About Me
So im sitting here, staring into this screen. It's about 2:00 AM, and I dont know why I am still awake.
Maybe it's because I'm thinking about all the Shit I have to do. Sometimes it can be very overwhelming.
Very stressful living in a three bedroom house with Seven People in it. Anyways, I have one more fine to
pay until I am finished with all of the Bull shit these corrupt Pigs are trying to pull. After this, im
going to take a Drivers Educational class. Then im going to buy a car. Off to California I go :DWell what i really want to say, is sorry.
Sorry to all my friends, for I havent Gone by to see any of you in a long while.
It's not any of you, im just trying to figure shit out for myself. So the next time you say "wheres spoony at?"
just give me a ring and ill come by. So yea, im sorry.Also, im Very sorry to my Family. I know it is very stressful seeing everyone so Uptight around here, and I'm not making
it any better by freaking out all the time. I love you all.I'm sorry Mom. It is very stressful for you and I can see
it. All these people here in a small place is driving me insane, so i can only imagine what you are going through.
I know your disapointed in me for Getting Kicked out of school, and yes it is my fault because i never went to the damn place.
I will try to go back, just let me save up some money so i can buy a car to Get there. I will not let you go through me getting kicked out again,
so if i go back, im going to do it for real.To the rest of the people who know me.Sorry for being a dick all the time, Im just going through a lot of Shit im trying to take care of Way too fast.
If you have something to say to me, please do. I dont want to become distant to anyone that i know.Brett. Its going on Three and a half years that iv'e known you correct? Your the first Friend in this hell hole. Strangely Me and you are coming from the same place, just know this.
Even though we moved to Utah, a totally different place then Home, ill always get your back. Dont let these Mormons overwhelm you. Lifes a Bitch, but it's also a game. One card, one play Yea? I wish you luck with what your going to be doing buddy. All's i can say is, Lucky Bastard hahahahaha.Winston. Man, me and you have a long ass history hahaha, long enough to be criminal. Anyways. you already know that i got your back. If that TJ kid starts Fucking with you, give me a call.
Hopefully everything goes good for you. Your not an asshole like you call yourself. Shit, your one of the Best people ive met out here.
I truly think, that you should get back together with hannah hahaha. she was good for you. you werent stressed out all the time. anyways, Yea thats what i wanted to say to you.Derek. Dude... The spoon in the pudding. I've learned a lot from you Bro. I've talked with you about it too. You are like me, we think alike. Strange Hahaha.
Your doing good in your life. It may not seem like it at times but You have a future. the next Bill Gates :P Just dont blow it all away man. Im not being judgemental or anything. Im just saying, you did it once
and you can do it again. really it's your choice.Jon. Your one funny Dude. Your a kickass friend. Your very Generous. How the hell to explain a Jonny Boy Hahaha.
Yea. Your making it through life with ease Dude. Your going to school, your doing everything you need to do. well, haha nevermind. Anyways
Keep it up man.Melissa. Jesus, where to start :P Well ill tell you this. Your an extraordinary person. Your more then just some girl. Me and you have talked about a lot of shit together. Iv'e always tried to help you, im not sure if it was succesful help but hey.
Anyways. Ill tell you why your one of the Best people iv'e Ever met.
You saved a life. Girly, you are a hero. I really dont have to say who you saved for im sure you already know. No, im not talking about me lol.
Plus your a kickass friend anyways. You know how to make a crowd smile. I Wish you the best Life that you can have, for you diserve it.Brandy. Hmmmmm, well i can say one thing. Your not hated. Im not even sure that you feel like you are, but it seems like you do.
Dont take life as serious as the Emo's. Your not one of them. If it's that Dumbass boyfriend of yours that is making you feel this way. then you oughta find someone New.For all others whom i didnt list before this message, dont take it personally. i just cant remember all of you right now, it is Now 3:00AM here and my head is about to explode Without the Box to keep the red stuff from getting everywhere *Laughs at winston*So yea, this isnt a Suicide Note, for anyone whom thought it was Hah. Im not done with life, and life isnt finished with me. I still have to get into a High speed chase and Crash my car into the Court House :D This is all Happening around the Age of 80-85 HAhahahaha *Laughs at Winston once more*So how about we live with lifes game, we know how to play.
_______________________________________Only She will Understand_
Falling rain, blessed sky upon the vast and stormy night.
Decieve the Angel who earned the day, When bound by tears to Keep You.
Closer are thieves to taunt the dawn, yet still remain fable.
Hidden within lies a great evil, perspective from above.
Stars are lost, within the Gaze of the Demon's soul.
Because of this Deception, dragging down the unexpected is inevidable.
Prepare for the darkest hour, when light is shining through.
The window Locked but always watched, broken into reality.
Faith to the Loved, this evil targets you.
