On July 3, 2003 my grandmother (Lillian Ramsey) had a stroke while I was still away at church camp. This was the week for many bad things. Church camp was canceled early due to electrical problems and I was preparing to leave and go home.
As I was about to leave, my friends mother (Betty Ellis) told me that my grandma would be in her prayers. This confused me when she said that as I didn't know what she was talking about. When I asked her what she meant; she said: "Your mother or nobody has contacted you? Your grandma had a stroke" This brought my tears to my eyes which is something I rarely ever do. But being a happy kid and still a follower of god my faith in the lords abilities to heal didn't waver, but I did begin to question god.
My grandma was still alive but was basically mindless and would often begin to blurb random names and words. From then on seeing no results from continued prayer for my grandma, I began to become a very angry person. Rage, anger and hatred filled me. I wanted nothing to do with god and was easily angered by the smallest of things. I would still goto church but would leave unchanged and still bitter at god. I began to no longer feel the holyspirit or anything from god.
As time went on I knew I had an anger issue but I would try minor things not related to god to try and fix the anger issues myself. I would go and relive my younger days by watching dbz, cartoons and other stuff that I used to watch or play old videogames. It would only temporarily help me.
Recently I wanted to research voice actors so I looked up my favorite which is none other than Android 18 from dragonballz. I found that the voice actor was known as Meredith Mauldin now and eventually I found her myspace.
When I found her myspace, I was amazed to find out that she is now a christian rock artist. So I listened to one of her songs titled "Release the angels" (which is playing on my profile now) I again did something I rarely do and that is cry. I could feel the power of the holyspirit and god moving on my heart through that song.
God works in different ways for everybody and this is how he worked through me. It is not a coincidence that I found her myspace or was interested in android 18 enough to find it.
Meredith has made a huge impact on my life and now I'm more interested in god than I've ever been. I goto church again, my anger is completely gone, I feel completely at peace for the first time in my entire life and I now serve god once again. I am now praying for god to reveal to me his perfect plan for my life so that I can be obedient and follow it.
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Fortune Telling and Fortune cookies is nonsense but this was the message I just received in a fortune cookie. And if that is not a message from god then I dont know what is. Ofcourse struggle never does truly end but I gotta say WOW.
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