Remember When

Some would know and some will never. some will try and some wont have to. Some will see and some will never want to. But only the truth lies within. Who really knows. and who really cares. For I have never wanted to be this. I have never wanted to feel this. I wish I would have never. I will not be this. Will not let this. I will not let you know. You wont see it coming because you dont care to. And when it does you still wont. I hate this so much. And there is nothing but everthing that I can to not change nor erase but to overcome and live from what this has become. For my heart is too complex for your simplcity of a mind to grasp. My being is too fragile to let your carelesness devoure. You have taken so much from me only to let the next pick at the mess you have made. I have not found who I am but I can garantee its not within you. I do not trust the eyes of the taking. I do not love the taking of the blind. I do not love you for what you have made me and I am sorry that have only tried to make you love me. I have a gift. Yet they only know, when I shall... it will be too late. I had a heart bigger than most yet I have wasted it on you to be left without . I had dream that I was in a nightmare. Only to wake up next to you. I had ambition and a will and you told me I wasnt worth it. I had a soul and you sold it. Not the the devil of course. How simple that should have been. For its been left to touch the undeserving only to salt my open wounds of a heart. To keep on feeling, only of hurt of course. You left it to slowly die within me. To ignore my conversation to call it a disturbance and to replace it with your questioning and blame. Only to hear of an empty voice shouting of the silent promises. To try so hard to break what I fix only to find its always my heart. Why dont they lose. Why dont they feel. What has become of all of you. Rid of me. And what you think you know..because I can promise one thing. You will never.