About Me

I dislike confinement, I truely do. But how do we think outside the box when we live our lives in blocks? Think about it, square houses, square computors, square iPods, Square(ish) cars, cubicles, how can we think creatively when we live in a world deviod of creativity? Everything in my life is organized Chaos. I love hot pink, I hate people who are ignorant. I have awesome friends and refuse to believe that mankind as a whole sucks even if evidence is contrary to my theory. I still hope that there are genuinely good and wonderful people in this world. I will find them someday. I do find them everyday. I seem optimistic, but I'm more of blindly hopeful with undercurrents of a jaded sarcastic. I feel my life is a walking contradiction. I have no fear, yet I do fear that I'm afraid constantly. I don't care what people think, but I second guess myself constantly. I guess I can't really describe myself. Especially in this small box, nor will I try to express everything I am. I do love taking care of people. I make some great cookies. HAHA. I freely admit, with all I've learned, I still know nothing. My favorite line is from a guy who passed away who told me once, "when you're gone, who will pick up the pieces" I wonder, if I died, would you notice? Probably not, but those who will notice are the only people that mattered to me anyway.

You don't know me, so don't hate me. If you hate me, delete me.

My Interests

♥snowboarding♥
♥music♥
♥dancing♥
♥shows♥
♥friends♥
♥writing♥
♥makeup♥
♥fashion design♥
♥doing hair♥
♥being unique♥

Featured Place: Johnny's Saloon, Huntington Beach, CA
Featured Band: Elseworth.

It's dim, the slow pulse of the drums begin and the music washes over you. Touching your soul, you no longer are conscious of anything around you as you let the melodies make your spirit take flight. In your mind, everything becomes peaceful and you are no longer aware of your surrounding as you become engrossed in the moment. The music builds and changes, crescendos and echoes throughout every fiber of your being.

"I know we're not metal, but it's ok," Dean EDWARDS. Like the Phoenix in Greek mythology, Elseworth has been reborn. Not just new music and new stylings, but a new fire and passion. Elseworth: the new anti-drug. Their music is such ecstasy it will leave you in euphoria for hours after the show.

It almost feels like heaven. Rock and roll heaven, that is. To find a band so enthused with what they do is rare. In a generation of rock star wannabe's just trying to "make it big," Elseworth stands alone as "your neighborhood friendly rock and roll band." During any show you'll see the same faces, people who have come together closer than family. Everyone is a part of this band and fuels Elseworth's energy, and Elseworth gives everything back to them in sheer musical bliss.

Inspired music, not another generic band, but truly unique. For quite some time they have lay in wait. Hidden in the shadows like a tiger waiting for their opportunity to pounce. Their time is now. For so long, they've kept themselves under the radar, simmering. With the final ingredients in the mix, they're about to boil over.

Humbly, with humility and grace unknown to the music world they will ascend the throne of rock and roll royalty. Don't blink, for in an instant, this band will go from being another independent band to overnight success with staying power to match. Elseworth is here, and this is their time to glow like sunshine.

I'd like to meet:

EVERYONE....especially guys who sing to me and girls who are down to party!!!!!!!!

Please take a second to check out everyone in my top 12...they are all bands/companies that I stand 100% behind.

You can't really understand me unless you understand what I do and why I live. Besides, you might like it.

Music:

♥Perish♥
♥Elseworth♥
♥Divide the Day♥
♥Manntis♥
♥InMemory♥
♥Over It♥
♥Danzig♥
♥HIM♥
♥Pennywise♥
♥AC/DC♥
♥Pat Benatar♥
♥Burlesque♥
♥Kansas City Gunfight♥
♥Job for a Cowboy♥
♥Drugstore Cowboys♥
♥Electric Uh-Oh♥
♥Bon Jovi♥
♥Rise Against♥
♥Gym Class Hereos♥
♥AFI♥
♥Papa Roach♥
♥Red Jumpsuit Apparatus♥
♥Killswitch Engage♥
♥Thrice♥
♥I could go on for days, but you get the idea♥

Shows I'll be at:

Movies:

