The Mass Illusion known as Ashley

About Me

Chaos, I am me and I am anything and everything you need and want but that doesnt make me happy. I am me but I am nothing I have no form I am an Illusion of your thoughts I have no way i this world I jus slide by going unnoticed when I do and dont want to be. Darkness and light bind within me I am neither yet I am both.

My Interests

I like food and computers and games and drawing and pretty things and happy people and magick and smiling and roses....YEA.. And I hate sleep... whats that silly thing for ANYWAYS ---------------------

I'd like to meet:

someone close someone who will care even if I do nothing someone who will never hurt me some one whi will lead me to the light and kiss me in the dark hug me in the rain and shade me from the sun I need you close

Music:

I like alot of diffrent music.. including... rock, piano, oldies, some country, classical, emo, some metal, some rap, a lil jazz, hip-hop, and pop.

Movies:

The Game-Queen of the Damed -Underworld- ---

Television:

I love Witch Hunter Robin ..... and almost all other anime .....Chobits!Chobits! Gotta love Chobits too! Yea!

Books:

Sword of truth series: Wizards first rule ..ect-

Heroes:

My heros are... people who make my life livable.http://www.myspace.com/cipher_enigmaamoungst others that I wont name Why? because they dont want to be'those who make me who I am who helped me shape my way wiether freind or foe they made me the way i am today i thank you kindly i love you so anything that hasnt killed me made me stronger and thus I thank you all'

My Blog

white room - light

Its so bright out it scares me Its so light out I am afriad no one is here to keep me safe no one to take my hand and lead me into the light no one to hold me safe when all is not right I am scared of...
Posted by The Mass Illusion known as Ashley on Sun, 16 Mar 2008 09:18:00 PST

White room - dreams

Dreams they are scary Dreams they are real They are all that I have that has never left me that has never burdened me but wait they do The dreams I rember them they are me they are who I am I dream of...
Posted by The Mass Illusion known as Ashley on Sun, 16 Mar 2008 09:11:00 PST

darkness now

I will go back to my room back to my room and dream darkness now my mind goes hazy life seems not worth but I live because other wish it darkness now good night sleep well...
Posted by The Mass Illusion known as Ashley on Sun, 16 Mar 2008 09:24:00 PST

white room - posiion

when I get quiet people worry and they should when I am quiet the darkness take me I see the world as it is and hate it I see what I lost I see who and what I am empty so empty I am when I get like th...
Posted by The Mass Illusion known as Ashley on Sun, 16 Mar 2008 09:22:00 PST

white room - them

I remeber that night the night I lost me I was alone I was scared and the doctors had said ashley there not real there not real ashley and with them you can never be happy we wont let you be happy wi...
Posted by The Mass Illusion known as Ashley on Sun, 16 Mar 2008 09:15:00 PST

The white room - game

I play and be happy I laugh and its fun but after I am sad it is not real it is a game then I am back back siting in my chair alone no where to go no one to talk to because im scared because its ...
Posted by The Mass Illusion known as Ashley on Sun, 16 Mar 2008 09:07:00 PST

white rooms - the window

I remeber the feeling of needing fresh air I remeber lookin gout the window and saying please I need to go there but they said now and that I couldnt go so the need left me Now I sit and look out my w...
Posted by The Mass Illusion known as Ashley on Sun, 16 Mar 2008 09:04:00 PST

Day-dream

Light a lil too bright Dark just right Make me evil? To see the beauty of black must the light be good? I see the right hide in darkness and the hate hide in the light so am I now good because I hide ...
Posted by The Mass Illusion known as Ashley on Thu, 28 Feb 2008 05:19:00 PST

PIKA-CHU!

Take a lil more breath why does the darkness always try to swirl about so strong Why does hate tryto take my heart I will naught let it No Why does darkness seem so sweet Why does it tantlize me I kno...
Posted by The Mass Illusion known as Ashley on Sun, 27 Jan 2008 08:03:00 PST

* seems out of character *

Just another day still havent found that rainbow Just another life I've yet to live Just another day I work myself through Just another heartache I cant fix Pain is something I must treasure to live C...
Posted by The Mass Illusion known as Ashley on Thu, 17 Jan 2008 05:46:00 PST