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♪am i sleeping while awake?♪

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About Me



I like to think that someday, this world will evolve.
I childishly hope that things will change.
Everything is the same, it's all been done before.
We're merely barbarians with bigger words.

Yes. I am a strange child.
Always have been, always will be.
I was the young one that you most likely avoided.
Who stared at her toes, lonely, filled with words, and broken-hearted, with no reason to be.

I am waiting for you to look for me,
because I'll have flown away long before.

Loves,
Amber McKinney.

My Interests


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Music:

♥Music♥

1000 Maniacs
12 Stones
30 Seconds to Mars
3 Doors Down
3 Inches of Blood
4 Strings
50 Cents
8 Days Gone
Aaliyah
Absynthesis
ACDC
Acestone
AFi
Aiden
Alabama
Alice in Chains
Alison Limerick
Alkaline Trio
All American Rejects
Alpha Wolf Anger
Alterbridge
Akon
A Man Called Adam
Americ
American Hi-Fi
An Endless Sporadic
Android Lust
Angels and Airwaves
Anna Nalick
Anna Vissi
Anthrax
Anthroluminous
Anthony Hamilton
Anti-Flag
Apoptygma Berzerk
♥♥♥A Perfect Circle♥♥♥
Arcade Fire
As I Lay Dying
As Summer Dies
Assemblage 23
A Static Lullaby
ATB
Atmosphere
Atreyu
Aubrey
Augustana
Autolux
Automatic Loveletter
Avenged Sevenfold
Avril
Ayumi Yamasaki
Bad Religion
Bana
Bare Naked Ladies
Bayanda Bob
Becoming the Archetype
Beloved
Ben Lee
Menassi Bros.
Beres Hammond
Beth Orton
Better Luck Next Time
Beyonce
Big City Rock
Billy Idol
Bird York
Bizarre Inc.
Bjork
Black Box
Black Crows
Black-Eyes Peas
Black Flag
Black Stone Cherry
Bleeding Through
Blessed
Blessed by a Broken Heart
Blind Faith
Blink 182’s older stuff
Bloc Party
Blondie
Bloodflowerz
Bloodwire
Blue October
Blue Pearl
Blur
Bob Marley
Bodeans
Bon Jovi
Bonny Raitt
Bowling for Soup
Boy George
Boys Night Out
Brazil
♥♥♥Breaking Benjamin♥♥♥
Breaking Point
Brendan Benson
Bryan Adams
BT
Bullet for My Valentine
Burn Season
Bush
C 2 C
Cake
Captured
Cartel
Cascada
Casualties
Chab
Chemical X
Cher
Chevelle
Chicago
Children of Bodom
Chris Brown
Chris Isaak
Chuck G and Gerry G-Wiz
Clear Eyes
Clubraiders
Clutch
Cobra Starship
Coheed and Cambria
Coldplay (I only like “Shiver” and “Yellow” though. I extremely dislike 90% of their other songs)
Collective Soul
Collide
Comatose
Concrete Blonde
Conspiracy of Four
Coppermine
Corinne Bailey Rae
Counting Crows
Craig
Creed
Crossbreed
Crossfade
Crowded House
Cry Pandora
Cut Chemist
Cute Is What We Aim For
Cybersonik
D:fuse
Damien Jurado
Dance Nation
Danko Jones
Dark New Day
Dashboard Confessionals
Dave Matthews Band
David Grey
Day of Fire
Dead Boys
Dead End Road
Dead End World
Dead Poetic
Deadstar Assembly
Death Cab for Cutie