♥The Hills Have Eyes ♥
♥ Dawn of the Dead ♥
♥Fight Club♥
♥7♥
♥BoonDock Saints♥
♥The Heathers♥
♥Training Day♥
♥Remember the Titans♥
♥Sweet Home Alabama♥
♥National Lampoon's: Van Wilder♥
♥Monty Pithon and the Holy Grail♥
♥The Princess Bride♥
♥The Excorsist♥
♥Rosemary's Baby♥
♥Silence of the Lambs♥
♥Manhunter♥
♥any snowboard or surf video♥
♥Romeo and Juliette♥
♥The Lord of the Rings Trilogy♥
♥THE WAY OF THE GUN♥
♥Texas Chainsaw Massacre♥
♥Jawbreaker♥
♥Rocky Horror Picture Show♥
♥Grease♥

Television:

♥Bones♥
♥CSI♥
♥Nip/Tuck♥
♥Weeds♥

Books:

♥Victor Hugo♥
♥Edgar Allen Poe♥
♥John Grisham♥
♥Nora Roberts♥

Heroes:

My mom...my dad. My family. For all that I have been through, all the times I've let them down, they've still loved me. They are true love, my step dad...he is my dad. I couldn't ask for anyone more wonderful than my family. My grandparents. They've always been there for me. My real dad, for teaching me to appreciate the vibarence of live. My true friends...for never making me wonder.

My Blog

Music is my anti-drug

It's dim, the slow pulse of the drums begin and the music washes over you. Touching your soul, you no longer are conscious of anything around you as you let the melodies make your spirit take flight. ...
Posted by Heidi Handcuffs (PxPxD) on Sat, 04 Mar 2006 01:31:00 PST

Big Fish

"We were like strangers that knew eachother really well." Big Fish. Sometimes I feel like that summerizes my life. Sometimes I feel that, even though we're always together, we barely know eachother. L...
Posted by Heidi Handcuffs (PxPxD) on Mon, 19 Mar 2007 09:22:00 PST

now....

You picked me up and you tore me downThere for a moment, but never aroundSaid you cared, we knew you didn'tBut baby it's ok.... Why can't I see that I'm worthy,Worthy of so much more,Why don't you see...
Posted by Heidi Handcuffs (PxPxD) on Tue, 03 Oct 2006 07:45:00 PST

Life in Rewind....

Life in rewind....look back, reflect, ponder. Could this have been any better? Could it get much worse? It hurts, to give so much of yourself to someone....it hurts to not be completely your own. I've...
Posted by Heidi Handcuffs (PxPxD) on Wed, 06 Sep 2006 09:00:00 PST

I finally wrote a blog about you....

Haha! Things that make me laugh.... I love how you assume my life revolves around you, that everything I write is about you. I love how you tell me to, "get a life," however, you're the one who ...
Posted by Heidi Handcuffs (PxPxD) on Wed, 23 Aug 2006 10:24:00 PST

Seeking forgiveness...

Seeking forgiveness.For all the times you liedFor all the tears I cried.I never gave you a reason.I walked away, with nothing to say, and thats how it will stay. Saying sorry.I owe you nothing.You owe...
Posted by Heidi Handcuffs (PxPxD) on Tue, 22 Aug 2006 09:14:00 PST

Random thought

Crawling into bed,Another night, With so much left unsaidWill you ever tell me the truthWill I ever tell you I already knowUnspoken betrayalsIt's fine, just take your timeIt's alright, just spend the...
Posted by Heidi Handcuffs (PxPxD) on Sat, 22 Apr 2006 03:14:00 PST

What I want in L♥VE!

This is what I want in love...it's the duet from Phantom of the Opera...Blue is Raoul and Pink in Christine, Purple is both....I want this....that love, devotion, affection, dedication...how ever you ...
Posted by Heidi Handcuffs (PxPxD) on Tue, 11 Apr 2006 02:20:00 PST

Screaming at nothing....

Screaming at nothing. Fighting our own shadows. Caught up in the trend of rebellion with nothing to rebel against. Just wanting someone to notice. Someone say no, give us rules, dicipline, bounderies....
Posted by Heidi Handcuffs (PxPxD) on Wed, 22 Feb 2006 02:35:00 PST

Myspace ruined the world....

It did, I swear it. Everything is quickly deteriorating, and we don't even notice. We're too consumed with the covienence of it all. How myspace ruined music: Think about how many bands, small, unhear...
Posted by Heidi Handcuffs (PxPxD) on Sun, 19 Feb 2006 08:03:00 PST