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Amadeus Arkham

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About Me

Music will always say the things I can't...
you know what you are to me, don't make me say it over and over again. it's way too late, or much too early. you know how I get when I'm left alone to my vices, like the grown-ups did when I was a kid
I said: I'm a bird in your hand so take me as I am. you know what you are to me. don't make me say it over and over again. my left hand, a part of me. it stays late to clean up my mess. when I'm sick of all my choices, like the grown-ups I grew up with
(angels and addicts) when I put my arms around you, I mean it. when I'm too drunk to stay up with you, I mean it. when I slam doors 'cause I'm pissed at you, I mean it. when I put on a suit and say "I do", I mean it.
you know what you are to me. don't make me say it over and over again
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Sometimes i do things.
Sometimes i have friends.
Sometimes I'm cooler than you.
Sometimes music means more than you ever will.
Sometimes I write
I love my friends.
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We've never done much
But we've managed to get it all done
Every thought expressed.
In happy chords.
Smiles and laughs, strumming six strings
And letting loose the words that were forbidden
Soft spoken sentances, sob filled words,
And smiles from across the room
We knew what we were saying before it was said. and we all Felt the same way
We know one day this may end
But for now we've got happy chords, smiles.
And the occasional story to tell
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"It's hard to be truthful when you live in a world full of fakes..."
"Things seem so much more clear near the stateline..."
"The comforts of four are gone. They will never come back."
the way to create art is to burn and destroy
ordinary concepts and to substitute them
with new truths that run down from the top of the head
and out from the heart - Charles Bukowski (intro to the book "Sifting Through The Madness For The Word, The Line, The Way")

My Interests

Music, Movies, Disecting words, fun, Bowling (I'm better than you), sleep (i don't get enough), being me and not giving a shit. Observing society, hating %86 of the people i meet.

I'd like to meet:

"The only people for me are the mad ones, the ones who are mad to live, mad to talk, mad to be saved, desirous of everything at the same time, the ones who never yawn or say a commonplace thing..., but burn, burn, burn like fabulous yellow roman candles exploding like spiders across the stars and in the middle you see the blue center light pop and everybody goes 'AWWWWW!' "

I'm Ashamed to say that I am apart of the human race, but I don't want to add to that shame. Just scrape a little bit off - Henry Charles Bukowski

Meet me as Jesus dressed in drag, I'm ready to confront myself.

Music:



Top Ten Albums Of 2007
1. Coheed And Cambria - Good Apollo; Vol. 2: No World For Tomorrow
2. Boys Night Out - Boys Night Out
3. Saves The Day - Under the Boards
4. Dustin Kensrue - Please Come Home
5. Bright Eyes - Cassadaga
6. Cassino - Sounds Of Salvation
7. Spoon - GaGaGaGa
8. The Good Life - Help Wanted Nights
9. The Honorary Title - Scream And Light Up The Sky
10. The Spill Canvas - No Really, I'm Fine

Old habits die hard, growing bitter from trying to be broken
While these comfortable routines are smothered with affection
Well, I choose to switch between the two
I choose whatever convinces you, that I should be allowed to (Slip through the cracks and get back to the living)
These walls are unforgiving, Send someone to check on me and take notes on my recovery

One pill will get me through the day
But I take two anyway
When I take three pills the song begins to play
One that won't go away. And even though I know
One pill will get me through the day
I take two anyway
When I mix four pills with a drink the song starts to play
It's in the back of my head and it's everywhere and it's all I can think about

It's all spinning out of control (For one day this thing is out of my hands)
While under severe supervision, everything is, everything is
But when unsuspected, addiction is under the radar
And anything goes, so here I sit, (comatose almost)
I float between hospitals and halfway homes
Between halfway living and halfway lying
And I know all the awful things that no one needs to know
I take my medicine and make them believe that I'm a better man

One pill will get me through the day
But I take two anyway
When I take three pills the song begins to play
One that won't go away. And even though I know
One pill will get me through the day
I take two anyway
When I mix four pills with a drink the song starts to play
It's in the back of my head and it's everywhere and it's all I can think about