Unnoticed and confused, yet the note will change your Fate__Understanding and determination will only bring the pain.So seek this Not the hazey Dream for it will bring no Gain.Sequal of the Naught will Buy The key to those whom Fell.Please beware My angel for the Time and I can't Tell.Even if the Dove is lost there is another way.Force away the night my Love to see the light of Day.When inside the final Hour lies Her sprouting Seed.Take Care of it with Soul and heart for this is what you'll need.Now, Keep grasp upon the Wings, for This may be Complete.Know the Death is truly life, with this You can't be Beat.Exist upon the blessed sky so vast a Night of Storms.Control the gaze of Grim to Let the night be lost in thorns.Command the Sorrow of a loss to end the Rain of Fears.This note is only Help, My love, now rid away your Tears._____________________________________________________F
or WinstonTimes are changing my friend, her hay day will fester only knowing the scam she was apart of, corrupting the innocent into the guilty. Lies and deception for knowing the truth and yet they feed us with lies. Conquer your demons with none other then the mighty fist when speech has been forsaken. Remember this Winston, Keep your friends close, with you enemies closer. Maybe this is what weve seen. The possibilities are endless unto why this shit had to happen, but hey. Ive got your back down any road.We are the Crew, and you cant be crew if you disrespect the crew. Screwing with one equals Screwing with all, so lets forsee the matter unto our hands, and good luck my friend, for you are being watched by a helpful hand.
__________________________________________Some things are certain, corruption of heathen minds thought to bounds of certainty. Demon passage and enslaved dreams bound to a world of damnation. Minds Fixed upon the eternal blazing hell of an apocalyptical night, triumph of the Angels tear. Existing on only of those whom judge you. Misunderstanding upon the will of your own. Crying to God as you sit in a puddle of loneliness, wandering if you belong. Neither the hope of hatred nor the path to righteousness will save you now. This misery called life has tormented you so. Conquering Satan to follow God will bring upon you a stranded dream. Deserting God to follow Your will, to leave everyone aside to share your pain, will bring the dreadful night of blackened hope with thoughts of disaster. Multiplying your tears as you drown in loneliness, there is hope. Hope of the Angel who cried for you. Hoping to God that you will make it through. Silent but noticed by whom you love. Hope from beyond the stars above. Lost by the Life that you once had. Making God and the Angels Sad. The fearsome remembered but never as bad. Hope that makes the demons mad. For Hell is to Crowded with the thoughts of pain. Thoughts of Relief that will drive you insane, and since you will find these little strands of Hope, maybe you will not have to cry and Mope. So if your Life is ever threatened with fear. Always remember the Angels Tear. Cherish Life’s moments as you get near. Soon everything will be steadily clear._______________________________________________
Friendship, by Eric OliverEveryday, one person says to another, how are you doing? But what are they really trying to say? Personal response is one thing, but when one person is trying to say something as simple as, hello, or how are you, they are probably trying to express deeper feelings about one another. Like a kid on a school yard, the pressure to tell that special girl that he would like to spend more time with her, it is difficult, so what we say is, how are you. What it is, i believe, is friendship. One that would do something for nothing out of the kindness of ones heart, is friendship. That is the most important thing you can have in life, people to turn to when you have a problem and need support. Trustworthy friendship is a valuable thing. Problems do occur within friendships, sometimes, deeper then you could think of, but when you can go up to that person and talk to them about what it is thats bothering you, That is true friendship.
One day a Man was walking about in a deep, blue sketched sky, as the sidewalk revened into the misty wind.
Lost along the troubles of His sorrow, corrupted with sad and misfortunate feelings about his Loneliness, he see's a bird. Not only does the Majestic and Colorful animal bleach the sky with painted light, but leads him to somewhere different then what he had expected. The flowers blossomed with pedals of blue and the dark souls of the past were behind him. This bird had led him to a place of happiness. As he walked along in a windy free sunlight in a warm pitched sky, the leaves said as fire, he stopped.
Thinking of what could be the best place he could free himself from his troubles, and the animal that led him there. So every chance this man had, walked to this place of fortunative enigma. He met the bird under a willow tree, with diamond leaves, curiosity no longer existed. The bird stood proudly on the swaying branch. The man asked a question. "With what powers you behold take the darkness from me?" Silence was upon him, as the bird flew onto his shoulder, and they walked. Walked an eternity as he presumed. Things were finally looking up in this mans life. The sorrows of damnation to a lonely road were broken and scattered into oblivion. The bird, a true friend.
As along this happy road on a different day, he walked up to the friendly willow tree, full of life. When the angle turned, though, his friend lay on the ground, breathless. Death took it's toll and at that moment the wind pitched in as the sky grew cold with tears. Then he whispered to his fallen angel.Misconception on life is a dream.
Departed along this reality stream.
Fire of devious laughs of death.
