My name is katie. im trying to lose weight. i have lost it in the past and i keep gaining it back. i have no support. fuck being average. i want to be beautiful. i need help. okay? im not going to post my pics up though. this is way to fucking personal. this is MY personal accnt. i need help, i want support from other people who are in my postition. i need help. i need it. i need support for my weight loss. currently i am about 195 (im not sure-my scale broke about a month ago--havent purchased a new one..last time i checked i was about 190 and i have eaten sooo much lately. i am probaly 195. this is an estimate. i could be more or less. i am purchasing a scale very soon). yeah anwyas..i would be happy to have a fasting buddy. i am very serious about this. i know its bad to have anorexia, i honesly cannot withstand going full on anorexic. i will FORCE myself to eat a little. because in the past i have gone anorexic..lost 10 pounds in 3 days. got a little happy, started eating, and i gained it all back. and then some. this is my story. its hard for me writing about this, although it should be easy since i am not revealing my identity. however, i know myspace is huge, so i thought this would be a good way to get some weight loss buddies :). maybe after i lose the weight i will reveal my identity. i have wanted to get a myspace SO bad. but i feel so ashamed about the way i look i havent had the heart to do it. all my friends want me to get one, and im like nah..but i want one so badly. o how i do. i just thought i could get support. i have been trying to lose weight for 3 years. failing to lose more than 20. i always get confident and start eating and i gain it back. i am not the highest i have been though. i was once 207 (that was of late januray 2005) i joined LA weight loss. and i have failed. i have failed to lose weight. i have let my mom down. i have let LA down. i have let myself down. again its so hard for me to write this. i guess im here for support. im not trying to get anyone to kiss my ass. im just trying to get support from people who will encourage me not to give up. i think one of the problems i have is i have no motivation. i realize how bad im doing asnd that gets me even more fucked up. i have friends, at school..but i dont really have a social life. i do, but i dont. im usually at home on the computer. sorry this is so long but it feels so good to let my feelings out, and what ive been trying to get out for so long. im sorry. i think ill stop now. btu i wold really like a fasting/weight loss buddy(ies) thank you so much for reading this. it means alot. i love you :)