But still I hear the song
It's everywhere
Surrounding me and ringing in my ears.
The perfect song will call for sedatives, sacrifice and sing-alongs
So sing along

Movies:

The Jersey Trilogy (mallrats, Clerks, Chasing Amy), The Squid And The Whale, Life Aquatic, Closer, Crash, Breakfast Club (fo life), Memento, Requiem For A Dream, Donnie Darko, United States Of Leland, Hotel Rwanda, Goodbye Lenin, City Of God, Pretty In Pink, I Heart Huckabees, Pulp Fiction, Billy Madison, Boogie Nights, Seceratary, Dancer In The Dark, American Splendor(More to come...)

Television:

Arrested Development, Wonder Showzen, Boy Meets World, Most Things Adult Swim, Sportscenter, Infomercials

Books:

Currently reading -
"The Brothers Karamozov" - Dos, "Desolation Angels" - Jack Kerouac, "Journey To The End Of The Night" - Celine, "Fast Food Nation" - Eric Schlosser, "Trout Fishing In America" - Richard Brautigan, "Dr. Sax" - Jack Kerouac

Bukowski
Vonnegut
Burroughs
Kerouac
Salinger
Ginsberg
Palahniuk
Eggars

Heroes:

Rodney Mullen, Will Clark, Tony Wonder

My Blog

Singled out we, are mad; but when we form a group everything is OK

 In reality we have nothing              In our bank accounts,               &nb...
Posted by Amadeus Arkham on Fri, 26 Oct 2007 01:38:00 PST

Jellyfish don't go well on sandwhiches

When we were younger, we'd spend all of our free time at the beach, constantly taunting the ocean. Acting as though we owned the beach, and that Mother Nature and her lively cast of scenery had nothin...
Posted by Amadeus Arkham on Sat, 12 May 2007 02:04:00 PST

Don't worry, it never looked as bad as you thought

*note: whoever is reading this, it's not about anything real, not even you, it's just words, encoded with 1's and 0's.Not many stories begin with "I could smell the smoke, but I'm not quite sure wher...
Posted by Amadeus Arkham on Sun, 15 Apr 2007 03:12:00 PST

it's only when we realize we've reached the bottom that we feel the need to climb

     Can we sleep all night? Alone,              In this dark roomThoughts of the AmericanD R E A MThoughts of love, mone...
Posted by Amadeus Arkham on Mon, 12 Mar 2007 07:01:00 PST

we've never finished a movie... all i wanted to do was watch the movie

It's always in the back of our minds,       these were much simpler times,    when we didn't know or care about the grass, and its     &nbs...
Posted by Amadeus Arkham on Mon, 12 Feb 2007 11:30:00 PST

the clouds just come in, and they never stop

so you wade out into the water.with the moon shining bright,only in this kind of light, the water reflects a black so dark, you can't see your feet. but you feel millions of years of history and broke...
Posted by Amadeus Arkham on Thu, 25 Jan 2007 10:53:00 PST

don't let the incoming weather effect your view of the coast

the wolf returned, he hadn't come to these parts in months    i thought after the last charade we had run him off for good"don't be greedy" he kept repeating,      &...
Posted by Amadeus Arkham on Sun, 21 Jan 2007 05:39:00 PST

When It's All To Familiar

These summer nights seem to     get warmer and warmer,I've spent the last weeks,    shirt off laying in my shortsI can feel the swear boil on    my bodyIt'...
Posted by Amadeus Arkham on Fri, 28 Jul 2006 07:06:00 PST

<Clever Title>

It happened just the other day, i was at the parade     (oh the sounds, how the children, so sweet in their innocence laughed.)the Wolf... it came, a familiar face. smiles were familiar...
Posted by Amadeus Arkham on Tue, 18 Jul 2006 12:02:00 PST

The Warped Tour That Wasn't (Kenny, please add details I missed)

As a side note. Tellnig you through here will do nothing to justify my day,. but I will do my best. You really have to get to know me to know what I meanThe format (not the band but the way i write/ t...
Posted by Amadeus Arkham on Sun, 09 Jul 2006 11:12:00 PST