pavement, pj harvey, massive attack, jeff buckley, radiohead, sonic youth, Sigur Ros, Cat Power, Blonde redhead, Beck.

Movies:

I like Jean-Pierre Jeunet, David Lynch and Wes Anderson flicks, and many misc. others. I like movies ranging from indie(mostly) to mainstream, foreign to totally and predictably American. I like movies with themes of honor, courage, unhindered human will. I like movies with eccentric characters, bizarre twists of plot, gorgeous or ground-breaking cinematography. I just really love films. I mean really.City of God, Eternal Sunshine, Amelie, being john malkovich, eraser head, rushmore...I can never remember all of those other really good, weird ones off the top of my head.

Television:

Get it out of my sight, that insidious whore of an addictive contraption. Nah, I actually do kinda like some of it. I still get into arrested development, and I often find myself getting way into the history channel.

Books:

The Stranger, The Fountainhead and most other books by Ayn Rand, Haruki Murakami, Vonnegut, Bukowski, Camus, Sarte..

Heroes:

Howard Roark, Joan of Arc, Jesus Christ

My Blog

fearless, real

she runs. she's afraid of everything she thinks. she doesn't understand why trust isn't inherent...she feels... she feels so big.... too big... alwaysit'll be the death of her. she wants bigger, she w...
Posted by Ab-errant on Fri, 30 Mar 2007 10:21:00 PST

In drunken, angry delinquency comes genius

Thank you, dear God! It's happened again. I've written a song. I just needed that so badly. I was having a nervous breakdown. I got drunk in the afternoon, and I wasn't really sure what the outcome o...
Posted by Ab-errant on Tue, 27 Mar 2007 06:27:00 PST

Turning water into self-esteem

Do you ever have those moments when you're looking in the mirror and you can't decide: ugly or pretty? Am I ugly, or pretty? And you keep asking yourself, "ugly or pretty," until some weird transcende...
Posted by Ab-errant on Sun, 25 Mar 2007 11:19:00 PST

detour

Well, I think I've decided to take a little detour on my route to superstardom, aka LA. There's a sweet lil city called Olympia in the beautiful state of Washington, and this little city is beckoning ...
Posted by Ab-errant on Thu, 22 Mar 2007 09:26:00 PST

Feminism, Megalomania & the Quest for Super-Student Status

Lately I feel like being super-student by taking on independent studies to pursue whatever the hell I want to learn. It doesn't mean I actually get any more done than the next student who simply feels...
Posted by Ab-errant on Mon, 19 Mar 2007 12:18:00 PST

poverty weightloss plan

I'm hungry, like can't nobody fix it, hungry. Yes, I regularly go without food in the last coupla weeks. I'm finally succumbing gracefully to the pangs of poverty. I make some money, but never enough ...
Posted by Ab-errant on Mon, 19 Mar 2007 11:21:00 PST

The necessary Act

It's decided. I'm going to return to my roots in LA and I'm going to become an actress. It is the one thing I've been running from my whole life that I should have been running toward. I'm an actress....
Posted by Ab-errant on Wed, 20 Dec 2006 02:01:00 PST

This is my life

Tonight I feel a pressing need to cry. I'd sincerely like to, but sincerely can't. I used to cry with abandon. I used to feel I had a lot to cry about. Now, try as I might, I can't bring myself to fee...
Posted by Ab-errant on Tue, 05 Dec 2006 09:43:00 PST

Muse grabs me, I grab back.

So, my main man Holt and I are finally practicing la musica, and we're actually getting there to that place where coherent, cohesive songs come out. I'm thrilled. I had my initial breakthrough of cre...
Posted by Ab-errant on Sun, 19 Nov 2006 09:51:00 PST

Thank you for making me dance

I forget sometimes how something as simple as dancing to some good tunes can take all of your thoughts, cares, and worries away.I was lit up tonight. I needed that. Thank you for making me dance....
Posted by Ab-errant on Sun, 12 Nov 2006 12:53:00 PST