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Kray

Cheers.

About Me

This is the short form.
p? The Long form.
12 fun facts
I have a tattoo under my right sole that says “Return to USA” parents names and my SSI. Incase I was killed in Yugoslavia back in 1993. Feet can survive most anything. I used to see a few detached on patrol.
Lying to me is impossible; part of this is from a 9 months in a coma. I miss that coma because it woke me up where others are asleep.
I have over 22 stitches scars on my face that only show if I am mad.
It’s impossible for me to show extreme excitement or become really angry I was conditioned not to be.
I spent 4 months living in a Buddhist temple when I was 5 years old because my aunt took custody of me. She lived next to a temple and the monks baby sat me while my aunt was at work. My aunt even let them shave my head. My temple name is Kray that is how I got it.
I wrote a novelette that was published but to embarrassed to tell anyone. My pseudonym does ok with that however.
I’ve survived 24 of my friends and squad mates. My Christmas card list is really short.
I found out love has a shelf life, about 3 months then expires.
I have a lint-sized speck of white matter in my brain that is cutting off my color vision on occasion. I am told this will go away in a few months completely. I am very happy because MRI’s cost bank.
I would kill ever panda to save one child with terminal illness. But all the Pandas are behind enclosures. Darn, but twice a week I try to read the kids stories because that is all I can do really.
I donate every gift given me or work bonus to charity because I don’t want anything. I gave away $11,000 bucks when I was 18 because I felt bad that others would benefit.
Dandelion extract has an amino acid that I don’t have. Other foods are ginger raw cinnamon supposedly. I always crave these things. it's like living on flowers and it taste like fresh cut lawns.
I still love you and maybe that fact is all you need. I don't hate you, wish you the best and nothing is written. Just chill and the program will return in time.

My Interests

Painting. Writing with dyslexia. Trying to stay focused on one thing at a time and not bite off to much.

I'd like to meet:

I am drawn to the unseen world just beyound your matress and bedboard to the corner and in the dust bunnies that lay heaped like dead bodies.
If you carry a handgun and fear slipping monsters from unseen places.
If you cannot draw and want me to draw your portrait.
If you can be something other then be disposable.
Drop me a line.

Music:

Anything that sounds like an electric keyboard, guitar and voice distortion pedal falling out of a DC 3 from 17,000 feet.

Movies:

Soylent Green
Omega Man
TXH-1138
A Boy and His Dog.
V is For Vendetta.
Kung Fu Hustle
Man Bites Dog.
A Mighty Wind.
Goodnight & Good Luck.
The Sin of Harold Diddlebock.
Imitation of Life.
The Glass Key.
Dead End.
The Fountainhead.
The Bicycle Thief.
Fail Safe.
24 Hour Party People.
Velvet Goldmine.
The Taking of Pelham 1,2,3.
The Eagle Has Landed.
Pippi in the South Seas.
28 Days Later.
Bio Dome.
Say Anything.
Better Off Dead.
Band of the Hand.
The Thing.
Two Lane Blacktop.
Vanishing Point.
Thief.
Killing Zoe.
Way of the Gun.
Snatch.
Schindler's List.
Last Man Standing.
Lord of War.
Grandma's Boy.
Waiting for Gufman.
The Zero Effect.
Land of the Dead.

Television:

I have not watched TV in some time....10-12 years

Books:

The Man in the High Castle
I Am Legend
Fight Club
We The Living
Atlas Shrugged
LA Confidential
The Big Empty
Fahrenheit 451
1984
The Alienist
Do Androids Dream of Electornic Sheep

Heroes:

All my hero's are dead.

My Blog

The Working Hour.

If you find yourself deleted, it is nothing personal. It is by no means what you think.I can pass this peice of advice, pop psychology or whatever you so wish...All things in time.
Posted by Kray on Thu, 01 Mar 2007 10:44:00 PST

And farewell

Two weeks ago I decided that for the life I've lived for it be good or bad it is my life and that I've lived by my words, been judged by them. I've done honorable deeds, and not so honorable things. I...
Posted by Kray on Wed, 28 Feb 2007 10:13:00 PST

Right about here

I ran out of things to write about or say.
Posted by Kray on Tue, 27 Feb 2007 09:12:00 PST

Note Worthy (Saturdays Blog Today)

Original conversation and posted with permission. I'd only ever thought it worth sharring because it came about organically with basically a stranger I'd never meet yet respect. I'd hate to not share ...
Posted by Kray on Sat, 24 Feb 2007 09:41:00 PST

Short books for big problems.

It's Friday, with a certain amount of effort I should be excited.I think about people how I try to make friends and the idea just does not work. Everyone I meet in LA has something perusing him or her...
Posted by Kray on Fri, 23 Feb 2007 09:03:00 PST

Limitations of a native tongue

I attempted to follow some instructions 2 months ago about how to deal with my gig. Tell people that I don't want to speak right now but be nice. However in English, my native tongue when I was messed...
Posted by Kray on Thu, 22 Feb 2007 03:07:00 PST

A certain amount of words

Weeks ago someone responded to a comment I'd made on a bad day. Said something out of anger or hurt that has since drilled into my being and upset me. Since then it has attempted to burn a hole throug...
Posted by Kray on Tue, 20 Feb 2007 08:25:00 PST

Remember this?

I should be asleep but I had a 3 hour nap due to my stomach being upset. I ate cheese. However if you been coming to my page, you'll maybe recall my old statement which is pretty much all you need to...
Posted by Kray on Fri, 16 Feb 2007 12:44:00 PST

A Cautionary reminder

I'm finding I have nothing much to say. Surprising. I found myself actually happy on the phone yesterday. I really wanted to speak to someone and was happy yet somehow sad. Though I have deep feelings...
Posted by Kray on Fri, 16 Feb 2007 06:55:00 PST

And this was today.

Showing up at 8:10PM to an empty room in East LA. With no one there to receive the gift it is sad. A nurse says he is gone.Cryptic messages.He'd once written. It takes a special constitution to be abl...
Posted by Kray on Wed, 14 Feb 2007 10:13:00 PST