Death From Above
Deathray
Dee Dee Rave
Deep Dish
Default
De La Soul
Depeche Mode
DeputyHateAngel
Derek and the Dominoes
Despairs Ray
♥♥♥Diary of Dreams♥♥♥
Diamond Rio
Diamonds Under Fire
Dionne
Dir en Grey
Dire Straights
Dishwalla
Distillers
Disturbed
DJ Tiesto
Dope
Dropkick Murphys
Duncan Sheik
Eagles
Earshot
Earth Wind and Fire
Ease Drop
Eighteen Visions
Eleven
Emanuel
Evanescence
Evan's Blue
Eve 6
Everclear
Everything But the Girl
Faith Hill
Faithless
Fall Out Boy
Fastball
Feeder
Feist
Felix da Housecat
Femme Fatale
Ferry Corsten
Fighting Instinct
Filo and Peri
Filter
Five Speed
FLAW
Fleetwood Mac
Flyleaf
Folgoberg
Foreigner
♥♥♥ Framing Hanley ♥♥♥
Frances Nero
Frank Sinatra
Frank Black
Franz Ferdinand
Friends of Matthew
Frightmare
From Autumn to Ashes
From First to Last
Front Line Assembly
Fuel
Gackt
Garbage
Gary Clail
Gazette
Gellador
Glay
Gnarls Barkley
Greed
Greenday's older stuff
Greg Allman
Grendel
Grey Caswell
Godsmack
Goo Goo Dolls
Good Riddance
Gorillaz
Guns N’ Roses
Gym Class Heroes
Halloween
Hard Days
Har Mar Superstar
Harry James
Hatebreed
Hawthorne Heights
Head Automatica
Helifueled
Hellogoodbye
Hide
Hidden
♥♥♥H.I.M.♥♥♥
Hinder
Hole
Hoobastank
Hootie and the Blowfish
Hot Hot Hot
Hot Snakes
Hurt
Incubus
In Stereo
Interpret
Irrational
Irving
Jack Johnson
Jack Off Jill
James Blunt
Jamie Cullum
James Taylor
Jaw Breaker
Jessica Simpson
Jet
Jewel
Joe Perry
Johnny Cash
John Gorka
John Legend
John Mayer
Johnny Vicious
Joshua Hommo
Joss Wheden
Journey
Joy Foundation
Kaci Brown
Kagrra
Kanye West
Katie Melua
KC and the Sunshine Band
K.D. Lang
Keane
Keith Urban
Kelly Clarkson
Kenny Chesney
Kid Rock
Kill Hannah
Killswitch Engage
King Bryan
Kings of Leon
Kiseki
Kittie
Knight Breed
Korn
Krystal Blue
Kutless
Lacuna Coil
LaLaine
Lamb of God
Laura Veirs
Led Zeppelin
Left Unsaid
Less That Jake
Little Compass
Lindsey Haun
Linkin Park
Live
Living End
Los Lonely Boys
Lostprophits
Ludacris
Maaya Sakamoto
Machines of Loving Grace
Madonna
Mae
Magic Numbers
Makeshift Romeo
Malice Mizer
Manday Huge
Mario
Martina McBride
Marvelous 3
Mary J. Blige
Matchbox 20
Matisyahu
Mat Kearney
Maximo Park
Meatloaf
Megadeath
Melissa Etheridge
Mercy me
Metallica
Michael Stipe
Milky
Mindless Faith
♥♥♥Mindless Self Indulgence♥♥♥
M.K.
Modest Mouse
Ministry
Moneen
Monster Magnet
Morning Musume
Mother Love Bone
Motion City Soundtrack
Miyavi
Mudvayne
Murder Practice
My Chemical Romance
MxPx
Nakashima Miki
National Product
Nazareth
Nebula
Needtobreathe
Nevea Tears
New Found Glory
Nickelback
Nightwish
Nikki Sixx
Nimbus
Nine Inch Nails
Nirvana
Noise Maker
Nonpoint
Oasis
Omarion
Operatic
Opiate for the Masses
Orbital
Orgy
Our Lady Peace
Ozzy Osbourne
P. Diddy
Palahniuk’s Laughter
Panic! At the Disco
Papa Roach
Paramore
Passerby
Paul Van Dyk
Pearl Jam
