++ELEGANT J++

I'm Elegant J, but you can call me Jes if you feel funny using my nickname.
I'm a strong believer in the concept of 'to each and one's own'. i respect what you do with your life, as long as you respect what i do in return.
Generally Im a nice person. I'm labeled a 'good girl.' I dont drink, have never taken drugs, and have a clean driving record.
i am a hollow shell deep inside due to the cruel things people have said or done to me. But i cover it up most of the time :) i dont like to look unhappy.
I'm addicted to fitness and working out. I run almost every day, and other weopons of choice are a pilates ball, yoga mat, perfect pushup, thigh master, 6lb weighted ball, and jump rope.
Im a pickier eater than i ever was, and I dont appreciate lectures of what/how i should eat. I do not have a disorder. my bmi is too high and i eat more than my 170lb boyfriend does. btw i weigh 95lbs on a good day 100 on a bad :)
I recently decided to try modeling. Its an incentive i have for working out. To me its rewarding to see all my progress put on film (or digital). So far i enjoy it.
I am a music buff. I sing with PERFECT PITCH, play cello, bass, guitar, piano, and various traditional Japanese instruments. I love talking about music with others, but jamming, and playing ANY music, classical or contemporary is even better! Im a connesseur of random knowledge and tidbits. i spend the majority of my internet time on Wikipedia.
MY FLAWS
I'M A WALKING STEREOTYPE OF A SUBMISSIVE HOUSEWIFE.
its embarrassing and i'm proud of it at the same time.
its complicated.
I am someone always conscious of self presentation.
I am too nice and forgiving.
I am by nature a caring and nurturing person.it is my best and worst quality.
To me, treating someone better than i care for myself is the biggest complement i can give a friend i care dearly for.
But due to cultural differences not everyone knows this, and a lot of people take me and my favors for granted.
but do i learn? no. :(
Even when 'friends' use me or treat me badly i've come back to help them or give them more of me to their advantage.
PLEASE DONT KEEP ME AROUND ONLY TO USE ME AS A TAXI TO THE AIRPORT, TO RETRIEVE YOUR CAR, TO RUN ERRANDS WITH YOU.
***a thank you would be appreciated if you've been guilty of using me. especially if you choose otherwise to pretend to have nothing to do with me. that hurts*****