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About Me


Nothing more, nothing less.
"The only problem with a direct statement is that is easily can become a wilted gardenia."
-C. Bukowski
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I'm Charlene Kristen.
I look at your comments.
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What you don't tell me hurts more then what you do.

"Not that she was fragile or even seemed fragile. It wasn't that. It was her completeness, her egglike self-sufficiency, that made him want to crush her."
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"Wandering Wonderer
Wondering Wonderer
Always moved by the manners of going away.
Altering, faultering allies we need.
Faultering, altering alliances we lead.
Smile a lot. Even (especially) in misery."
-Matthew
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There's a message written in the fog, and it reminds me morning to 'love her.' But loving her doesn't mean that she'll love return.It's sad poetry of the same old story, lover loving me, but where's that part in glory?I died tonight, and hell has me, how far down would you go for me? Just so you know, i'd go to eternity.This is the part where pianos play classically-like, but is cued poetry, this is the part where the devil appears as if from itself musically, saying, "i've got a pill that'll make her disappear, if only for a few hours, don't take more than prescribed unless you want her to disappear forever."I Made her disappear foreverly eternity, eternally
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she was liquid and solid all at the same time. consoling me, and lending a powerful hand. making life seem ok. for seconds that felt like ... years. Yellow and honest, bright and welcoming, my eyes took in everything she offered. the night sky was dark around her, my room around me. even though there was a million lightyears between her, and me. still I could hear her, and still I knew what she wanted. she has years of wisdom. the wind was wrapping my drapes, making them to a dance that I couldn't see. She began to set, and my drapes were take a chance to spite me. moving in front of her, blocking her solidity. suddenly, when I could no longer see her face, a feeling of being overwhelmed, a feeling of utter discouragement, swept over me. it was like I was hit with a brick. Tears bursted onto my cheeks and I asked her why. But she was gone.
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My Interests

photography.

I like music.
I like movies.
I like making memories.
I don't like school, or homework, or classwork. I'd rather sleep.
Sometimes I scare myself with my imagination.
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Tell me how you've been, Tell what you've seen, Tell me that you'd like to see me too.'cause my heart is full of no blood, My cup is full of no love, Couldn't take another sip even if I wanted.But it's not too late, Not too late for love.My lungs are out of air, Yours are holding smoke, And it's been like that now for so long.I've seen people try to change, And I know it isn't easy, But nothin' worth the time never really is.And it's not too late, It's not too late for love, For love, For love, For love.

I'd like to meet:


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These girls keep me breathing.
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I need to meet Rob Irwin.
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Music:

Bright Eyes,
The Early November,
Paramore,
Death Cab for Cutie,
and
Manchester Orchestra.
And so, so much more.
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In my CD player...
The Early November: The Mother.
The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus: Don't you Fake it.
and
Charlene's Mixtape Masterpiece by PD.

Movies:

Things to Do:
-Buy a SLR camera.
-Get my permit.
-Get my license.
- Take photography more seriously.
-Tell the truth.
-Finish all my homework.
-Go to college.
- Forget.
- Taking Back Sunday concert.
-Smile.
Find my chapstick.
- Do well on my play in May.
- Pass my classes .
-Graduate.
-Paint my room.
-Leave California for once.

Books:

Reading:
Visions of Cody.
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Finished:
Nick and Norah's Infinite Playlist.
On the Road.
Doing it.
The Dharma Bums.
The Day of the Locust.
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Unfinished:
Naked Lunch .
The Most Beautiful Woman in Town .
Choke .

Heroes:

Feelings are like a waterfall, you can't turn them on and off.
-Meg Kaiser
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Charlene: Why do people bring other people flowers when they are in the hospital?
Meg: Something peaceful, I guess.
Charlene: That was beautiful.
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Meg: Mine's in order, it's just backwards.
Charlene: That's not in order. That's backwards.
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Corey: If I could be any enzyme, I would be DNA Helicase. Do you know why?
Charlene: no
Charlene: Why
Corey: So I could unzip your genes
------------------------------------------------Alyssa: Hahahahahahaha...I know but it's not hard unlike your penis when you see me...
Me: Alyssa, my penis is always hard.
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"I'm going to stop arguing with you, cause I always loose."
-Joel Wedge

My Blog

I was thinking that I might be lonely forever.

music blaring    scenery passingthoughts running    dreams stoppinglaughter sinking    lights burningdivider penetrating    smiles fadingti...
Posted by charlenekristennn isn't on Thu, 17 May 2007 10:24:00 PST

I can tell that we are going to be friends.

She began all nice and slow, raising the hairs on the back of my neck.Her eyes just made me keep my gaze, wondering what would escape those lips."What's the point in living?" she asks, and I see a te...
Posted by charlenekristennn isn't on Sun, 25 Mar 2007 01:08:00 PST

We've sunk, haven't we?

She's right you know. I've become extremely detatched from everyone and everything. It's like I'm watching everyone move about, and I'm dying to join in. But I'm too far away. Sleeping seems like a b...
Posted by charlenekristennn isn't on Tue, 20 Mar 2007 08:04:00 PST

Summer lovin', had me a blast.

Let's drown ourselves in nothing.Roll around, tangled in sheets.Let the sun rise and warm our faces at noon.Discover new music, explore new places.Let's be carefree, and young.This isn't going to las...
Posted by charlenekristennn isn't on Sun, 18 Mar 2007 12:51:00 PST

You're nothing but a sunset on someone's beach.

the sun sets on the ocean,so slowly.          ;       so beautifully.my breath steadies and is constant.for the first time,&nbs...
Posted by charlenekristennn isn't on Thu, 15 Feb 2007 11:17:00 PST

I never liked poety anyways. But who says you have to like it to write it.

I lay there. So still maybe the earth won't notice I'm laying on her eyelids.And I stare. So steady maybe the light won't notice that I'm using it.So I concentrate. So confident maybe my hopes and dre...
Posted by charlenekristennn isn't on Mon, 12 Feb 2007 12:35:00 PST

betterwithoutyou.

i'm not going to try.i've finished that a long time ago.you're nothing special, at least, not anymore.and i don't want you to be anything special again.you're right.i'm thankful i'm not talking to you...
Posted by charlenekristennn isn't on Thu, 30 Nov 2006 03:42:00 PST

thanks.

i'm thankful that i can breathe. i'm thankful i have socks. i'm thankful that i can imagine things. i'm thankful that i have a heart. i'm thankful that i can smile. i'm thankful that i can cry. i...
Posted by charlenekristennn isn't on Fri, 24 Nov 2006 11:18:00 PST

just that boy.

there's that charm. that uneasiness in my stomach.he makes me wonder, and makes me think.he's just a boy.his arms are perfect, and his smile makes me giggle.the way he'd look at me would make all my w...
Posted by charlenekristennn isn't on Tue, 29 Aug 2006 03:58:00 PST

read it out loud. kinda has a beat.

madeline, oh madeline.i took all the pictures down and replaced them with someone else.the music and the words flowed out of the speakers. so swiftly.oh madeline.and i watched myself while i put the p...
Posted by charlenekristennn isn't on Tue, 16 May 2006 08:40:00 PST