Pennywise
Pete Yorn
Phantom Planet
Phish
Pig Destroyer
Pink
Pink Spiders
♥♥♥Placebo♥♥♥
Plain White T's
Plasmic Honey
Platinum Weird
PLC
Poll Parts
Porcupine Tree
Portishead
Priestess
Pretty in Pink
Prodigy
Psychedelic Furs
Public Enemy
QED
QotSH
Queen
Queens of the Stoneage
Radiohead
Rage Against the Machine
Rammstein
Rancid
♥♥♥Rascal Flats♥♥♥
Raconteurs
Raze
Razor 'N' Guido
Reba McIntyre
Rebel MC
Red Hot Chili Peppers
Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
Red Metric
Regina Spektor
REM
Revelation Theory
Rise Against
R. Kelly
Robert Plant
Robert Pollard
Robert Randolph
Robin S.
Robot Adrenaline
Rob Thomas
Rob Zombie
Rolling Stones
Rush
RZA
Santana
Savage Garden
Saving Jane
Say Anything
Scarling.
Scissor Sisters
Scorpions
Seal
See-Saw
Seether
Senses Fall
Sevendust
Shadows Fall
Shakira
Sham 69
Shawn Cristopher
Shinedown
Shirwood
Shout Out Louds
Shrug
Sia
Sick Transit
Sick Puppies
Skid Row
Silent Drive
Silvertide
Silverstein
Sin
Single File
Slipknot
Smashing Pumpkins
Smile Empty Soul
Smoke Blow
Smoke or Fire
Snap
Something Corporate
Sonic Reducer
Soundgarden
Springsteen
♥♥♥Staind♥♥♥
Starting Line
Static X
Steel Pulse
Stereolab
Stevie Nicks
Steven Tyler
Stone Temple Pilots
Strife
Soul Asylum
Sound De-Zign
Spirit Caravan
Stify
Stonebridge
Stone Sour
Story of the Year
Strike Anywhere
Stutterfly
Styx
Sublime
Sugarcult
Suicide Commando
Suicide Silence
System of a Down
Tailgunner
Taking Back Sunday
Tantric
Taproot
Taste
Tegan and Sarah
The Academy Is…
The Adicts
The Almost
The Ataris
The Beatles
The Bled
The Bravery
The Calling
The Candy Spooky Theater
The Casualties
The Click Five
The Colours
The Covenant
The Cure
The Donnas
The Doors
The Dreaming
The Dresden Dolls
The Eagles
The Early November
The Exploited
The Explosion
The Faint
The Farm
The Frey
The Hiss
The Hissyfits
The Hives
The Hush Sound
The Influence
The Juliet Dagger
The KLF
The Killers
The Knife
The Living Blue
The Magic Numbers
The Missing
The Network
The Pillows
The Ramones
The Rainy Thursdays
The Recluse
The Rocketz
The Scene Aesthetic
The Shaman
The Shannon
The Sleeping
The Starting Line
The Suicide Machines
The Tragically Hip
The Transfer
The Transplants
The Trax
The Used
The Veronicas
The White Stripes
Theory of a Dead Man
Three Days Grace
Thrice
Thursday
Tim Blane
Tim McCauly
Tim McGraw
Toby Keith
Tonic
Tori Amos
Traia and Astacia
Train
Trust Company
Type O Negative
U2
Underoath
Undubloons
Urban Hype
Ursula 2000
Usher
Utada Hikaru
Vanga Boys
Van Halen
Venom
Vertical Horizon
Violent Femmes
VNV Nation
Waking Ashland
Wallflowers
Warren Zenen
We Are Scientists
Ween
Weezer
Wendell Williams
WIC
Winter's Thrall
Wise Guy
Wolf Mother
World Party
X
X-Japan
Xpansions
Yellowcard
Yoko Kanno
Young Rebels
Zeke
Zeromancer
Zombie Nation
Zor and Key