Life is not as what it may seem.My friend you have shown me the way.
the sun filled sky and the timeless day.
if only you could know the feelings i had.
but sadly the timing of deaths toll to pay.i was lost and then i was found.
in a bind that seemed to go round.
now i am lost without your light.
since you lay still without making a sound.Our time together was great.
as if opening the heavenly gate.
now you will return to this grace.
because of untimely fate.Now my time will soon come.
to go back where i came from.
lost along the lonely road once again.
truth to find light was found by a friend.
now death seperate us but please remember this.
the time we had will be cherished with bliss.The Story that you have read, will give you reasons to keep your friend. Maybe it wont seem it at first, but they are the most important thing you can have. To earn such a thing can be the easiest thing possible. Now be off with what you have and cherish it with all your love. Respect them, and keep them closer then you would possibly think of doing.
____________________________________Desperation Of a Lifetime by Eric OliverIf One had to wonder what troubles A person might Exagurate Through, Maybe this Wouldn't Be so hard. If Life was way easier, what kind of life could that be? Thoughts of a developmental world withought desperation of despertismic Evaluations on Abrupt Phycological Terms Of The Human Mind, condescend down to three topics that could be thought to be known as suicide, homicide, or the Term that is very Unlikely to the average bistandard or High Rised Equalitarian, the person who commits both without commiting Anything. Rage throughout a persons Dark and misfortunate events through the Desperation of a Lifetime, This is Dangerous to presume the unbound certainty of life and its questions. Finding True Happyness is a Mystery to even the Most Brilliant Of Minds and troubles the profound. Quarters into ones heart is yet an inevidability and an unseen doubt that conquers most of the facts of life. Death is just another Beggining. To Bring Death is thought of to be murderous and a theif. A Homicidal Suicide is One of the Greatest questions that is to be asked. It brings to mind the torcherous and mischeivious thoughts of one another to collide into an opinion. One person can live optionally off opinions or a great uncertainty of fear. As this One human Life can forsee the greatest possibilities of the impossible, to question ones ways is a deed for Uletide. Fidelity and Bounds of light, will bring Happiness and Fortunative Colladeral Sympatheticly Ruined Thoughts. To Understand What I have to say, you must first look into what I have overcome and what I had lost on this Road into a Screaming Black Oblivion of Disasterous Dreams. My Uletide of corrupt and forsaken thoughts are none but for the hopeless and the Powers of our world. Rememberance of Difficult choices on a pathway to hell are brought into thought about the negativity and the unfortunate collectivity of terrible memories. If this could be explained for The Homicidal Suicide that in a reality is inept and unseen to the mind of a stranger. one must Live as One to Know One. Remember this if your questions are reliable enough to unlock the secrets of one anothers lifes and ways on how they bring upon it. Sequals to this Story are indecisive and unwanted, so there is no need for an indirect opinion upon the fragile mind. Something Says to Me, that One day, everybody will see the truth. The Truth of Truths is Out there. there is just one question, are you willing to search for it, this Desperation Of a lifetime?
______________________________________________Truth by Eric Oliver.Truthful lies bound to certainty, Indecisive thoughts of strength and immortality. Something Tells me that No one is a truthful liar. Liars are fiends in deception concluding upon Threats and rage. These ideals are terrifying to the Unbound Certainty of Truth. When a truth is revealed, these thoughts are forgiven, and passes throughout the generations. Is it the truth that people throw Religion and facts withought unsovergn proof on one another and twist reality to a new perception? Religion is just a way to hide the Truth of what is to come when death takes you away. No book, or story will tell you where you go or what you do in the grave. A mysterious event may seem ridiculous to the unteachable. Preciseley Who has the conclusions to deaths Mystery, yet only we believe in Lies. The truth is unseeable. it is mistreated and abused to whom we speak with. To tell the truth of something, must have a conclusion of the Truths. What is behind it? Why is it so hard to see? questionable immortality Is yet another problem facing us today. There is a Truth of Truths, but is it inevidible to see it?___________________________________________-For HannahLife is troubled, but we get through.
no one really cares, and yes this is true.
fierce and tremendous fights then abrupt.
as life passes by, our feelings fail to erupt.quarters and praise, the only thing is you.
so when your life is at stake, know you'll make it through.
things happen for reasons, for one side and both.
just know this, their are people who hide their loath.
for one thing is certain that you can see to abide.
there is always someone standing right by your side.problems are solved and mature away.
there is one last thing i would like to say.
if ever your disturbed to where lifes at a threat.
look up to the stars, you'll find hope i'll bet.
so dont be mistreated, for you diserve more then that.
your love when abused thrown away like a rat.so listen to this theres always one last card.
to help you through life, its troubles being so hard.
so find the courage for one last fight.
and when you find it, youll enter this true blessed light.___________________________________________________
