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Cal

I am here for Friends and Networking

About Me

I find myself here, in this city that feels like an addiction. Maybe it is my addictive personality. Maybe my soul found it's true resting point. All I know is that I am on the verge of a major life change once school is done. Dreams, get ready to be persued. Life, get ready to be conquered.
I have met many people along the way. I've come to understand much about myself, though much of it I won't admit. There are people that were once close to me that have since gone on in their own direction and I wish them nothing but the best. There are people that have always been close to me and it was I who was always looking past them. I will spend this year realizing what is in front of me. I will spend this year following my heart and I will start by listening to it.
A special thankyou goes out to those I hold near, you all know who you are. You're the ones that entertain me, that give me silly nicknames. You listen when I rant and you put up with my narcassism. You smile at me when I expect a smile and open your arms when I expect a shoulder. You all are my heros. You make my life worth while. Some of you I've known only a matter of months, and some I've known for years. Thank you for sticking with me. You mean more than you will ever know.

My Interests

shoes, cigars, fallafel at 2 am on McDougal, long talks on green carpet, tattoos thrill me, the faux-hawk, vanilla coke, playing rummy, corner of spring and w b-way, chinese food at 4 am, Madame de Pompadour, paper flowers, bird houses, photo shoots, fake eyelashes, poodles, black lace, avery park, dragon boats, cannon beach, old barns, intense eyes, passion.

I'd like to meet:



My desire.

She was a Vampire, and I her lucky victim. Envy me.

Happy Birthday George! Here's to a night of cremesicles and a plastic gun.

Music:

baumer, 30 seconds to mars, bonobo, dodging simplicity, the faint, james blunt, black eyed peas, foo fighters, head automatica, na leo, thursday,sinatra, michael buble, bonobo, rascal flatts, keith urban, dodging simplicity, the postal service, jason mraz, my chemical romance, jimmy eat world, silverchair, alkaline trio, the ataris, avery, greenday, howie day, the killers, saves the day etc, etc.

Movies:

Anchorman, Napoleon Dynamite, Old School, Office Space, Wedding Crashers, Dirty Dancing, Bad Education, The Princess Bride

Television:

Smallville (i heart lex), CMT (in hopes for a look at Keith Urban), Family Guy, Trading Spaces and everything else on TLC, Discovery Channel, Monster Garage

Books:

The Elegant Universe by Brian Greene - cause quantum mechanics and special relativity make me melt. Currently on The Fabric of the Cosmos also Brian Greene. Non astronomy/physics related books that I would recommend to EVERYONE - My Sisters Keeper, Borderlines, The Time Travelors Wife, Five People you meet in Heaven, anything written by Anna Maxted (cause every girl has to have her cute books), the shopoholic series (as hilarious as it is ridiculous), Angels and Demons/DaVinci's Code series

Heroes:

All my loves- you know who you are. For seeing me at my worst and loving me and all of my selfish ways. Chrissy - You're amazing, i'd die without you. Nick - For loving the nightmare and for finding me in the last lifetime, this lifetime and the next.

My Blog

A response to an unanswered letter.

I found a letter, hidden safely behind a piece of glass and two smiling kids, you on your cell phone and me at your side. I never responded to that letter, I was too busy, too occupied and much too un...
Posted by Cal on Thu, 07 Dec 2006 07:10:00 PST

maybe it's payback for a past life.

i just feel so damn empty. empty and cold. these thoughts warm me bitterly but leave quickly. come back to me. now. come back to me.
Posted by Cal on Mon, 15 May 2006 08:22:00 PST

hanging by a thread

Do you ever feel like you've put everything you have in a nice little package and it now sits, dangling by a single thread. This thread is nothing special, it is not steel and it is not unbreakable - ...
Posted by Cal on Mon, 27 Mar 2006 08:22:00 PST

You boys have been hiding a dirty secret!

I would just like to state first that is Wednesday evening. Keep that in mind while I tell you this revelation I had. So I had this boyfriend back in highschool who would shower daily but only washed...
Posted by Cal on Thu, 09 Mar 2006 08:29:00 PST

Thanks for an amazing weekend.

I will try and be patient. I will try and take a breath and let fate happen. I only wish I had more time with you.
Posted by Cal on Fri, 24 Feb 2006 04:03:00 PST

Returning the favor

In all the years you loved me, you never held me back. You stood by me, with my best interests at heart and eased me back into my own heart when it didn't inlcude a love for you. So now, I will retur...
Posted by Cal on Sat, 28 Jan 2006 04:40:00 PST

And in those moments, there was only you.

Don't worry, the lifetime of memories you missed were unwanted memories anyway. Do not remember me by them, for I am trying to throw them from my system. I feel like I've been hit by a train from the...
Posted by Cal on Thu, 26 Jan 2006 07:43:00 PST

Asshole with a knife

So, i figured out what that uneasy feeling was that I had yesterday... it wasn't about any of my friends, it was about me. 7:35 pm. I'm walking down the subway stairs at my stop to get on the C train...
Posted by Cal on Wed, 25 Jan 2006 12:09:00 PST

be a little careful today

I'm not normally a supestitous person but I am good at reading by own instincts. I woke up this morning feeling fully rested but terribly uneasy. I'm not sure why. No one that I know was going to be i...
Posted by Cal on Mon, 23 Jan 2006 05:07:00 PST

Loving you.

I love that you know me too well. So tell me what I'm going to do next. Wait, don't tell me, I don't want to know, that is unless it's bad, then tell me so I can stop it. I just want to feel this. Pl...
Posted by Cal on Sat, 21 Jan 2006 07:25:00 PST