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h i l a r y

i just don't know what to do with myself...

About Me

well, my interests, tastes and likes are basically given over there to the left. i know myself very well but, unfortunately, not what i want to do with my life yet, or even what to do say, next month... i'm smart, creative, understanding and insightful. i'm also lazy, impulsive, fearful, insecure and bad at following through with things. i do photography and sometimes other art. you can see some of my photography on my other myspace - first "top friend" below (and feel free to ADD IT if you like what you see). i talk a lot - many people say too much and sometimes too fast. i love music. i love looking at things. my family is very important to me. i'm very open and pretty direct. once i determine i like someone, i'm ready to tell them almost anything, and want to find out everything about them. i find other people's lives really interesting. i always find the sky amazing no matter how much i look at it. i say and write "anyway" a lot. i can't hide my emotions well, even when i want to. i cry pretty easily. i sometimes get really hyper and cant stop smiling and people ask what i'm on (when it's nothing). i get pretty depressed, but also, and sometimes at the same time, can get really happy even from little things. i can have multiple thoughts going on at once. i often get more than one song randomly stuck in my head and they overlap or mix, and sometimes it sounds good and i enjoy my mental dj and other times its annoying. my abode is award-winningly messy. it's gotten to the point where it's too overwhelming to clean. i can never find anything. i'm always late. i get incredibly organized and anal about some things (like the songs in my ipod) while things that should rank higher in priority are in a state of total chaos. i'm very detail-oriented. i'm great at recognizing faces, voices, songs, etc. but terrible at recalling their names. i have a far-reaching memory. in many ways i'm exactly the same person i was at 4 years old, but i was a pretty mature kid. i think i used to be smarter and more talented than i am now. my mom says i dwell too much in the past. i'm a night person. i lose track of time all the time. sometimes i crave being social. sometimes i only want to be alone. when i write i tend to write way too much, such as right now obviously.

My Interests

watching too much tv, laying in bed for hours, walking outside, especially at the beach or in the woods, music, going to shows, my ipod, digital photography and photo-art, movies, drumming on my steering wheel, chocolate, jewelry, the color blue, art, twilight, sunsets, swings, spinning in circles, lying on the ground staring at the sky, singing the blues, eyes, profiles (as in faces, not myspace), full moons, cuddling, mythology, etymology, DVD special features, silliness, wallowing, sleeping, family dynamics, deep and lengthy conversations, and people (excluding people who know nothing and people who think they know everything).

I'd like to meet:

those who are interesting and interested.

AIM = blutwink

Music:

Magnetic Fields, The Smiths, Joy Division, Jeff Buckley, The Cure, Nina Simone, Wire, Gang of Four, Galaxie 500, Belle & Sebastian, Sunny Day Real Estate, Nick Drake, Pavement, The Clash, The Jam, Velvet Underground, David Bowie, Death Cab for Cutie, Cat Power, Brian Jonestown Massacre, Morrissey, Beck, Low, Smokey Robinson & The Miracles, The Decemberists, Bjork, Shudder To Think, Portishead, Jonathan Richman, Elvis Costello, Squeeze, Pixies, Weezer, The Jesus and Mary Chain, Melanie, Simon & Garfunkel, early Rolling Stones, The Beatles, The Beach Boys, Cream, Led Zeppelin, Red Hot Chili Peppers, New Order, Talking Heads, The Police, The Specials, Pilfers, Who Cares, Bad Religion, They Might Be Giants, Guided by Voices, Spiritualized, Archers of Loaf, Depeche Mode, Stone Roses, Interpol, Pulp, Fiona Apple, Iron and Wine, Built To Spill, Spoon, Elliott Smith, Beth Orton, The Shins, Clientele, Echo & The Bunnymen, Arcade Fire, Bloc Party, Pretty Girls Make Graves, Black Rebel Motorcycle Club... et al.

Movies:

Singles, The Princess Bride, Say Anything, Some Kind of Wonderful, Edward Scissorhands, Amelie, The Wedding Singer, High Fidelity, The Breakfast Club, American Beauty, Office Space, The Royal Tenenbaums, Lord of the Rings trilogy, Bram Stoker's Dracula, Clerks, The Big Lebowski, O Brother Where Art Thou, Back to the Future trilogy, Shrek (1), The Commitments, Pretty in Pink, Mermaids, Can't Hardly Wait, Wayne's World, Little Man Tate, Before Sunrise, Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, Little Miss Sunshine, et al.

Television:

addict. pathetic.

My Blog

Help $upport the Fight Against Breast Cancer - Im walking in the Race for the Cure

I recently accepted the challenge to raise funds and participate in the 2007 Komen New York City Race for the CureĀ® on Sunday, September 9th in the fight against breast cancer. One in eight women will...
Posted by h i l a r y on Fri, 31 Aug 2007 11:19:00 PST

yesterday

yesterday was such a gorgeous day! very windy, but sunny and beautiful. i went for a walk in my favorite nearby haunt, gardiner park. it was amazing having glistening white snow still covering the gro...
Posted by h i l a r y on Wed, 21 Mar 2007 01:39:00 PST

puppets make me nervous

video by Kenyon. from fall 2006...
Posted by h i l a r y on Mon, 12 Mar 2007 07:29:00 PST

celebrity news

Ok, who else is sick to death of Anna Nicole Smith and her baby's paternity and all that? My dad's assistant thinks the money left behind by her octogenarian husband is cursed since all the key playe...
Posted by h i l a r y on Wed, 21 Feb 2007 08:15:00 PST

in dreams

I was discussing dreams from childhood that were either recurring or just real stand-outs with my mother and sister-in-law, Jen. My worst nightmare when I was really, really little that I remember wa...
Posted by h i l a r y on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

"the bed's too big without you"

[i just wanted to point out, not that it matters much, but this blog was not actually written in december 2006 but back in 2004.  i recently went through my blogs and changed some privacy setting...
Posted by h i l a r y on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

child swapping?

The night before last I couldn't sleep. I ended up coming downstairs (where our computer is) and scanned in all those Halloween pictures I put on here and other stuff. Anyway, I ended up not going to...
Posted by h i l a r y on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

last night's fortune cookies

say:"Choose your own path."and"Your fortune is not something to find but to unfold."i've been in a weird mood lately. kind of down. i've also been starting to reach out to people and then pulling back...
Posted by h i l a r y on Wed, 20 Sep 2006 11:39:00 PST

those su-hummer... NAH-HIGHTS!

The last couple nights have been so nice... Saturday night I first went to see Little Miss Sunshine (at the fabulous Cinema Art Centre) which was such a great movie! I definitely recommend it to every...
Posted by h i l a r y on Tue, 08 Aug 2006 08:22:00 PST

holy miniatures, batman!

you have to see this:http://www.callnetuk.com/home/sjprice/sthilarys/...
Posted by h i l a r y on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST