lexi

I have a very busy mind. I get into a lot of different things. I decided to spend the most time with the things that make me feel most alive. This is what life is about. That is the feeling I get when I walk out of dance class soaking wet. All the bullshit that my mind allows in my thoughts no longer exsists. When i walk out of that class i feel like i could live in a world alone, eat and breathe that music when i dance. Music, shit music can make traffic seem tolerable. Music is the universal language. The language I want to speak. Music is the energy that knows where to travel throughout our bodies when we experience it. To write is another one of my ways to venture through my heart. To take words and create images that evoke emotion, in another person is powerfull. It is a direct channel i have found to healing. Design, Fashion, and Jewelry is what wears me. It is my fixation. The image I collaborate to have is yet another way to express myself. Not in the intention for "fashion" which so sadly is mostly associated with status, but as an art form I develop as my personal style that can express a hundred words without me having to open my mouth to say a single one.I will travel alot. learn a different language. adopt another culture. Spend 6 months in a country i know nothing about without bringing a mirror or any makeup.I will own my own bussiness. I will design my own house someday. I will find the best girlfriends anyone could ask for. I will find a better man then I ever could hope for. But in the meantime I will learn how to cook and have a apartment with a balcony not in zip code 90005. I will have a hard top copper with beige interior lexus. I will find the dream job I am looking to create for myself. I will get to a place where i find where im meant to be. i will finish the music i am working on. i will perform it. I will find the time and place where i will spend most of my time dancing. In classes and performing. I will be satisfied enough with my hard work to be able to call myself a dancer. I will finish what im writing. I will share it in comfort as the woman I am. I will be involved in establishing a place where women can find refuge from themselves and their lives they feel they have no way out of. I will find ways to bring music and dance into the places like schools that so desperately need it. I will find a way to teach, what i feel passionate about. I will find the ways in which i can share the love i feel with other people that hunger for it.All the space between here and reaching there I intend on daily reminding myself of the beauty that exsists everywhere when I am struggling so hard to see it. Ive found that everyting i aspire to experience and possess isnt about the actual result but about the peace, faith, and love I intend to adopt nuture and strengthen, on my journey of faith traveling my way to reaching my destinations. I have never appreciated attaining or the experience of anything unless i soaked up and was aware of every moment in the process. These are the things that keep my mind busy. I spend most my time with the stuff that keeps life in right now. cause the past I am to let go of, and the future loves to come up with any reason to doubt. However now, right now is the perfect timing i can choose anything i want to beleive. now i can do the things that make me feel..................... fuck lexi this is what being alive feels like.