Movies:


Movies.
(in no particular order)
Thumbsucker.
The Ballad of Jack and Rose.
Waking Life.
MirrorMask.
Godly Boyish.
The Crow.
The Labyrinth.
Lord of the Rings Trilogy.
What Dreams May Come.

Television:


What's Your Kinky Turn On?
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You scored as Blood

Your turn on is blood. You adore the colour, the taste, the texture, the thickness... everything. You probably like to bite/to be bitten. Sex isn't sex without the ecstasy of blood.


Blood


100%

Biting


100%

Bondage


92%

Whips


67%

Chains/Handcuffs


58%

Blind Folds


33%
What do your eyes reveal about you?(PICS!)Updated
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You scored as Eyes full of Pain

People tend to overlook you, which makes you feel less worthy of their attentions. You sometimes wish you could just disappear from the world around you. You have been hurt very badly in the past and you just wish that someone would understand you, and what their cruelty is doing to you.


Eyes full of Pain


100%

Mysterious


69%

Anger


63%

Passion


38%

Diamond Eyes


19% ..

Heroes:


♥I'd walk through hell for them.♥

My Blog

Censorship.

I don't even have the balls to say what I want to say anymore.
Posted by jam i sleeping while awake?j on Mon, 05 May 2008 06:52:00 PST

Stupid decisions, and the promise.

So i've decided.Since everyone else smokes despite the negative affects on their health, claiming they need to, I'm going to start smoking too.Who cares if I'll wind up in the hospital, or if my lungs...
Posted by jam i sleeping while awake?j on Wed, 30 Apr 2008 02:02:00 PST

Gone.

Why don't you hate me? Erase me? Abuse me?Why don't you pull away?Don't you know, my darling?Anyone you choose is better than me.Alone in a world left shattered in my eyes,I do nothing but hope for a ...
Posted by jam i sleeping while awake?j on Mon, 21 Apr 2008 10:35:00 PST

Too bad.

it’s too bad that i am heretoo bad that you are theretoo bad that i feel so muchand that you don’t care it’s too bad that my heartis breaking, with every thoughttoo bad we were such ...
Posted by jam i sleeping while awake?j on Mon, 07 Apr 2008 02:14:00 PST

Opened.

If i could just crackIf i could pry open my shell,Just a sliver,Just a shiver,If I could free the monsterTrapped inside andLocked awayWould she transform?Would she be freed fromHer curse of ugliness, ...
Posted by jam i sleeping while awake?j on Wed, 26 Mar 2008 07:42:00 PST

The Impossible.

I haven’t written anything dark in quite some time. So, I was in the mood to give you guys a little gift.I sit here, staring into space.I sit here, locked inside my mind.Pretending things don&r...
Posted by jam i sleeping while awake?j on Wed, 19 Mar 2008 06:24:00 PST

Away

maybe togethermaybe one daywe can justrun away
Posted by jam i sleeping while awake?j on Thu, 13 Mar 2008 07:27:00 PST

The child.

She had never known love before.She was young, yes. But she had only imagined before. She never imagined what she would find on a lonely summer's day, now so far away from this time.Four years and eig...
Posted by jam i sleeping while awake?j on Sun, 24 Feb 2008 01:13:00 PST

The Inner Heart

The emptiness glaresLate at night behind darkened doors.In this house of waking sorrowWith its broken, creaky floors.Is this all there is--- all that's left to be?Is this the life I've built for me?Th...
Posted by jam i sleeping while awake?j on Fri, 15 Feb 2008 08:23:00 PST

freaking out

I've had that feeling again lately.The feeling that I'm trying to tread in a giant bowl of jello.Just getting more and more slowed.I gotta keep up the pace, I say.Gotta get, gotta get outta here.I pro...
Posted by jam i sleeping while awake?j on Thu, 24 Jan 2008 06:54:00 PST